You Lost Me
Chapter Thirty
Bella’s POV
“So what’re ya gonna do when I’m gone?”, Harry asks twirling my hair through his fingers as we cuddle in bed. I love waking up with him in my bed. Our conversations include the stupidest questions since it’s so early, but I’ve learned so much more about him.
“Well, I was thinking of going to California in a lil bit to visit my mom”, I try not to really look at him as I talk. I think he’ll be a little disappointed in me for not believing him when he says that I should just leave my mom in the past. I can’t. I can’t just leave my mom in the past. I need to see her. I need closure.
“Really Bella?”, his voice didn’t sound angry or sad, just like he was disappointed in me which is exactly what I didn’t want to happen. “Even after everything I’ve said and told you about her, you’re still gonna go see her?”
“Of course I am. She’s my mother Harry”, I cuddle into him more because I could feel him tense up at the sound of my mother.
“Yes she’s your mother Bella, but she’s not a good person! She doesn’t want to see you, she doesn’t want you!” She doesn’t want me? She doesn’t want me. Harry just told me that my mom doesn’t want me. I love Harry and he just told me my own mom doesn’t want me. Doesn’t need me. I can feel my heart drop, but it’s not like I’m angry, just disappointed. I’m disappointed because it might be true. But there’s only one way to find out for sure.
“Well, I’ll just have to go and find out for myself then.”, I get up out of his arms and into the cold air that was hiding behind our warm sheets as Harry sighs deeply.
“Babe, you know I didn’t mean it like that”, Harry tries to cover what he had just said, “It’s just -”
“Drop it, Harry. Just let it go. I’ll go make some breakfast, just finish packing or whatever.” I grab my glasses and go downstairs to our kitchen as he mutters something under his breath that I couldn’t quite hear. I let it go and make my way down to the kitchen. I know that I told Harry that I’d make breakfast, but I just poured some Cheerios and milk into a bowl and left the cereal box out for him. I’m just disappointed that he would even say that to me. And I guess I’m just, hurt? Yeah, I’m just hurt that he said that to me.
*New Text Message*
From Louis: hey nialler, liam, and i were going to stop by before harry leaves. that good?
To Louis: Of course, what time were you thinking about coming by?
I guess the guys coming by will distract me from Harry.
*New Text Message*
From Louis: here now can you unlock the door?
I roll my eyes, of course he’s already here. “Harry! Your friends are here!”, I yell through the huge house we share. I bet he still hasn’t gotten his ass out of bed.
“K babe! I’ll be down in like 10!” he echoes through the house.
I open the door to see Liam, Niall, and Louis staring back at me. “Hey Bell-Bell!!”, Niall exclaims. It feels like I haven’t seen him or Liam in so long, but Louis is here at least every other day, if not every day. It feels good to see them and to be able to have a good time with them. It’s really helped me get over the accident.
“Hey guys! Long time no see!”, I’d say c’mon in but they already invited themselves in. “Harry said he’d be down in a bit, d’ya want some cereal?”
“Cereal? That’s ok Bells”, Liam chuckles.
“So what’re you doing the next couple of weeks anyways?”, Louis asks as I take another bite of cereal.
I roll my eyes, “I’m going to my mom’s but I don’t wanna talk about it.”
“Wow yikes, sounds like we should talk about it.”, Niall laughs.
“I’m going to California to talk to my mom and Mark will come with me so I’m not alone and Harry won’t have a heart attack.”, I explain to them all..
“Jeez and what’d Harry say when you told him about that one?”, Liam says.
“I’d rather not talk about it.”, I groan as I hear Harry’s footsteps coming down the stairs.
“Hey lads! What’s up?”, he greets the guys as I continue to eat my Cheerios quietly. “Uhm, my car is actually here already to bring me to the airport. My flight got pushed up so I have to leave as soon as possible.”
“Oh, okay so bye mate!”, all the guys say goodbye to Harry as I finish my Cheerios and put my bowl in the sink.
“Bye babe”, he kisses the corner of my mouth before grabbing his bags, “See you guys in a couple weeks!”
We watch him walk away into the black car with tinted windows. And just like that, he’s gone. And I’m still hurt. And he can’t tell.
“Well, when do you leave Bells?”, Louis asks me.
“Not for another two days. What’re your plans for today?”
Guess I’ll just hang out with these lads for awhile. Maybe Harry will call me later. Maybe he won’t. Maybe my mom doesn’t want me and Harry was right. Maybe they’re all lying to me. Only time can tell, so until then I just have to wait.
