its been 2 days since louis and i kissed and were back on the bus. i havent spoken to louis at all ive been too concerned about niall. he had been really blunt with me since and i dont no what i can do to make this better. i tried to give him a hug yesterday and he walked off. i have never seen him like this and im still really ocnfused about my feelings when i kissed louis. ahhhh too much is happening at onece. but where do i start?

''HARRY!!! harryyy'' i screamed from our bunk. niall was in the shower and harry zayn and liam are the only boys that i feel comfortable talking to at the moment. ''yes pudding'' he exclaimed from the doorway after runny from the kitchen ''whats wrong''. ''harryy harry get it theres a spider'' i screeched. he picked up the spider and let it out the window. ''harry befor you go cand i firstly say thanks for that and has niall spoke to you, hes not really speaking to me''. i asked.
''rachel you may wanna sit down, he thinks there is something between you and louis...he thinks because you both said that eachother was the hottest and when louis kissed you he was all excited...he just thinks theres something going on maybe you should reassure him''.harry explained
''oh really? well theres not but thanks ill talk to him when hes out of the shower'' i was confused theres nothing going on between me and louis i dont no why he would think so...

''ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh'' niall screamed!!! ''sorry didnt no you were in here'' he walked out. he was but naked and needed to get changed. ''Niall wait dont go i need to speak with you.'' i gave him my worried look which always makes him listen.
''ok im listening'' he sat there and stared at me.
''theres nothing going on with me and louis i dont even speak to him much...seriously you need to trust me im sorry that i kissed him but you kissed charlie and indi its exactly the same nothing happened!!'' hoping to reassure him.
''ok i believe you i...'' he started
''no dont say anything else'' i kissed him then left the room to let him get changed.

the fireworks....my heart was beating out of my chest again. no i pushed him away. louis had pinned me up in the bathroom again but this time i had more resistance i saw what i did to niall when it was just an assumption i cannot let it happen again. ''louis seriuosly get off me''. i whispered. ''but you..but youu'' he was confused but nodded and walked out. my head is spinning out of control i dont no what is going on i love niall but when i kiss louis theres a spark but not with niall. this cant be happening. ive just got to wait one more day then beth will be here i can talk to her about all of this....