Here Without You
Chapter 10
Shay's POV
When I woke up I was alone in Ed's room. I walked out to the kitchen and saw a note.
Shay
I had to go to work early. Sorry baby Ill text you later today.
Love, Ed
I sighed and headed home. When I got home Harry was in my room. "Umm Harry?" I asked as I entered my room. "Oh hi love." He said getting up to kiss me. "Whatcha doing here?" I asked putting my things away. "I came to take you on our date." He said smiling. "Oh okay let me change and get ready." I said kissing him. (http://www.polyvore.com/untitled_15/set?id=81969445) When I came out of the bathroom Harry was playing on his phone. "Im ready." I said kissing his cheek. He looked up and smiled at me. We walked to his car and started to drive. "Where we goin?" I asked looking out the window. "Somewhere fun." He said intertwining our fingers. I smiled and just decided to see where he was going.
We ended up infront of an amusement park and I squealed in excitment. "Harry this is going to be so much fun!" I said hopping out of his car. "Good. Im glad you think so." He laughed. We walked into the park and he obviously rented it out for the day. We went on many rollercoasters and rides when I started to get hungry. "Harry can we eat." I asked leaning my head on his back as we walked. "Sure baby." He said and we went and got cheeseburgers. (@StillWaiting I bet your hungry as you're reading this;) We sat at the picnic tables and ate and talked. We were done eating when Harry asked, "Do you wanna go to the waterpark?" "I dont have a swim suit." I said trying to find an excuse not to go. I hated my body and felt self concious. "Dont worry I brought you one. Come on." And with that I was pulled towards the Waterpark. Harry handed me a striped bikini and told me to change.
I went into the locker rooms and changed. I looked at myself and didnt want to go out. "Baby you okay?" Harry asked walking in. "No." I said tears threatning to fall. My eyes fell on my scars and stretch marks on my thighs, hips, and stomach. "Whats wrong?" Harry asked worry laced through his voice getting closer. "I dont want to come out." I said tears starting to fall. "Why not?" He asked. "I dont want you to see me." I said tears falling freely. "Shay open the door." Harry said trying to come in. "No. I dont want you to see me." I said again. He threw his shirt over the door, "Put this on baby and then let me in." I sighed and put his shirt on. I opened the door and was engulfed into a hug. "Why didnt you want me to see you?" He asked pulling my face up. "Because I-I-I have s-s-ca-rs and marks." I struggled to say. "Can I see?" He asked quitely. I sighed and looked at the floor. "Please baby." He begged. "Okay." I said and took off his shirt.
I felt his eyes all over my body and instantly felt self concious. "Your beautiful." He said pulling me back into a hug. "I hate my scars." I said into his chest. "I barely noticed them." He said into my head. "Baby I think youre perfect and I want you to feel comfortable around me." He said pulling away from me. "Okay. Ill try." I said kissing his cheek. "Alright thank you. Now lets go have fun." I smiled at him and he pulled me out the waterpark. We spent hours going on rides and swimming. Around 3:30 I started to get tired. "Harry honey Im tired." I said leaning on him. "Okay lets go home." He said and carried me to his car.
As we were driving home my phone started to ring. I pulled it out and saw it was Ed. "Hey." I said happily into the phone. "Hey babe. Whatcha doin?" He asked. "Just drivin home with Harry." "Oh was your guys date fun?" He asked somewhat sadly. "Yeah it was." I said still smiling. "Good. Well I have to go again I just called to hear your voice." He said quitely. "Okay babe I'll let you go talk to you later." And with that I hung up. "Was that Ed?" Harry asked grip tightening on the steering wheel. "Yeah it was. But calm down okay?" I said grabbing his hand. He looked over at me and smiled.
"I want you to spend the night baby." Harry complained as we pulled up to my house. "I can pack stuff and we can go to your flat." I suggested and he smiled and nodded his head. "Okay Ill be quick." I said and ran upstairs to get my stuff. As we were driving back to Harry's flat I got a call from Grace. "Heyyy." I said answering the phone. "Hey Shay! How are things going?" She asked. "There's so many things going on I have to ssay it in person do you think we can hang out tomorrow?" I asked hopeful. "I actually have a date tomorrow." She said happily. "What?! With who?!" I asked excitedly. "Niall." She said I could hear her smiling. "As in Horan. Like Niall Horan?" I asked slightly confused. "Yes Niall horan." She confirmed. "Oh my! Im so happy for you." I said smiling now. "Thanks well I have to go Niall needs me. Love you!" "Love you too!" I said back and hung up."Who was that?" Harry asked very confused. "Grace." I said smiling. "I knew Niall would like her." Harry said smiling.