***
“So what’re ya gonna do when I’m gone?”, Harry asks twirling my hair through his fingers as we cuddle in bed. I love waking up with him in my bed. Our conversations include the stupidest questions since it’s so early, but I’ve learned so much more about him.
“Well, I was thinking of going to California in a lil bit to visit my mom”, I try not to really look at him as I talk. I think he’ll be a little disappointed in me for not believing him when he says that I should just leave my mom in the past. I can’t. I can’t just leave my mom in the past. I need to see her. I need closure.
“Really Bella?”, his voice didn’t sound angry or sad, just like he was disappointed in me which is exactly what I didn’t want to happen. “Even after everything I’ve said and told you about her, you’re still gonna go see her?”
“Of course I am. She’s my mother Harry”, I cuddle into him more because I could feel him tense up at the sound of my mother.
“Yes she’s your mother Bella, but she’s not a good person! She doesn’t want to see you, she doesn’t want you!” She doesn’t want me? She doesn’t want me. Harry just told me that my mom doesn’t want me. I love Harry and he just told me my own mom doesn’t want me. Doesn’t need me. I can feel my heart drop, but it’s not like I’m angry, just disappointed. I’m disappointed because it might be true. But there’s only one way to find out for sure.
“Well, I’ll just have to go and find out for myself then.”, I get up out of his arms and into the cold air that was hiding behind our warm sheets as Harry sighs deeply.
“Babe, you know I didn’t mean it like that”, Harry tries to cover what he had just said, “It’s just -”
“Drop it, Harry. Just let it go. I’ll go make some breakfast, just finish packing or whatever.” I grab my glasses and go downstairs to our kitchen as he mutters something under his breath that I couldn’t quite hear. I let it go and make my way down to the kitchen. I know that I told Harry that I’d make breakfast, but I just poured some Cheerios and milk into a bowl and left the cereal box out for him. I’m just disappointed that he would even say that to me. And I guess I’m just, hurt? Yeah, I’m just hurt that he said that to me.
*New Text Message*
From Louis: hey nialler, liam, and i were going to stop by before harry leaves. that good?
To Louis: Of course, what time were you thinking about coming by?
I guess the guys coming by will distract me from Harry.
*New Text Message*
From Louis: here now can you unlock the door?
I roll my eyes, of course he’s already here. “Harry! Your friends are here!”, I yell through the huge house we share. I bet he still hasn’t gotten his ass out of bed.
“K babe! I’ll be down in like 10!” he echoes through the house.
I open the door to see Liam, Niall, and Louis staring back at me. “Hey Bell-Bell!!”, Niall exclaims. It feels like I haven’t seen him or Liam in so long, but Louis is here at least every other day, if not every day. It feels good to see them and to be able to have a good time with them. It’s really helped me get over the accident.
“Hey guys! Long time no see!”, I’d say c’mon in but they already invited themselves in. “Harry said he’d be down in a bit, d’ya want some cereal?”
“Cereal? That’s ok Bells”, Liam chuckles.
“So what’re you doing the next couple of weeks anyways?”, Louis asks as I take another bite of cereal.
I roll my eyes, “I’m going to my mom’s but I don’t wanna talk about it.”
“Wow yikes, sounds like we should talk about it.”, Niall laughs.
“I’m going to California to talk to my mom and Mark will come with me so I’m not alone and Harry won’t have a heart attack.”, I explain to them all..
“Jeez and what’d Harry say when you told him about that one?”, Liam says.
“I’d rather not talk about it.”, I groan as I hear Harry’s footsteps coming down the stairs.
“Hey lads! What’s up?”, he greets the guys as I continue to eat my Cheerios quietly. “Uhm, my car is actually here already to bring me to the airport. My flight got pushed up so I have to leave as soon as possible.”
“Oh, okay so bye mate!”, all the guys say goodbye to Harry as I finish my Cheerios and put my bowl in the sink.
“Bye babe”, he kisses the corner of my mouth before grabbing his bags, “See you guys in a couple weeks!”
We watch him walk away into the black car with tinted windows. And just like that, he’s gone. And I’m still hurt. And he can’t tell.
“Well, when do you leave Bells?”, Louis asks me.
“Not for another two days. What’re your plans for today?”
Guess I’ll just hang out with these lads for awhile. Maybe Harry will call me later. Maybe he won’t. Maybe my mom doesn’t want me and Harry was right. Maybe they’re all lying to me. Only time can tell, so until then I just have to wait.
***
Notes
I'M SO SORRY, I haven't updated in like a month. I have reasons though! My life has been crazy and frankly I have no motivation.
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Thanks you so so so so much for sticking around and reading xoxo
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Thank you! Next update should be up soon ;)
2/12/17