Always & Forever
8
It's been a couple weeks since my whole confession to Lyn, and I have been hibernation at home. I have many missed calls from Harry but I just sent him a text saying I was fine and I'd see him soon. His not going to be my friend knowing I have these ugly scars, I mean it's a huge deal breaker.
It's a massive relief to get that heavy hearted secret off my chest. Now that I have said it out loud maybe I can slowly move on and not draw to such drastic measures. But ever sine I've been in California I haven't thought about hurting myself not once, maybe it's the change of scenery or a certain boy - who knows.
I drag my lazy ass out of bed, it's a nice day out so I might go for walk.
"Morning Lyn." I greet her as I sit at the breakfast counter.
"Feeling better love?" She asks kindly, it's weird even though she wasn't my mums biological mother and just foster, I see my mum in her so much. I look through the mail and see an invitation for Harry's dad and Loui's mum wedding, looks like we are invited. It's a small town, it wouldn't surprise me if the mail man was invited.
"Yea much thanks." I smile, "Liv sweetie I still think maybe you should talk to someone about it." She puts a card of a shrink I'm guessing in front of me. I try and not get angry. "I did talk to someone, I spoke to you about it."
"It's not the same love."
"I'm gonna go for a walk." I get off the stool and head out the door.
I walk along the sand and soak up some vitamin D. I move closer to the shore and let the water soak my feet. I look up to the cloudless sky and think of my mum up in heaven I shut my eyes and picture her smile, it is still so clear to me.
"Olivia hey." I am interrupted, "Hey Chris."
"Lyn is looking for you." He informs me
"I know." I say
"Well you need to get home, look whatever your going through all she is trying to do is help."
"I know she is." I say honestly.
"Come on I'll walk you home."
"Thanks Chris."
On our way up to the footpath his phone goes off. "Hey you alright to get home, it's just Johnny wants to meet up." His eyes light up.
Chris is gay and his boyfriend is Johnny. I smile at this unique accepting love and let him go.
I start my journey home and see familiar curls in front of me, all of a sudden I feel nervous.
"Hey, I was worried when I didn't hear from you." Harry says, "yea sorry I just been dealing with things I guess." I nervously bite on my nails.
"I'm sorry again for telling Lyn."
"It's ok really, I need to get it off my chest anyway." I appreciate his sincerity.
"I'm just heading home." I tell him. "Oh ok. I'll see you around."
"Umm if you wanted to come over later that would be cool." I nervously speak."
"Of course I'll see you soon." Harry flashes a smile
And I blush all the way home.
