Melaina’s p.o.v. I woke to the sun shining through the curtains again I rolled over to find myself alone in the bed I looked at my phone it was already 10:30. So I got up out of the bed I went downstairs but no one was home so I went upstairs to take a shower. I grabbed some towels from the cabinet and jumped in I just sat underneath the water for a while just thinking about how close I’ve come to Liam and how I can tell him all these things already. I snapped back into reality when I dropped the shampoo bottle I finished the shower and wrapped my towel around me and my hair. I went back into the room and pulled my suitcase on the bed and got out some fresh clothes for the day I got out a black bandeau with gold studs on the bottom, a leopard print maxi skirt, caged wedges and angel wing drop earrings. I did Smokey eyes and put moose in all of my hair and left my bangs unstraight and flipped to one side. After I was done I went down stairs to find Liam, Harry, Sydney, Zayn, Louis and Niall all in the kitchen with Starbucks Liam came up to me with a smile “Sydney told me your favorite so I got it, it’s cool lime refresher right?” I giggled “yes thank you” “I would have woken you up but you looked really tired so I left you.” “Oh it’s okay I need the extra sleep” I smiled. “Well we should get going soon” Louis said. I looked at Liam with a confused look “where are we going?” he smirked “I forgot to tell you were going on the boat today so get your swimsuit and stuff if that’s okay?” he questioned “of course my dad used to take me all the time!” I smiled. I went upstairs to grab my swimsuit and purse and walked outside to get into the car we drove for like 30 minutes before arriving at a dock it was beautiful the ocean was beautiful. We all got on to the boat and drove until we were far from the dock I went to the bath room to change into my swim suit everyone was already in the water except Zayn, Liam had told me he couldn’t swim so I didn’t ask why he wasn’t in the water, I went and laid right next to him to start a tan we sat in silence for a while until Zayn broke it “Liam really likes you, you know that right?” I looked at him curiously “I doubt that he probably only likes me as a friend.” Zayn grinned “oh come on how can you not tell he talks about you all the time and he usually never tries this hard to know this much about girl he has never had this much interest in one.” I looked over to where everyone was swimming my eyes connected with Liam’s he waved at me to come in the water so I smiled and told him one second and faced Zayn “ I think if Liam likes me he’s stupid he doesn’t want a girl who’s recovering from being broken or even still broken.” Zayn looked at me with a confused face of what I just said, I got up but before I went to jump off into the water Zayn asked “do you like him back?” I thought about it for a moment “I promised myself a long time ago that I would never like or love someone again but I can see the promise starting to break.” Zayn had a smirk on his face and I jumped in the water and swam over to the others. Zayn p.o.v. “I think if Liam likes me he’s stupid he doesn’t want a girl who’s recovering from being broken or even still broken.” I looked at her with a confused face of what she just said, she got up but before she went to jump off into the water I asked “do you like him back? “She thought about it for a moment “I promised myself a long time ago that I would never like or love someone again but I can see the promise starting to break.” I was confused when she had said she was broken she seemed so happy all the time or was that just a cover up was it always just a fake smile? Also why would she promise herself not to love or like someone again? What could have possibly happened for this girl to promise herself that? I don’t any of the answers to those questions but I am for sure telling Liam what she said. Melaina’s p.o.v. We all got out of the water I was laying out tanning again and thinking about what Zayn and I had been talking about did Liam really like me? Did I like him back? I mean I feel so safe around him like I let my guard down. Wait, what are you talking about you made a promise to yourself you don’t want to end up broken for good this time. Liam came tapped me “come here you’re going to want to see this!” I got up from where I was at and followed Liam to the back of the boat to find everybody watching Harry and Sydney. I grabbed for Liam’s hand “why are we all watching the?” I questioned “Harry’s going to ask Sydney to be his girlfriend.” I was so surprised “But they just meet I don’t want her to end up hurt and don’t you think it’s a little early to date?” Liam looked at me “I don’t know but when I meet you I felt that love could happen really fast as long as you have trust.” I could feel my face getting really hot I looked over a Zayn who mouthed I told you so and winked at me. Before I could answer Liam, Sydney ran up telling me what just happened and I told her how happy I was for her and I hope everything works out. We were taking the boat back to the dock I went to the front and stood there at the tip of the rail the wind was blowing in my face I felt a somebody walk up behind me I turned to see Liam “it’s beautiful isn’t it?” I shake my head “it’s