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Fangirl

Good Luck, Fangirl

I'm afraid of dying. I'm afraid of being forgotten in general, and that's something you can't control when you aren't around anymore. This fact was brought up to me when the bus swerved too sharply and Ashton sprained his hand, Calum screamed at his purple hand, Michael lunged for Max, and I didn't move an inch. I was lying with Luke, who was also completely fine with it and didn't move.
It's the end of the tour, they have months to calm down and do something they haven't in years- breathe. Michael gets to go with Max back to Australia, Calum is going to go to Italy for a few weeks. Ashton is going to see his family and Luke and I are going to our house in LA.
It's been so long with us all separated I'm scared in a while when we meet again they'll have forgotten little things about me they know so well.
I'm scared of feeling like that one fangirl again.
Because it's not a good feeling. They're lying to you, Fangirl. You shouldn't spend years of your life fantasizing about the same people doing the same, romantic things. You shouldn't waste your mind on unreachable people when there are people around you, dying for friendship and real-life touch like you are. You shouldn't kiss posters, you should kiss your pets and your friends on the cheek and go meet a person who you love and kiss them. Live your god damn life, do not waste it at your computer looking up pictures of your idol for hours just to see which one looks best with which filter. You've been here long enough, go somewhere else. Keep these memories, keep the tingle in your toes when you're told they love you on a camera, but go somewhere else. Get in the car and drive somewhere where you can think and love the gift of sight and sound. Call friends and ask to go somewhere with them. My story is a story. I love Luke, I love 5 Seconds of Summer, but these people are just people. You have people. There are people all around you who could make you feel good like they do.
Luke and I have set our wedding date to April 16th, 2018. It's far away but we're just people who want to learn about everything thought we have.
Don't keep yourself in a box because you're 'awkward'. Don't lye in your bed all day and call it being lazy. If your mind is darker than it was, go talk to people. Talk. Talk and learn and live your life, don't spend the rest of your life in your room illuminated by a computer light. Meet boys who giggle. Meet girls who look broken on the outside but are so well put together. Meet people who live more than words written on a screen.

My life is perfect. I made it perfect. Now it's your turn. Write your own book.

Good luck, Fangirl,
R.S.

Notes

the end ;)

obviously i'm saying fangirl for the story theme, but boys too. this is for all of you.

here's to a lovely year & a half of fangirl, and 121, 978 other fans

-jupiter
xx

Comments

WHAT A CUTIIIIIEEEEEES

@Prinny1321

it's what i'm known for

urgh why would you tease me like this

Prinny1321 Prinny1321
5/4/18

@DancingInTheDark
oh shit i just saw this bc i never go on the website anymore i'm so sorryyy. i did it's @sunbxby now. i'll try to find yours tonight :))

My messages keep cutting @ketchupthedoggois my ig