Always
Bootcamp: Part 4 – Six-seat challenge
Harry’s POV
Wednesday, 20th July
It was the first day of the Six-seat challenge and once again, the number of contestants would decrease. Today was a day I had been anticipating for so long because I finally got to see my category perform. As I waited in my dressing room, I remembered the previous day. The moment I found out what category I had been given.
My hand shook as I opened my door, closing it behind me slowly. Just as Simon had told me, a pristine white envelope sat on the table with the X Factor logo printed on the back with my name above it in black block letters. I walked over and picked it up, slipping my fingers underneath the paper and flipping the envelope open. I took a deep breath before I pulled out the single thick card and on it was my category. Possibly the biggest smile I ever had on my face appeared when my eyes read the words on the card.
The category you have been given is
The Under 25 Girls!
Before I even knew it, I had collapsed onto the couch, my lips parted in surprise. Like last year, it had been up to the viewers to decide which judge got which category and right now, I couldn’t be more grateful to them. I had gotten the category I wanted ever since I witnessed Kaylie’s audition. I was the one to mentor her now. It was completely 100% certain that I was her mentor. And I was beyond excited to help her on her journey to being the artist she wanted to be.
The contestants had found out who the mentor was the same time I found out my category. Which meant Kaylie knew I was the judge she would be working with. I wonder what she thinks. I was intrigued about her reaction and what song she would sing today. I knew it was going to be difficult during the next two days, getting rid of people who generally had great talent and swapping them out with others that were better. I hated that I had to put Kaylie in that position but it was part of the competition and not only did she have to deal with it. I had to as well.
The sound of the door opening made me look up. I saw Simon standing in the doorway, dressed in his usual attire of casual clothes.
“It’s time.” He said.
I sat at the judges’ desk in my usual spot, in between Simon and Mel. The stadium was full of people, friends and family of the contestants as well as many others. The large X stage was empty before us and a row of six white seats sat to my left on the side of the stage. Kaylie could be sitting in one of those. But there were 16 girls in my category so I had to send 10 of them home. And I knew it would not be easy.
“How are you feeling, Harry?” Mel asked from beside me.
“Alright. This is entirely new territory for me so I am nervous but this is a part of the job being a judge. I have to make hard decisions.” I said. Mel patted my arm, her eyes shining beautifully through her perfect make-up.
“Well, Simon’s Over 25s is going first so you’ll pick it up quickly.” She reassured me and I thanked her. She had gotten the Groups while Dannii’s category was the Under 25 Boys. Their contestants would perform tomorrow because it was mine and Simon’s categories taking the stage today.
After hair and make-up touch ups, Dermot appeared on the stage and the cameras rolled. The crowd cheered as the host welcomed all of us to the Six-seat challenge. He gave everyone a rundown of what was going to follow in the performances and the rules of the challenge. I looked down at the desk and my eyes scanned over the 16 names of the girls on the piece of paper. I saw Melody’s name, Skye’s name and Alicia’s name but I smiled when I saw Kaylie’s name at the very end of the page, followed by her age and where her audition took place. Today would be the fourth time to see her perform and I wondered if she had grown more confident since the last time I saw her.
Before I registered anything, the challenge begun and the first contestant, 30-year old Maria Wood, walked onto the stage. I remembered all the times she had sung and she had a gorgeous voice. She had lost her mother to cancer only three weeks prior to her first audition and she channelled her grief through the way she performed. The song she had chosen to sing was A Thousand Years by Christina Perri. And what a wonderful job she did singing it. Maria brought me to tears, and she cried too, when Simon gave her the first seat.
This continued on as more of Simon’s contestants fought to prove their worth of having a seat. Once all six seats were full, I saw how Simon struggled to send people home and if he wanted to swap them with another contestant. If he’s having trouble, I most certainly will. I thought. There were cheers when contestants got through. There were boos when the audience believed Simon made the wrong decision. There were tears when contestants got a seat or when they walked off the stage, crying their eyes out.
It took almost three hours for Simon to be happy with his final six contestants. They comprised off Maria Wood (he didn’t have the heart to send her home), 27-year-old Callum Stewart, 40-year old Lucas McMannon, 34-year-old Olena Maverick, 28-year-old Jimmy Coulby and 29-year-old Richie Dober.
Now, it was my turn.