We soon ended up at Harry's flat. "Were here baby." Harry said as we pulled up. I smiled and walked inside with him. He showed me his room and I put my stuff down and switched into sweatpants and one of his shirts. When I walked out I heard Harry on the phone ordering Chinese food. I smiled and sat on the couch. "You like chinese right?" He asked sitting next to me. "I love it." I said and snuggled into him. We watched Doctor Who for awhile and ate. I was having a really good time. Then there was a knock at the door. Harry got up and answered. I heard 5 familar voices. Soon the boys and Grace walked into the living room. "Hey guys!" I said as they came in. "Hey!" They said in unision.
They all made themselves comfortable on the couchs and we started to talk. "What do you guys want to do?" Liam asked. "How bout a scary movie?" Niall suggested. Everyone was agreeing and I didnt want to be the only one who disagreed so I agreed too. I knew I would regret it but I did it anyways. "Are you sure love?" Harry whispered to me and i nodded my head. He got up and put in the movie.
Half way throught the movie I was very scared. Harry could tell and wrapped a blanket aound me. "What else can I do to make you less scared?" He asked worry all in his voice. "Can I just put my head in your chest?" I asked tears threatning to fall. "Baby if you need me to stop the movie I can." He said trying to get me not to cry. "No I ju-" I was starting to say something but was cut off by a scream in the movie. I started to cry instantly. "Harry turn it off turn it off!" I begged him. "Okay okay baby please calm down." He said rocking me back and forth. After I calmed down a little I looked up at everyone else. "Sorry guys." I said wiping my eyes. "Its fine love." Louis said kissing my cheek. "We better get going though." Niall said looking at his watch. Everyone else agreed and left. "Sorry." I said to Harry when he came back. "Baby its fine." He said kissing me. I deepened the kiss and pulled him closer. He got on top of me and laid me down. "Baby I love you." He said pulling away. "I love you too." I said looking into his eyes. "Do want this?" He asked and I shook my head. He smiled and pulled me to his room.
Our clothes littered the floor. He was on top of me and put a condom on. "Baby this will hurt okay?" Harry said holding on to my hand. I nodded and he entered me. It hurt so much. "it hurts." I breathed out. "I know I'll go slow." He said going back and forth. The pain soon faded and I moaned. This made Harry smile. After awhile he collapsed onto me. He rolled off me and pulled me into him. I laid in his arms and he helped me sleep. I felt safe and at home. This is where I was suppose to be.
When I woke up I was alone in Ed's room. I walked out to the kitchen and saw a note.
Shay
I had to go to work early. Sorry baby Ill text you later today.
Love, Ed
I sighed and headed home. When I got home Harry was in my room. "Umm Harry?" I asked as I entered my room. "Oh hi love." He said getting up to kiss me. "Whatcha doing here?" I asked putting my things away. "I came to take you on our date." He said smiling. "Oh okay let me change and get ready." I said kissing him. (http://www.polyvore.com/untitled_15/set?id=81969445) When I came out of the bathroom Harry was playing on his phone. "Im ready." I said kissing his cheek. He looked up and smiled at me. We walked to his car and started to drive. "Where we goin?" I asked looking out the window. "Somewhere fun." He said intertwining our fingers. I smiled and just decided to see where he was going.
We ended up infront of an amusement park and I squealed in excitment. "Harry this is going to be so much fun!" I said hopping out of his car. "Good. Im glad you think so." He laughed. We walked into the park and he obviously rented it out for the day. We went on many rollercoasters and rides when I started to get hungry. "Harry can we eat." I asked leaning my head on his back as we walked. "Sure baby." He said and we went and got cheeseburgers. (@StillWaiting I bet your hungry as you're reading this;) We sat at the picnic tables and ate and talked. We were done eating when Harry asked, "Do you wanna go to the waterpark?" "I dont have a swim suit." I said trying to find an excuse not to go. I hated my body and felt self concious. "Dont worry I brought you one. Come on." And with that I was pulled towards the Waterpark. Harry handed me a striped bikini and told me to change.
I went into the locker rooms and changed. I looked at myself and didnt want to go out. "Baby you okay?" Harry asked walking in. "No." I said tears threatning to fall. My eyes fell on my scars and stretch marks on my thighs, hips, and stomach. "Whats wrong?" Harry asked worry laced through his voice getting closer. "I dont want to come out." I said tears starting to fall. "Why not?" He asked. "I dont want you to see me." I said tears falling freely. "Shay open the door." Harry said trying to come in. "No. I dont want you to see me." I said again. He threw his shirt over the door, "Put this on baby and then let me in." I sighed and put his shirt on. I opened the door and was engulfed into a hug. "Why didnt you want me to see you?" He asked pulling my face up. "Because I-I-I have s-s-ca-rs and marks." I struggled to say. "Can I see?" He asked quitely. I sighed and looked at the floor. "Please baby." He begged. "Okay." I said and took off his shirt.
