I get changed quickly


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and so does El.
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Louis meets us downstairs and we all now start walking.

El and Louis are in their own conversation which I am ok with, although I do feel bad third wheeling, but I needed to get out of that house. I can see the fire burning on the beach which means were close.

It's only been a week without Harry. Like I said even his name, or picturing his face sets me on edge. "Hey guys." We just run into Liam and Niall. They guide to the party on the beach, the music is blasting, people are making out, and others frolicking in the water.

We walk around to try and find a spot, as we walk. "What the hell is she doing here." I notice Linsday and blood starts to boil. She is just sitting there on her phone in some ugly slutty bikini.

I'm even surprised she's not with Harry, Damm it I need to forget about him.

"Come on love, lets just keep moving before a really arousing girl fight erupts." Niall moves me along to the other side of the beach.

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We all sit on the beach, but my eyes haven't left that bitch. Who comes to a beach party and just stays on their phone the entire time like seriously. I tilt my head and see her whispering to some other guy who is looking my way so I look back down to the sand.

"Here." Niall hands me a beer but I decline. "Oh come on." He moves it around my face. If Lyn knew I was drinking she would kill me. But I need another escape. So I take the bottle and connect it to my lips and have a massive guzzle.


Niall and Liam are engaging in a conversation - probably sports related. Louis and El are making out and I sit alone. Probably should get used to this feeling of being forever alone.

"Hey." some random dark fair guy sits next to me.

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"Hi" I take another sip of my beer. "So your pretty."

"Yea whatever." I take another sip.

"I'm serious." He scoots closer to me, but I scoot more over away from him.

"So everyone here is hooking up, you keen" He traces his fingertips along my neck line. I see his face merge closer to mine and he begins to shut his eyes.

I snap out of this moment and lightly shove him away. "Sorry I'm not interested."

"Hunter go bother someone else" I hear Liam speak to Hunter apparently who just tried to hook up with me. He stands up and leaves, finally I have some room to breathe.


"Tradition." Niall speaks up and he has his guitar with him.

El rests her head on Louis shoulder. Liam and I sit next to each other with appropriate friendship distance.

Niall starst to strum his guitar and begins to sing softly.

You still make me nervous when you walk in the room
Them butterflies they come alive when I’m next to you
Over and over the only truth
Everything comes back to you


These lyrics are beautiful, so true and a hint of innocence. But most importantly the lyrics resonate with me right now. Every time Harry walked in a room he made me nervous. I got butterflies for sure, but then he revealed the truth and things are non existent between us.

And I know that it’s wrong
That I can’t move on

It is wrong that I don't think I will be ever to move on from him.

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