0*0
I felt drained. I felt happy. I felt guilty. I felt excited. All these emotions were a whirlwind of chaos in my brain as I was forced to make decisions I didn’t want to make. But I had to. I had no choice. I watched as each of my contestants tried their best in their performances, wanting me to see that they deserved to be in my final six. I constantly looked to my fellow judges for help and advice but in the end, they told me it was up to me. I was the one to mentor these girls and I had to choose who I believed in the most. Who I thought I could win with.
Exactly 168 minutes later, there was only one more contestant to perform. It was the performance I had been most excited about yet dreading the most because I had the most difficult decision right in my face. I looked up when the crowd cheered, announcing the arrival of my final contestant.
Kaylie Walker.
She looked absolutely beautiful (http://www.polyvore.com/kaylie_bootcamp_parts/set?id=204581040), her long caramel-coloured hair left loose, cascading over her shoulders. I saw her eyes shine with nervousness when she looked at the six seats. Which were all taken. This was the decision I was talking about. I either had to send Kaylie home or swap her out with one of the other girls. Shit.
“Hello, Kaylie.” Dannii said with a smile.
“Hi.” Kaylie responded into her microphone. God, it was good to hear her voice again. See her gorgeous face again. Watch her chocolate eyes sparkle and see her pink lips shine when she spoke. The funny thing was, I knew hardly anything about this girl. I hadn’t talked to her at all behind the cameras because there had been no time and I wasn’t allowed to until after I got my category. But yet, I was falling for her. I was falling for her because the love she had for music was the same as mine. The passion that drove her reminded me of myself when I was in her position six years ago. I related to her and I didn’t find it scary at all that I was falling for a girl I barely knew. It actually excited me.
“How are you?” Mel asked.
“Really nervous because I know I’m the last to perform and the seats are taken. I’m…yeah, nervous.” Kaylie said.
“Don’t worry, Kaylie. I am too.” I smiled a little at her. Her eyes locked to mine and I found myself mesmerised by her gaze. I saw her lips tug up at the corner a tiny bit but quickly faded. To send her home would be tragic. Not just for her but for me. I didn’t want to let her go. But if she was to go through, I had to lose a very talented girl in one of those six seats.
“So what have you decided to sing for us?” Simon asked.
“I’m going to sing Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson.”
“Well, good luck, Kaylie.” Simon said and Kaylie nodded, gripping her microphone tightly like she always did, biting her lip as she waited for the music to start. The tune echoed around the stadium and I kept my eyes to Kaylie, watching her as her performance began.
“He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right.”
I leaned forward as the chorus came up, Kaylie closing her eyes when she sang.
“Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He’s such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster.”
I lost myself in her voice again, totally captivated by her performance. I believed every word she sung. I believed every emotion she showed with each lyric. What Kaylie did to me with just her voice was incredible. I didn’t see her as a contestant. I saw her as an artist. And a brilliant one at that.
“I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
I've waited so long.”
The music became quieter and all I focused on was the sound of her voice. I felt tears blossom in my eyes and I didn’t want to blink them away. I wasn’t ashamed to cry, to be so moved by her performance.
“He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take.”
The music built up again as Kaylie sung the chorus again.
“Oh and I don’t know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster.”
Her voice held the big notes and nailed the soft tones of the song. I could listen to Kaylie all day and all night. My hands began to shake, matching the trembling tears in my eyes as I watched the extremely gifted 18-year-old sing her beautiful heart out.
“He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster.”
As the music faded out, Kaylie lowered her microphone and the stadium interrupted in cheers and screams. She covered her mouth with her hand as she looked around, her eyes wide, and I remembered the same look on her face at her first audition. So vulnerable but so stunning. A beautiful girl who didn’t even know the talent she had. I stood up along with the other judges and clapped my hands together, smiling as a single tear ran down my cheek. I didn’t even wipe it away because why? Why should I get rid of the evidence of how moved I was?
“Kaylie…wow. Your voice…it’s so youthful and you tell a story with each song you sing. You, young lady, have got a promising career ahead of you.” Mel B pointed to Kaylie with her pen. I agreed with everything Mel said while the smile never left my face. Simon and Dannii both commended her performance and then, it was down to me. One of the most difficult decisions was in front of me. And I had to make it.
Send Kaylie through or send her home.
“Kaylie…before I make a decision, I want to let you know something.” I said, never taking my eyes off her. She bit her lip and twisted the microphone in her fingers, shuffling her feet a little.