I felt his eyes all over my body and instantly felt self concious. "Your beautiful." He said pulling me back into a hug. "I hate my scars." I said into his chest. "I barely noticed them." He said into my head. "Baby I think youre perfect and I want you to feel comfortable around me." He said pulling away from me. "Okay. Ill try." I said kissing his cheek. "Alright thank you. Now lets go have fun." I smiled at him and he pulled me out the waterpark. We spent hours going on rides and swimming. Around 3:30 I started to get tired. "Harry honey Im tired." I said leaning on him. "Okay lets go home." He said and carried me to his car.
As we were driving home my phone started to ring. I pulled it out and saw it was Ed. "Hey." I said happily into the phone. "Hey babe. Whatcha doin?" He asked. "Just drivin home with Harry." "Oh was your guys date fun?" He asked somewhat sadly. "Yeah it was." I said still smiling. "Good. Well I have to go again I just called to hear your voice." He said quitely. "Okay babe I'll let you go talk to you later." And with that I hung up. "Was that Ed?" Harry asked grip tightening on the steering wheel. "Yeah it was. But calm down okay?" I said grabbing his hand. He looked over at me and smiled.
"I want you to spend the night baby." Harry complained as we pulled up to my house. "I can pack stuff and we can go to your flat." I suggested and he smiled and nodded his head. "Okay Ill be quick." I said and ran upstairs to get my stuff. As we were driving back to Harry's flat I got a call from Grace. "Heyyy." I said answering the phone. "Hey Shay! How are things going?" She asked. "There's so many things going on I have to ssay it in person do you think we can hang out tomorrow?" I asked hopeful. "I actually have a date tomorrow." She said happily. "What?! With who?!" I asked excitedly. "Niall." She said I could hear her smiling. "As in Horan. Like Niall Horan?" I asked slightly confused. "Yes Niall horan." She confirmed. "Oh my! Im so happy for you." I said smiling now. "Thanks well I have to go Niall needs me. Love you!" "Love you too!" I said back and hung up."Who was that?" Harry asked very confused. "Grace." I said smiling. "I knew Niall would like her." Harry said smiling.
We soon ended up at Harry's flat. "Were here baby." Harry said as we pulled up. I smiled and walked inside with him. He showed me his room and I put my stuff down and switched into sweatpants and one of his shirts. When I walked out I heard Harry on the phone ordering Chinese food. I smiled and sat on the couch. "You like chinese right?" He asked sitting next to me. "I love it." I said and snuggled into him. We watched Doctor Who for awhile and ate. I was having a really good time. Then there was a knock at the door. Harry got up and answered. I heard 5 familar voices. Soon the boys and Grace walked into the living room. "Hey guys!" I said as they came in. "Hey!" They said in unision.
They all made themselves comfortable on the couchs and we started to talk. "What do you guys want to do?" Liam asked. "How bout a scary movie?" Niall suggested. Everyone was agreeing and I didnt want to be the only one who disagreed so I agreed too. I knew I would regret it but I did it anyways. "Are you sure love?" Harry whispered to me and i nodded my head. He got up and put in the movie.
Half way throught the movie I was very scared. Harry could tell and wrapped a blanket aound me. "What else can I do to make you less scared?" He asked worry all in his voice. "Can I just put my head in your chest?" I asked tears threatning to fall. "Baby if you need me to stop the movie I can." He said trying to get me not to cry. "No I ju-" I was starting to say something but was cut off by a scream in the movie. I started to cry instantly. "Harry turn it off turn it off!" I begged him. "Okay okay baby please calm down." He said rocking me back and forth. After I calmed down a little I looked up at everyone else. "Sorry guys." I said wiping my eyes. "Its fine love." Louis said kissing my cheek. "We better get going though." Niall said looking at his watch. Everyone else agreed and left. "Sorry." I said to Harry when he came back. "Baby its fine." He said kissing me. I deepened the kiss and pulled him closer. He got on top of me and laid me down. "Baby I love you." He said pulling away. "I love you too." I said looking into his eyes. "Do want this?" He asked and I shook my head. He smiled and pulled me to his room.
Our clothes littered the floor. He was on top of me and put a condom on. "Baby this will hurt okay?" Harry said holding on to my hand. I nodded and he entered me. It hurt so much. "it hurts." I breathed out. "I know I'll go slow." He said going back and forth. The pain soon faded and I moaned. This made Harry smile. After awhile he collapsed onto me. He rolled off me and pulled me into him. I laid in his arms and he helped me sleep. I felt safe and at home. This is where I was suppose to be.
6/28/13