Here Without You
Chapter 5
Edward's POV
"Yeah sure whatever." Shay responded. I took her hand and slipped the ring on she started to cry and ran out. I knew she would hate this. She hated me and always had. Shay had good reasons to hate me. I was very mean to her as kids and teenagers. I had seen the scars and cuts on her wrists and arms. Sure it bothered me because I had always liked her, but being mean to her was the only way to get her to notice me. I walked towards the direction Shay had ran and saw her sitting in the hallway crying into another guy's chest. Yes it hurt somewhat to see that but I understood.
It was the end of the event and I saw Shay and her mother talking. Shay started to walk over to me. "My mom told me I was going to be spending the night with you?" Shay questioned. "Uhh yeah I kinda wanted to talk." I said back. She nodded, "Can I go say goodbye to someone?" "Yeah." I said back knowing who she was going to say bye to. She walked up to the guy who was holding her earlier and they talked for a minute. I saw he began to cry a little and she hugged him and walked back to me. "Here's your bag." I said handing her the bag my mother gave me earlier with all her stuff. "Thanks." She said taking the bag. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and started to walk to my car.
Once we were back to my flatt she still looked upset. I helped her out of my car and walked her with her to my door. When we were inside she looked around. "Your flatt is great." She said awkwardly. 'Shay Im sorry I was mean to you I-I ju-" I was then cut off by Shay, "I dont care." She said looking around. "Wheres the spare bedroom I want to sleep." She said mad. "I-I dont h-h-have one. I thought you could sleep with me?" I asked cautiously. She turned around with an annoyed look on her face. "Fine whatever." She huffed. "Okay well I was hoping we could talk?" I asked. "Yeah but can I change first?" She asked gesturing towards her dress. "Sure" I answered. "You look beautiful. By the way." I added quitely. "What?" She turned around shocked. "I said you look beautiful." I answered. "Wow." She said sarcastically. "What?" I asked slightly offened. "Well coming from the boy that told me I was ugly and fat for so many years straight, its hard to believe." She snapped back. She then walked into my room to change.
A minute later she came out still in her dress. "Uh there werent and pjs in my bag." She said awkwardly. "Oh." I said getting up. I went to my closet and pulled out one of my shirts for her. "Here." I said handing her the shirt. "Thank you. But what about pants?" She asked. "I dont really have any since I just wear my boxers." I said looking around. "Sweatpants?" She questioned and I shook my head 'no'. "Okay." She said and pushed me out of the room. After a few minutes she came out of my room. My shirt reached mid-thigh on her and she looked so good. "I dont feel comfortable." She said trying to cover herself more. "Im sorry." I sighed. She came and sat down next to me on my couch. I looked down at her and she looked up at me. "Im soo sorry what I did to you when we were younger." I said touching her face. She looked away from me and I pulled her face back.
"Shay im so sorry. I never thought any of those things. I just wanted you to notice me." I said putting both of my hands on her face. "Edward you really hurt me! I wanted to kill myself because of the things you said!" She yelled trying to get away from me. I wrapped both of my arms around her waist and pulled her closer. "Show me your scars." I said looking into her eyes. "What?" She asked confused. "I know you cut. Please show me your scars." I begged again. She sighed and took off her braclets. I saw all the cuts and scars and felt water in my eyes. "Im so sorry." I said kissing her wrists. I looked up at her. "There's more." She sighed. "Its okay." I said pulling up her chin. She lifted up her shirt and showed me the scars and cuts on the inside of her thighs and hips. I pulled down her lacey underwear slightly to kiss the scars on her hips. I then started to kiss her thighs.
Shay moaned slightly. I looked up at her and her eyes were tightly closed and she was grabbing the couch. I put my head back down and rubbed my nose up her underwear. She pulled back and moaned louder. "Please Ed. Not right now." She said trying to control herself. I crawled up until I was on top of her. I dipped my head down and started to kiss her. I pulled away and put my head next to her ear. "You smelt so good." I whispered. She moaned quitely as I began to nibble on her earlobe. I tried to move my hand down but she stopped me and pushed me off of her. "Ed you hurt me very badly and I dont know if I can forgive you. I dont want to marry you I never will want to but I have to. Now either I sleep on the couch or you do but Im not sleeping with you." She said trying to get away. I sighed, "Ill sleep on the couch." She nodded and went to my room. I felt tears coming when her phone vibrated.
From: Harry<3
Baby I miss you and I love you I wish you didnt have to spend the night there I want to hold you): Goodnight love
Harry xx
I read the text and set her phone down. I started to cry. I hated that Harry guy. Shay was mine and she would never see him.