“You…moved me with that performance. I have tears in my eyes. You actually made me cry. That’s what an artist does. They move people with their voice. That’s what you did and that was far by my favourite performance of yours. It was phenomenal.”
“Thank you.” Kaylie choked out and I saw tears form in her eyes as well. She was even more beautiful when she cried. I just wanted to run up onto the stage and hug her warmly, let her melt into my soft embrace.
“Phew…Oh, God…” I trailed off, rubbing my temples with my fingers as I stared at the six girls sitting on the seats. They’re all amazing…but is one of them not as amazing as Kaylie? I was stuck. The audience screamed, shouting out names and raising their fingers as numbers, saying who to swap Kaylie with, telling me to send her through. It was so overwhelming. I lowered my head to the desk and gripped my hair in my fingers, sighing. Why? Why is this so hard? I shook my head and looked at Simon.
“I can’t do this…”
“You have to, Harry. I’m sorry but you’ve got to make a decision.” Simon said, giving me solemn eyes. I sucked on my lower lip and returned my gaze to Kaylie. She looked at me with those sweet eyes of hers, still shining with tears.
“Please…I want this so badly…” She begged and that only made it more difficult for me. To hear her plead, for her to beg to me, it broke my heart. I looked at the girls on the seats and I saw they all looked terrified. I could see they were begging as well. Shit...shit… The audience was still loud and it was distracting but as much as I wanted to, I couldn’t shut them up. I stared at Kaylie for one last time and then, I felt something pull at my heartstrings. I felt a rush when I realised my heart made a decision for me. And I knew it was the right one.
“Kaylie…I’m going to have to give you a seat.”
The response from the crowd was deafening. Kaylie looked so shocked, both of her hands over her mouth as her eyes widened, accentuating the gorgeous eye make-up she had on. The decision I had just made was only half-done. By giving Kaylie a seat, I had to send one of the other girls home. They all looked at me fearfully, apart from Melody but her bottom lip trembled. Alicia stared at me as if I was the person who had the power to choose her to live or die. There’s no way I could send Alicia home. She’s amazing and she and Kaylie are close friends. Kaylie would be so upset if she took Alicia’s place. Melody seems too confident and she didn’t get along with Kaylie but she does have great talent. Skye is great and so is Kristen. Holy fuck! This is so hard! I knew I would be upset and feel guilty no matter what I did.
“OK, OK, I’m going to swap you with Seat No. 2, Kristen.” I said and that was it. That was my decision and there was no changing it. Kristen looked absolutely distraught and it was all my fault. Half the crowd booed and half the crowd cheered. They were divided. Kaylie’s mouth dropped open and she walked over to embrace Kristen. They had been in the same group at the start of Bootcamp so it was sad to see them be separated but Kaylie just had that something. A spark that drew me to her voice, her love for singing, her desire to perform.
I watched Kristen walk off the stage, tears falling down her cheeks, and I covered my eyes with my hands, sighing. I couldn’t even remove my hands. I felt so guilty. I knew I had crushed Kristen’s dreams. It was hard but it had to be done. I wanted to see Kristen before she left, to apologise and let her know everything would be alright. Hopefully I would get the chance to do that after the filming finished.
When I managed to pry my hands off my own eyes, I looked at my final six. Skye, Kaylie, Alicia, Jenna, Daisy and Melody. They were the girls I believed in the most. I hoped I had the winner in there somewhere. Kaylie and Alicia held hands, whispering to each other, and I could see that they were the closest of friends. To keep them together would boost their talent and they would be there for each other. Kaylie looked relieved and forced myself to smile a little bit.
“She deserves a chance to win.” I whispered under my breath before telling the judges that I was done. That I wanted the filming to be over. I felt even more drained now and I wanted to relax. I looked back at the six girls and one thing I did not miss was the slight look of anger in Melody’s eyes as she stared at Kaylie. She wasn’t happy but it wasn’t up to her what decision I made. It was all up to me. I knew for certain that for the rest of the duration of the competition, I would keep Kaylie away from Melody. No good would come on it if they were at each other’s throats. Then I would have an even bigger problem on my hands.
Jealousy.
Wednesday, 20th July
It was the first day of the Six-seat challenge and once again, the number of contestants would decrease. Today was a day I had been anticipating for so long because I finally got to see my category perform. As I waited in my dressing room, I remembered the previous day. The moment I found out what category I had been given.
