I wake up and venture in my closet and change, I have an appointment today and I am dreading.

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Getting into the car and sign of the times is playing. I smile and reminisce. Dad and I both silent as he drives to the hospital. He parks underground, getting out i walk slowly deliberately. Pulling phone out no new messages.

Anyway I need to focus on here and now. My palms are sweaty, my heart racing, nausea rising.

I check in the waiting room and well wait. I tap my foot nervously, while dad is on his phone.
While waiting I go scroll through my photos and wish I was back on vacation. I haven't been back on Australian turf for twenty fours hours and I miss it. I guess I miss the ability of freedom.

My name is called and my heart is palpitating I gulp my saliva, stand and stride towards my fate.


"Ok so with these symptoms you experienced." I avoid eye contact to my dad. "It saddens me to say, you will need dialysis sooner than later. I'm sorry." The doctor announces but I think suddenly I am deaf.

"How soon?" My dad speaks on my behalf. "Well I want another round of bloods, see what the levels are doing. But within two months."

Can she stop talking ?

My heart is beating loud and it won't stop. This out of body experience is belittling me.


"And it will be done at home." My dad asks and the doctor nods. "A night nurse will come by and connect her."


"So she will need surgery?" Stop asking questions.

"Yes a catheter will be surgically placed in her stomach."

"Yea I know we've been through this when she was younger."


"Dianna, sweetheart any questions?" The doctor asks. I randomly reply whimpering "Harry."

"Pardon?"

"Uh nothing. Can I go now?"

"Of course go home, digest. Please do call if you need anything."

I don't mean to be rude but I stand up and leave without a goodbye.

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Harry's POV:


"Oh I am so sorry." I hear Lou. "Can I talk, can I talk?" I bounce up and down. She points her index finger for me to shush. I invade her space and can hear Dianna's fathers voice. Shit has he been crying?


I run upstairs and attempt to call her but there is no answer. What is wrong?


I am back in London in my home I hope to bring Dianna one day. I return to my lounge and see Lou in the backyard pacing.


I collect my mail and yes it is here. I take the paperwork and sign my life away. There is nothing I am more sure of.


I notice a crying Lou. "What happened?" Do I wanna know.

"Poor family?"

"Lou what happened?" I demand.






"When" I sit here stunned. Why is life constantly unfair to her? "Hard to say within a couple months."

"That's not enough time" I pull the roots of my hair. "Harry are you sure you want to do this?"

I just look at her. "Do you think she will be able to come to the show in Melbourne I mean."

"The only thing you can do is ask". Lou says.

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