A brand new day. I don't want to start, but I am in New York so I'm going to enjoy myself.

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Dad, Lou and I are sitting at breakfast table at the hotel. They are getting along great, I am so happy.

"So I thought we could have a girls day?" Lou suggest. "Sounds good."


"Where's Harry?" My dad asks. I look at Lou I don't know if she knows. "Ahh he has a show tonight so probably resting up." Lou intervenes.



Back in my room I sing along while getting ready.

Oh, tell me something I don't already know
Oh, tell me something I don't already know
Brooklyn saw me, empty at the news

There's no water inside this swimming pool
Almost over, had enough from you
And I've been praying, I never did before
Understand I'm talking to the walls
I've been praying ever since New York


Tell me something, tell me something
You don't know nothing, just pretend you do
Tell me something just before you go

The relevance I feel is uncanny.


I finish getting ready.

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"Ok see you later dad." I kiss his cheek. "have fun."



"Hey." I greet Lou in the lobby. Shit and there is Harry. Act cool. "I ahh forgot something" I lie bolting away from him.

Why must it be like this. After some time away I return to the lobby.

"That wasn't subtle." Lou jokes. "Has he said anything?" I ask her. "No, nothing at all his been acting weird." So it's not just me.


"Shopping." Lou grins, god yes that is what I need.

---

"I think I bough the entire fifth avenue." I say holding multiple bags in each hand. "Ditto" Lou agrees.

"Coming to the show tonight?"

"I don't think that's a good idea." I say honestly.

"Oh come on, you'll be my guest." She pouts. "Ok, ok"


"Come to my room and we can get ready."

"Sounds good." I wink. "See ya in twenty."

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I arrive at Lou's room.

"Damm girl, you look hot."

I roll my eyes.

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"Ummm so do you."

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"Ok let's do this." She takes me to the makeup room.



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"Let's go." She says happily. Inside I am dreading.



We arrive at the venue backstage. I will try my best to avoid him. Too late.

"I'm here with Lou." I defend myself. "It's fine." Can he not smile it's so distracting. Wait it is fine? I thought he doesn't want to see me. Well after tonight he won't. Tomorrow is my last day in New York I am so sad to leave I don't know when I will come back again that is the problem. Then five days Hawaii nothing but laying in the sun.

---

"I'm Harry Styles you've been amazing New York."


Meet me in the hallway
Meet me in the hallway
I just left your bedroom
Give me some morphine
Is there any more to do?


I smile evidently. This is one of my favourites, again because it so relatable. Well I don't know what perspective Harry wrote this, but I can agree on a health perspective.


Just let me know I'll be at the door, at the door
Hoping you'll come around
Just let me know I'll be on the floor, on the floor
Maybe we'll work it out
I gotta get better, gotta get better
I gotta get better, gotta get better
I gotta get better, gotta get better
And maybe we'll work it out


I always find some myself on the floor crying, hoping a miracle and some hope will come and maybe all of it will work out and I will get better.


We don't talk about it
It's something we don't do
'Cause once you go without it
Nothing else will do

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