My hand shook as I opened my door, closing it behind me slowly. Just as Simon had told me, a pristine white envelope sat on the table with the X Factor logo printed on the back with my name above it in black block letters. I walked over and picked it up, slipping my fingers underneath the paper and flipping the envelope open. I took a deep breath before I pulled out the single thick card and on it was my category. Possibly the biggest smile I ever had on my face appeared when my eyes read the words on the card.
The category you have been given is
The Under 25 Girls!
Before I even knew it, I had collapsed onto the couch, my lips parted in surprise. Like last year, it had been up to the viewers to decide which judge got which category and right now, I couldn’t be more grateful to them. I had gotten the category I wanted ever since I witnessed Kaylie’s audition. I was the one to mentor her now. It was completely 100% certain that I was her mentor. And I was beyond excited to help her on her journey to being the artist she wanted to be.
The contestants had found out who the mentor was the same time I found out my category. Which meant Kaylie knew I was the judge she would be working with. I wonder what she thinks. I was intrigued about her reaction and what song she would sing today. I knew it was going to be difficult during the next two days, getting rid of people who generally had great talent and swapping them out with others that were better. I hated that I had to put Kaylie in that position but it was part of the competition and not only did she have to deal with it. I had to as well.
The sound of the door opening made me look up. I saw Simon standing in the doorway, dressed in his usual attire of casual clothes.
“It’s time.” He said.
I sat at the judges’ desk in my usual spot, in between Simon and Mel. The stadium was full of people, friends and family of the contestants as well as many others. The large X stage was empty before us and a row of six white seats sat to my left on the side of the stage. Kaylie could be sitting in one of those. But there were 16 girls in my category so I had to send 10 of them home. And I knew it would not be easy.
“How are you feeling, Harry?” Mel asked from beside me.
“Alright. This is entirely new territory for me so I am nervous but this is a part of the job being a judge. I have to make hard decisions.” I said. Mel patted my arm, her eyes shining beautifully through her perfect make-up.
“Well, Simon’s Over 25s is going first so you’ll pick it up quickly.” She reassured me and I thanked her. She had gotten the Groups while Dannii’s category was the Under 25 Boys. Their contestants would perform tomorrow because it was mine and Simon’s categories taking the stage today.
After hair and make-up touch ups, Dermot appeared on the stage and the cameras rolled. The crowd cheered as the host welcomed all of us to the Six-seat challenge. He gave everyone a rundown of what was going to follow in the performances and the rules of the challenge. I looked down at the desk and my eyes scanned over the 16 names of the girls on the piece of paper. I saw Melody’s name, Skye’s name and Alicia’s name but I smiled when I saw Kaylie’s name at the very end of the page, followed by her age and where her audition took place. Today would be the fourth time to see her perform and I wondered if she had grown more confident since the last time I saw her.
Before I registered anything, the challenge begun and the first contestant, 30-year old Maria Wood, walked onto the stage. I remembered all the times she had sung and she had a gorgeous voice. She had lost her mother to cancer only three weeks prior to her first audition and she channelled her grief through the way she performed. The song she had chosen to sing was A Thousand Years by Christina Perri. And what a wonderful job she did singing it. Maria brought me to tears, and she cried too, when Simon gave her the first seat.
This continued on as more of Simon’s contestants fought to prove their worth of having a seat. Once all six seats were full, I saw how Simon struggled to send people home and if he wanted to swap them with another contestant. If he’s having trouble, I most certainly will. I thought. There were cheers when contestants got through. There were boos when the audience believed Simon made the wrong decision. There were tears when contestants got a seat or when they walked off the stage, crying their eyes out.
It took almost three hours for Simon to be happy with his final six contestants. They comprised off Maria Wood (he didn’t have the heart to send her home), 27-year-old Callum Stewart, 40-year old Lucas McMannon, 34-year-old Olena Maverick, 28-year-old Jimmy Coulby and 29-year-old Richie Dober.
Now, it was my turn.
0*0
I felt drained. I felt happy. I felt guilty. I felt excited. All these emotions were a whirlwind of chaos in my brain as I was forced to make decisions I didn’t want to make. But I had to. I had no choice. I watched as each of my contestants tried their best in their performances, wanting me to see that they deserved to be in my final six. I constantly looked to my fellow judges for help and advice but in the end, they told me it was up to me. I was the one to mentor these girls and I had to choose who I believed in the most. Who I thought I could win with.
