The Darkest Night

Pain.

It was the only thing enthralling me, soul crushing, brain freezing pain. I could feel the warmth of the blood that slowly leaked from my side as I struggled through the thick mud like haze that gripped my mind. The sounds of scuffling were faint and slowly descending into gentle silence. I never knew what it was like to die. It was the one thing that scientifically was impossible to study, the exact feelings, the exact moments when life leaves the body.

I knew that I was past that point, the point of no return. Some part of me didn’t care. I kept hearing the crack and seeing the silhouetted form slump to the ground. It hadn’t been an overwhelming feeling sorrow that filled me but a numbness and inability to feel much of anything at all. Now as I stood in the face of my own demise I couldn’t seem to bring myself to do anything more than wait to the end.

What are you supposed to do when you only have two minutes left to live? I had no crowning achievements to leave to the world. There was nothing I could do in that time to make a difference, to make sure that I didn’t leave behind nothing in this world. But the only person who might miss me was a large white cat who really only loved me for food. We had tried to do something, make a difference, save lives but in reality the people we saved were probably better off without us. It was a fools mission, the idea of saving the world but we just couldn’t see it, too stubborn to do anything more than persist.

Maybe if we hadn’t things would have been different. Maybe if I had never picked up that phone I would still be sitting at my desk trying to atone for my sings. Maybe if I had followed their words, their pleas to let the proper people investigate it the answers might not die with me. Maybe if we hadn’t started this in the first place they would be alive.

They say that your life flashes before your eyes before you die but all I could see was the darkness. In the darkness there was only a single face, eyes gentle and welcoming. It was a face that I never thought I would ever see again but the irrationality of my mind brought back all of my what ifs as my life slowly leaked from me. I raised my hand into the air a last effort to reach the one person that I loved with all my heart but would never have. But I was only met with a growing look of disgust as the face slowly turned away and faded into the dark leaving a vacuum of silence and the return of the pain. With nothing left to live for I welcomed the blackness that welcomed me into its warm embrace.

Notes

Sorry this took so long to get up I had midterms. But I managed to get this and the first 4 chapters finished on the plane so yay more soon :)

Let me know what you think

-Abby