more than beautiful it’s gorgeous.” I smiled “Melaina can I know about the third accident yet?” I thought about it I always felt safe with him I really trusted him. So I nodded “well about 1 year ago I was madly in love my boyfriend Jasper we were always together he made me forget everything that went wrong in my life he taught me how to let go and live life to its fullest he was just simply perfect for me.” I felt a tears threating to burst at the memories of him. “You could say we both were head over heels for each other we were inseparable every minute every hour every day we tried to be together, sometimes when I couldn’t leave the house he would sneak to my window and climb up the fire ladder it was cheesy but it was cute. Well one night we decided to go to the movies it was a great we were on our way home when our song came on “cruise” by Florida Georgia line we started singing and dancing around Jasper turned to me and stared into my eyes and told me he loved me it was the first time he said it out of the 10 months we were dating I waited for the moment for forever I was about to say it back..” I felt the tears flowing out of my eyes. “when headlights flashed in my eyes a drunk driver had pulled into our lane Jasper swerved to avoid it we landed in the dry ditch I hit my head really hard on the dash board I had scratches all over my body and a big gash in my head. I looked over to see jasper with a big piece of glass in his chest I cried out in pain seeing him like this I got out of his truck my braking my window I got to his side and got the door open and dragged him out I held him in my arms getting blood all over my white dress. A women told me she called an ambulance she told me I should let go of him and calm down she tried to pull me away but I screamed “no” at the top of my lungs I was not about to leave the love of my life. I was slowly brushing through his hair I was asking him to please stay with me the tears were flooding out. I love you I shouted to him I’ve always loved you; I’ve loved you since the day we met I wept. A grin appeared on his face “no matter what happens I love you, you were my first and only love” he told me he started fading away I started to cry harder “no you can’t leave me I can’t be happy without you I need you” the blood from the big gash in my head started pouring down my face I passed out due to the blood I was losing. I woke up in the hospital later that night no one was in my room I walked towards the door to hear my mom and the doctor talking I rushed out where’s jasper? I asked “mam the doctor asked you’re in no condition to be out of bed!” I yelled where is he “room a123” I ran as fast as I could down to his room finally finding it I walked in and he had a blanket placed over his whole body I looked up to see a nurse shutting of the machine next to him. “No no what’s going on why are you doing that?” “I’m sorry Miss but Jasper died 20 minutes ago.” I fell to the floor right next to him holding his hand I got from the floor and got underneath the blankets with him I held him and cried into his chest “I love you come back, come back, please.” I stayed there all night in the arms of his lifeless body. By morning I was forced to leave his room I was released later that day to. I went home and just laid in my bed hours upon hours crying I didn’t want to be here anymore that night I finally cried myself to sleep as soon as I did I was carried away with nightmares I cried and screamed at the top of my lungs in my sleep my mom tried to help calm me down and wake me up. I finally did, it was noon I had Jaspers funeral in a couple hours I threw on the white dress that I wore the night it happened my mom managed to get all the blood out I put on the necklace he gave me and did my hair in a ponytail. Right before we left I grabbed a bottle of vodka and slipped it in my huge purse every chance I got I slipped away to the bathroom and took a big gulp of it. By the end I had drank the whole bottle and his parents told me that I could have one last view in private before they took him away. I walked up to the casket and cried I thought they were all out I thought I had cried all my tears out but I hadn’t, his brother came in and told me it was time to go so I kissed his ice cold forehead and told him I loved him one last time.” I looked at Liam who was intently looking into my eyes “I’m so sorry-“I stopped him that’s not the end. “After, his funeral I never left my room I started homeschooling and my mom put me on anti-depressants and sleeping medication. But the medication only made things worst. I soon felt no need to live I mean why should I live when the best thing that ever happened to me was gone. I attempted to over-dose but Sydney stopped me. I wouldn’t be alive if she didn’t find me in my room that day.” I looked at Liam tears still flowing down my cheeks he wrapped me in his arms and kissed my forehead “it’s all over now I’m here and I’m not going to let anything like that happen again just don’t ever try to kill yourself!” I looked up at him “promise? Promise me that it’s over?” he looked at me and paused “I promise as long as I’m around nothing will happen.” I felt safe by his words the tears stopped and I could finally breathe. This was a start of a new begging.