Exactly 168 minutes later, there was only one more contestant to perform. It was the performance I had been most excited about yet dreading the most because I had the most difficult decision right in my face. I looked up when the crowd cheered, announcing the arrival of my final contestant.
Kaylie Walker.
She looked absolutely beautiful (http://www.polyvore.com/kaylie_bootcamp_parts/set?id=204581040), her long caramel-coloured hair left loose, cascading over her shoulders. I saw her eyes shine with nervousness when she looked at the six seats. Which were all taken. This was the decision I was talking about. I either had to send Kaylie home or swap her out with one of the other girls. Shit.
“Hello, Kaylie.” Dannii said with a smile.
“Hi.” Kaylie responded into her microphone. God, it was good to hear her voice again. See her gorgeous face again. Watch her chocolate eyes sparkle and see her pink lips shine when she spoke. The funny thing was, I knew hardly anything about this girl. I hadn’t talked to her at all behind the cameras because there had been no time and I wasn’t allowed to until after I got my category. But yet, I was falling for her. I was falling for her because the love she had for music was the same as mine. The passion that drove her reminded me of myself when I was in her position six years ago. I related to her and I didn’t find it scary at all that I was falling for a girl I barely knew. It actually excited me.
“How are you?” Mel asked.
“Really nervous because I know I’m the last to perform and the seats are taken. I’m…yeah, nervous.” Kaylie said.
“Don’t worry, Kaylie. I am too.” I smiled a little at her. Her eyes locked to mine and I found myself mesmerised by her gaze. I saw her lips tug up at the corner a tiny bit but quickly faded. To send her home would be tragic. Not just for her but for me. I didn’t want to let her go. But if she was to go through, I had to lose a very talented girl in one of those six seats.
“So what have you decided to sing for us?” Simon asked.
“I’m going to sing Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson.”
“Well, good luck, Kaylie.” Simon said and Kaylie nodded, gripping her microphone tightly like she always did, biting her lip as she waited for the music to start. The tune echoed around the stadium and I kept my eyes to Kaylie, watching her as her performance began.
“He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right.”
I leaned forward as the chorus came up, Kaylie closing her eyes when she sang.
“Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He’s such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster.”
I lost myself in her voice again, totally captivated by her performance. I believed every word she sung. I believed every emotion she showed with each lyric. What Kaylie did to me with just her voice was incredible. I didn’t see her as a contestant. I saw her as an artist. And a brilliant one at that.
“I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
I've waited so long.”
The music became quieter and all I focused on was the sound of her voice. I felt tears blossom in my eyes and I didn’t want to blink them away. I wasn’t ashamed to cry, to be so moved by her performance.
“He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take.”
The music built up again as Kaylie sung the chorus again.
“Oh and I don’t know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster.”
Her voice held the big notes and nailed the soft tones of the song. I could listen to Kaylie all day and all night. My hands began to shake, matching the trembling tears in my eyes as I watched the extremely gifted 18-year-old sing her beautiful heart out.
“He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster.”
As the music faded out, Kaylie lowered her microphone and the stadium interrupted in cheers and screams. She covered her mouth with her hand as she looked around, her eyes wide, and I remembered the same look on her face at her first audition. So vulnerable but so stunning. A beautiful girl who didn’t even know the talent she had. I stood up along with the other judges and clapped my hands together, smiling as a single tear ran down my cheek. I didn’t even wipe it away because why? Why should I get rid of the evidence of how moved I was?
“Kaylie…wow. Your voice…it’s so youthful and you tell a story with each song you sing. You, young lady, have got a promising career ahead of you.” Mel B pointed to Kaylie with her pen. I agreed with everything Mel said while the smile never left my face. Simon and Dannii both commended her performance and then, it was down to me. One of the most difficult decisions was in front of me. And I had to make it.
Send Kaylie through or send her home.
“Kaylie…before I make a decision, I want to let you know something.” I said, never taking my eyes off her. She bit her lip and twisted the microphone in her fingers, shuffling her feet a little.
“You…moved me with that performance. I have tears in my eyes. You actually made me cry. That’s what an artist does. They move people with their voice. That’s what you did and that was far by my favourite performance of yours. It was phenomenal.”