"Yeah sure whatever." Shay responded. I took her hand and slipped the ring on she started to cry and ran out. I knew she would hate this. She hated me and always had. Shay had good reasons to hate me. I was very mean to her as kids and teenagers. I had seen the scars and cuts on her wrists and arms. Sure it bothered me because I had always liked her, but being mean to her was the only way to get her to notice me. I walked towards the direction Shay had ran and saw her sitting in the hallway crying into another guy's chest. Yes it hurt somewhat to see that but I understood.
It was the end of the event and I saw Shay and her mother talking. Shay started to walk over to me. "My mom told me I was going to be spending the night with you?" Shay questioned. "Uhh yeah I kinda wanted to talk." I said back. She nodded, "Can I go say goodbye to someone?" "Yeah." I said back knowing who she was going to say bye to. She walked up to the guy who was holding her earlier and they talked for a minute. I saw he began to cry a little and she hugged him and walked back to me. "Here's your bag." I said handing her the bag my mother gave me earlier with all her stuff. "Thanks." She said taking the bag. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and started to walk to my car.
Once we were back to my flatt she still looked upset. I helped her out of my car and walked her with her to my door. When we were inside she looked around. "Your flatt is great." She said awkwardly. 'Shay Im sorry I was mean to you I-I ju-" I was then cut off by Shay, "I dont care." She said looking around. "Wheres the spare bedroom I want to sleep." She said mad. "I-I dont h-h-have one. I thought you could sleep with me?" I asked cautiously. She turned around with an annoyed look on her face. "Fine whatever." She huffed. "Okay well I was hoping we could talk?" I asked. "Yeah but can I change first?" She asked gesturing towards her dress. "Sure" I answered. "You look beautiful. By the way." I added quitely. "What?" She turned around shocked. "I said you look beautiful." I answered. "Wow." She said sarcastically. "What?" I asked slightly offened. "Well coming from the boy that told me I was ugly and fat for so many years straight, its hard to believe." She snapped back. She then walked into my room to change.
A minute later she came out still in her dress. "Uh there werent and pjs in my bag." She said awkwardly. "Oh." I said getting up. I went to my closet and pulled out one of my shirts for her. "Here." I said handing her the shirt. "Thank you. But what about pants?" She asked. "I dont really have any since I just wear my boxers." I said looking around. "Sweatpants?" She questioned and I shook my head 'no'. "Okay." She said and pushed me out of the room. After a few minutes she came out of my room. My shirt reached mid-thigh on her and she looked so good. "I dont feel comfortable." She said trying to cover herself more. "Im sorry." I sighed. She came and sat down next to me on my couch. I looked down at her and she looked up at me. "Im soo sorry what I did to you when we were younger." I said touching her face. She looked away from me and I pulled her face back.
"Shay im so sorry. I never thought any of those things. I just wanted you to notice me." I said putting both of my hands on her face. "Edward you really hurt me! I wanted to kill myself because of the things you said!" She yelled trying to get away from me. I wrapped both of my arms around her waist and pulled her closer. "Show me your scars." I said looking into her eyes. "What?" She asked confused. "I know you cut. Please show me your scars." I begged again. She sighed and took off her braclets. I saw all the cuts and scars and felt water in my eyes. "Im so sorry." I said kissing her wrists. I looked up at her. "There's more." She sighed. "Its okay." I said pulling up her chin. She lifted up her shirt and showed me the scars and cuts on the inside of her thighs and hips. I pulled down her lacey underwear slightly to kiss the scars on her hips. I then started to kiss her thighs.
Shay moaned slightly. I looked up at her and her eyes were tightly closed and she was grabbing the couch. I put my head back down and rubbed my nose up her underwear. She pulled back and moaned louder. "Please Ed. Not right now." She said trying to control herself. I crawled up until I was on top of her. I dipped my head down and started to kiss her. I pulled away and put my head next to her ear. "You smelt so good." I whispered. She moaned quitely as I began to nibble on her earlobe. I tried to move my hand down but she stopped me and pushed me off of her. "Ed you hurt me very badly and I dont know if I can forgive you. I dont want to marry you I never will want to but I have to. Now either I sleep on the couch or you do but Im not sleeping with you." She said trying to get away. I sighed, "Ill sleep on the couch." She nodded and went to my room. I felt tears coming when her phone vibrated.
From: Harry<3
Baby I miss you and I love you I wish you didnt have to spend the night there I want to hold you): Goodnight love
Harry xx
I read the text and set her phone down. I started to cry. I hated that Harry guy. Shay was mine and she would never see him.
6/28/13