"This is wrong. I can't do this." I said and pushed him back before things got further, out of my hands. Harry stepped back, looking confused and shocked.

"What?"

"I'm sorry, Harry I just can't, not now. I'm not ready for this." I said, looking at the door. I couldn't look him in the eye, I was so embarrassed that left myself go this far with him. He cupped my cheek and gave me a light kiss.

"Hey look at me." I looked up and saw him smiling sweetly. "It's okay. I'm sorry. I just thought you wanted to-"

"You need to go." Harry got off of me and looked at me as if he was trying to process what I just said.

"Jane-"

"Please go."

"Are you okay?" He asked, worry written all over his face. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'm okay I just..." I trailed off. I didn't know what to say but I was embarrassed. I walked to my closet and grabbed my pyjamas.

"Jane I'm really sorry-"

"Harry, I'm fine." I said walking to him and giving him a light kiss. "Sorry." He engulfed me in a warm hug. "Lets just sleep."

"Do you want me to stay?"

"Yes." I answered quickly.

Harry smiled and we both laid on the bed, close to each other. This was my last night in London, my last night with Harry so I couldn't be mad at him for something that wasn't his fault.

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Harry's POV

I woke up to the sun shining bright through the blinds. I looked down at Jane and saw her sleeping peacefully, her head was beside my chest and her arm was draped across my body. God she was perfect, so beautiful. I looked around and saw all her suitcases next to her closet, I couldn't believe she was leaving today, I couldn't stand that thought, I wanted her to stay with me but I knew she couldn't, so I was going to enjoy my last moments with her.

She looked so beautiful I couldn't stop staring at her. I rubbed her back softly and kissed her forehead and felt her stir next to me.

"Morning beautiful." I said stroking her hair.

"Morning." She said with a sad smile.

She looked at the clock that read 9:12 and got up. She was just wearing a shirt and her legs looked so long. She yawned and ran her fingers through her beautiful long tangled hair, loosening the knots on it and then flipped her hair a little. Oh man. I walked to her and wrapped my arms around her waist.

"Harry." She laughed.

Oh I was going to miss that laugh. I gave her a light sweet kiss on her neck before letting her go. She smiled and gave me a quick kiss before she walked into the bathroom.

I laid back down on her bed and looked at the ceiling sighing and wishing she could stay in my arms. I heard the shower running and soon I heard her beautiful voice singing.

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn.

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Jane's POV

After a long hot shower I brushed my hair and let it air dry. When I walked out of the bathroom my cellphone was ringing and Harry was nowhere to be seen.

"Hello?"

"Hi sweetie." I heard my mom's voice.

"Hey mom. How's everything?"

"It's good. Listen, we want you to drive back early okay? We don't want you to arrive here at night."

"Yes mom. I will just have breakfast and say goodbye to my friends. I should arrive at around 4pm."

So this was it, my last day in London. I talked for a few minutes with my mom and then I quickly changed. All of my clothes were packed, and Cat's toys and everything was packed, that silly cat disappeared for a couple days and got me worried sick. I wanted to use Cat as an excuse to stay here a couple more days but mom told me I couldn't, fortunately she returned home before I left back to Scotland, I didn't want to leave her here.

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I took my suitcases downstairs and closed every door in this house before walking to the kitchen. Harry was there with a plate full of strawberries and kiwi for me.

"Thank you." I smiled taking the plate from his hands. "I love strawberries and kiwi."

"I know."

After breakfast Harry helped me clean everything up. The boys and girls arrived about 30 minutes later to say goodbye. They helped me get everything in my car and Niall helped me catch Car who was running around the house, she didn't want to leave either. After everything, including Cat, was in my car it was time to say goodbye.

"So this is it." I said as I closed the front door. I turned around and saw them next to my car. "Guys... thank you for coming."

"We’re going to miss you." Niall said.

"I’m going to miss you too guys."

"You promise you’ll call us?" Perrie asked.

"Of course I do."

"You better, luv." Danielle spoke.

"I will. I just hope you have time to talk. And I hope you’ll still remember me."

"How could we ever forget you?" Louis said teary eyed.

This was it, the final goodbye. I went to Perrie first I gave her a long hug and a kiss.

"I promised myself I wouldn’t cry." She said as she tried to hold her tears in.

I told her to take care and that I'd see them soon. I wished her the best in her career and I promised her I would see her in concert some day.

"You better." She smiled. "You take care."

Danielle was standing next to Perrie. I gave her a hug and kiss as well and told them the same thing I had told Perrie. She hugged me and wished me the best of luck in high school and everything. Next was Liam, then Zayn.

"Well love, this is it. I’m really going to miss you." Liam looked me in the eyes. He told me to take care and that if they could they’d visit me one day, which I doubted, but it was a nice thought either way.

"Cheer up Jane!" Zayn smiled. "We’ll see each other soon and we will keep in touch."

I gave him a long hug and a kiss and I told him to care of himself. Zayn returned the kiss and once again reassured me that I could get in touch with them anytime. Next was Niall.

“Don’t ever change. Stay as sweet as you are. We’ll be seeing you and don’t forget us." Niall said as he kissed my cheek.

"I won’t. I could never forget you guys. That’s impossible." I said, tears falling down my cheek.

Louis was next. He took me in his arms as if he didn't want to let me go. I looked up at him and she him looking somewhere else, he couldn't look at me, his eyes were watering.

"You are one of my best friends Louis." I said resting my head on his shoulder. "I can talk to you and I always have so much fun with you." I said, my voice was cracking at this point. He finally looked down at me but didn't say anything. "Take care okay? I'm going to miss you so much." I gave him a last kiss on his forehead and pulled away from his embrace.

"Harry..." I said as I lunged at him giving him a hug. He embraced me.

"I love you." He whispered. I started crying harder as our goodbye progressed.

"You will always be in my heart. I love you, don’t ever forget that." I said. He took my face in his hands and kissed me once more. I pulled away and walked to my car.

"I’ll see you guys soon... hopefully."

"Of course we’ll see you. We’ll call you when we have time.” Liam said.

All five boys blew me kisses as I got in the car. I waved one last time and pulled out into the road.

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