“Thank you.” Kaylie choked out and I saw tears form in her eyes as well. She was even more beautiful when she cried. I just wanted to run up onto the stage and hug her warmly, let her melt into my soft embrace.
“Phew…Oh, God…” I trailed off, rubbing my temples with my fingers as I stared at the six girls sitting on the seats. They’re all amazing…but is one of them not as amazing as Kaylie? I was stuck. The audience screamed, shouting out names and raising their fingers as numbers, saying who to swap Kaylie with, telling me to send her through. It was so overwhelming. I lowered my head to the desk and gripped my hair in my fingers, sighing. Why? Why is this so hard? I shook my head and looked at Simon.
“I can’t do this…”
“You have to, Harry. I’m sorry but you’ve got to make a decision.” Simon said, giving me solemn eyes. I sucked on my lower lip and returned my gaze to Kaylie. She looked at me with those sweet eyes of hers, still shining with tears.
“Please…I want this so badly…” She begged and that only made it more difficult for me. To hear her plead, for her to beg to me, it broke my heart. I looked at the girls on the seats and I saw they all looked terrified. I could see they were begging as well. Shit...shit… The audience was still loud and it was distracting but as much as I wanted to, I couldn’t shut them up. I stared at Kaylie for one last time and then, I felt something pull at my heartstrings. I felt a rush when I realised my heart made a decision for me. And I knew it was the right one.
“Kaylie…I’m going to have to give you a seat.”
The response from the crowd was deafening. Kaylie looked so shocked, both of her hands over her mouth as her eyes widened, accentuating the gorgeous eye make-up she had on. The decision I had just made was only half-done. By giving Kaylie a seat, I had to send one of the other girls home. They all looked at me fearfully, apart from Melody but her bottom lip trembled. Alicia stared at me as if I was the person who had the power to choose her to live or die. There’s no way I could send Alicia home. She’s amazing and she and Kaylie are close friends. Kaylie would be so upset if she took Alicia’s place. Melody seems too confident and she didn’t get along with Kaylie but she does have great talent. Skye is great and so is Kristen. Holy fuck! This is so hard! I knew I would be upset and feel guilty no matter what I did.
“OK, OK, I’m going to swap you with Seat No. 2, Kristen.” I said and that was it. That was my decision and there was no changing it. Kristen looked absolutely distraught and it was all my fault. Half the crowd booed and half the crowd cheered. They were divided. Kaylie’s mouth dropped open and she walked over to embrace Kristen. They had been in the same group at the start of Bootcamp so it was sad to see them be separated but Kaylie just had that something. A spark that drew me to her voice, her love for singing, her desire to perform.
I watched Kristen walk off the stage, tears falling down her cheeks, and I covered my eyes with my hands, sighing. I couldn’t even remove my hands. I felt so guilty. I knew I had crushed Kristen’s dreams. It was hard but it had to be done. I wanted to see Kristen before she left, to apologise and let her know everything would be alright. Hopefully I would get the chance to do that after the filming finished.
When I managed to pry my hands off my own eyes, I looked at my final six. Skye, Kaylie, Alicia, Jenna, Daisy and Melody. They were the girls I believed in the most. I hoped I had the winner in there somewhere. Kaylie and Alicia held hands, whispering to each other, and I could see that they were the closest of friends. To keep them together would boost their talent and they would be there for each other. Kaylie looked relieved and forced myself to smile a little bit.
“She deserves a chance to win.” I whispered under my breath before telling the judges that I was done. That I wanted the filming to be over. I felt even more drained now and I wanted to relax. I looked back at the six girls and one thing I did not miss was the slight look of anger in Melody’s eyes as she stared at Kaylie. She wasn’t happy but it wasn’t up to her what decision I made. It was all up to me. I knew for certain that for the rest of the duration of the competition, I would keep Kaylie away from Melody. No good would come on it if they were at each other’s throats. Then I would have an even bigger problem on my hands.
Jealousy.
Notes
Sorry for taking so long to update! Been a bit hectic with my grandfather’s death. I just attended his funeral today so all the grief is very raw for me and my cheeks are stiff from crying but I am thankful to all of you for sticking with me on this story!
Also, Beautiful Disaster is such a wonderful deep song and I highly recommend you listen to it! Then you’ll understand why I wrote Harry crying when Kaylie sang it :)
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We’re dying for an update here. I love it. <3
11/19/17