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Fangirl

You Lied To Me

All eyes are on me after Luke admits I'm beautiful. Shit shit shit. We were all just talking and laughing while we got back on the bus, and when Luke agreed with me, Ashton said "Yeah, but that's just because you think she's beautiful." And his face turned pink as he nods awkwardly, "Yeah she's beautiful for sure." He says to Ashton, not realizing I'm right behind him. I try to ignore everyone's faces as they look at me and just get on the bus. I can't believe he thinks im beautiful. No one thinks I'm beautiful.

Everyone leaves for dinner at five, besides me. I look around the bus and sit on Luke's bunk, trying to think of something to do. My mind flashes back to all the moments Luke's acted like he likes me, and I freeze. Oh no. My stomach tightens. Fuck, I know I'd have an anxiety attack sooner or later on tour. Thank god no one's here to see it. I try to steady my unusually fast breath, and shut my watey eyes. God I can't fucking breathe! I curl myself into a ball and focus on one thing in the room. Of course, just my luck this tactic only works at home. I hear someone come onto the bus but I can't think straight enough to guess who. My heart's pounding, and only starts pounding harder when I realize it's Luke. Oh, fantastic. Not! He's going to think i'm weird or crazy.

"Are you okay?" He raises his eyebrows at me, and I think after I stutter a few letters he understands what's happening because he just sits next to me and pulls me into him, despite my shaking. "Okay okay, you're okay," He says calmly, petting my hair. I stutter again really trying to form real words, "baby sh, calm down okay, everything's okay." He whispers. Not my own mother could talk to me and stop one of these, why is it working with HIM? "Look around, you're fine." He whispers some more. He takes my hand and makes a thumbs up, "Here blow out the candle." I nearly laugh and say no, but do it anyway, and blow on my thumb. I sit up normally, and he just looks at me. "How are you now?"

"R-Really good, how did you do that so well?"

He shrugs. "I get them too." He does?

"Oh. Well um. Thank you."

"What was it about?"

"I dunno. I have an anxiety disorder so it sorta just happens sometimes." I say. I know it's not the best timing, but he looks so kissable right now, looking at me like that.

"I'm sorry." He says. I look away for a second and swear I see him look me up and down, biting his lip out of the corner of my eye. He keeps staring so I turn back to him.

"What're you looking at?" I laugh.

"You." He says softly. My heart does a backflip.

"W-Why's that?"

"Because I wasn't joking when I said you're beautiful." He hasn't broken eye contact with me, and I'm starting to see how assertive he can be. it's hot. "And I wasn't joking the last two times I tried kissing you." I stop breathing.

"A-Amy..." I stutter.

He looks at the floor, biting his lip. "Can you- keep a secret?" I nod. Is this what I think it is? "Amy and I... Um... We're a PR stunt." He looks at me.

"S-So you lied to me."

"No, management made me lie to everyone, not just you."

"That doesn't exactly make it better, Luke."

"I'm sorry, I just hated lying to you-"

"You didn't have to date her in the first place!" I protest. "You didn't have to rub her in my face like that so much!"

"Management-"

"You could have told me sooner though, Luke, we're friends I wouldn't tell anyone even if I HAD someone to tell!" I huff.

"I'm so sorry-"

"I need to think," I mumble, lying down. "What're you doing?" I ask.

"huh?"

"If you aren't dating Amy you have full rights to cuddle me right?" I grin. He smiles and lies down next to me to pull me into him and shut the curtain.

Notes

O lukis o rilly

Comments

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@Prinny1321

it's what i'm known for

urgh why would you tease me like this

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5/4/18

@DancingInTheDark
oh shit i just saw this bc i never go on the website anymore i'm so sorryyy. i did it's @sunbxby now. i'll try to find yours tonight :))

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