Julia’s POV:
It was finally time for dinner with the boys. I was so nervous because I didn’t know what to say to Niall. The last thing was ‘I love you’, and we weren’t even together. I sighed and finished putting on my heels (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=89023017).

“C’mon Jules! We’re going to be late!” Christa called out from the other room. I stood up and grabbed my phone, putting it in my purse.

“I’m coming, I’m coming.” I said, as I saw her waiting by the front door. I didn’t feel like going out tonight. I still didn’t feel well, and I guess I took the wrong medicine or something because it isn’t helping at all. I didn’t tell Christa or Liam of course because that would just cause worry upon everyone. I’d basically ruin everyone’s time here. Even if they were here to comfort me.

The whole ride there, I lay my head on the window. I felt miserable and shitty altogether. I closed my eyes, hoping just a little rest would make me feel better. I knew it wouldn’t though.

“Jules…we’re here.” Christa said when we pulled up to the restaurant parking lot. It took us about twenty minutes to get here, so I didn’t have a long time to rest. I sighed and unbuckled my seatbelt. As I opened the car door, I felt a little dizzy, but it quickly went away.

“Are they already here?” I asked, yawning.

“Yeah. Are you alright?” She asked eyeing me, carefully.

“Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked, giving her a fake smile.

“I don’t know you just don’t look yourself.” She commented, making me shrug my shoulders. We walked into the restaurant and walked up to the hostess.

“We’re here with the reservation Payne.” Christa said smiling.

“Of course, right this way.” The hostess smiled at us politely and led us to a private room in the back. “Here you are!” She said, and walked back to the front of the restaurant. We walked into the room, and the boys turned their heads smiling.

“Yay, you’re here!” Louis said, almost shouting. I giggled and found an empty seat between Liam and Louis, while Christa sat next to Harry and Zayn. I’m glad they worked things out so they’re friends now.

“Hey babe, feeling better?” Liam asked, giving me a smile. I nodded my head and looked at my menu. I looked up across the table only to see Niall’s eyes looking directly back at me. I quickly looked away, and I could feel my cheeks getting warm. I knew I was blushing. When the waitress came, we all ordered and returned the menus to her.

“So what have you guys been up to?” Christa asked the boys.

“Well lately we’ve just been---“ I zoned out after that. I was just staring down at the table in deep thought. I was panicking again. I just wasn’t sure what exactly would happen between Niall and me. I don’t things would ever be the same between us. I know we both had feelings for each other though. Confusing feelings, and I guess we just needed to sit down and talk about it.

“Julia!” Christa called out to me, and I instantly snapped out of all my roaming thoughts.

“Hm, yeah?” I said turning my head to look at her.

“Zayn asked you a question…” She said, raising her eyebrows.

“Oh, um sorry what was it?” I said giving them a forceful smile.

“Oh, I just wanted to know what happened…you know the other night. About your friend. If you don’t feel comfortable telling us, then that’s okay.” He gave me a sincere smile.

“No, it’s fine I’ll tell you. I’ll even start from the very beginning.” I took a deep breath before getting ready to tell them.

“Are you sure? Liam asked nervously. I nodded my head.

“While I was in rehab, I had no intentions of getting better. I guess everyone feels that way when they first enter. I gave my honest opinion one day in this little group and Casey happened to be in it. We also just happened to be sharing a room with each other while we were there. She told me her whole story. She said she used to go in and out of that place all the time. She told me that she could help me get out faster and I did.” I paused and looked down.

“You don’t have to…” Liam whispered, putting his hand on my knee. I had to tell them the truth though. We’ve become so close and I was basically lying to them while I was in there. Although, Liam and Christa already knew everything.

“She taught me ways on how to make others think that I was getting better…but I was the same. I still didn’t eat much, but nobody really saw that. When you guys came on visiting day…I was just wearing makeup. I was still very pale underneath, and with the makeup I made myself look fuller. Mostly in my face. I wore sweaters and sweatpants a lot because I didn’t want anybody to see skinny I still was. I really shouldn’t have gotten drunk that night…it didn’t help my health at all.” For a quick second I looked up at Niall but looked away after I saw his eyes were getting read. “When Casey and I were released we were basically still anorexic…I’m sorry I lied to you guys.” I said, tears threatening to come out.

“It’s okay…we’re just happy you’re better now…” Louis said, giving me a small smile.

“Thanks, Louis.” I smiled at him and continued. “So the other day I was at the park with Christa and Matt. Casey had texted me a little before everyone left and told me that she was boarding the plane now. When we were all about to leave, I was going to catch a cab to the airport, but I got a phone call…” I was choking up already at the thought of that night. “It was her mum…she passed away…” I already felt the tears coming, but I quickly wiped them away. Liam put his arm around me, and comforted me.

“Julia I’m so sorry…” I heard Zayn say. The table was quiet, until the waitress came with our meals. Liam withdrew his arm, and everybody tried to lighten the mood.

After a while we all started to break off in different conversations around the table. It kind of reminded me of the first night when I officially met them. I smiled to myself. I started talking to Niall after a while but neither of us mentioned the whole airport thing. We talked about other things. I saw Harry out of the corner of my eye, glaring at Niall and I. He just shook his head and looked away.

“Harry, mate, what’s the matter?” Louis asked. I’m guessing I wasn’t the only one who noticed his ‘mood’.

“Yeah, are you okay?” I asked a bit worried.

“Oh, like you don’t know.” He snapped at me.

“Harry, calm down. What’s gotten into you?” Zayn said. By now everyone was looking at Harry with curiosity. I feared the words that were going to come out of his mouth. I’m pretty sure why I knew he was upset but why now? I thought he was over it?

“No, I’m sick of always having to be the bad guy here.” Harry said, almost yelling.

“Harry, don’t.” I said, and I could feel my eyes starting to water.

“Fine, would you like to say it?” He asked me bitterly. Nobody knew what was going on. This was probably the worst night of my life.

“Harry, please.” I felt a few tears sliding down my cheeks, and he just rolled his eyes.

“Please what? Not tell everyone that we slept together?” He said, raising his eyebrows. By now more tears were coming down, and I didn’t even bother wiping them away.

“Harry, are you just being a jackass or are you serious?” Liam asked a bit angrily.

“Why don’t you ask her?” He said my name with such disgust in is voice. Everyone looked at me. I guess by the tears, they knew that it was true. Liam looked down, and Christa was wide-eyed. I looked back over at Niall to see that he was trying not to cry. His eyes were filled with hurt and you could tell he was angry.

“Niall…” I said, trying to think of something to say, but nothing came out. He stood up and walked over to Harry. Before he could even do anything, Zayn stood up in between them and made sure they didn’t do anything towards one another. Niall tried to go for Harry, but Zayn kept him back.

“YOU SLEPT WITH MY EX!?” Niall shouted. By now, Louis was helping hold back Harry and Liam stood up making sure nothing happened. Christa was speechless and didn’t know what to do.

“Niall, we were drunk it was a mistake!” I said, trying to wipe away the tears. It didn’t help, though.

“THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID WHEN I DROPPED YOU OFF AFTER YOUR PARTY! YOU SAID WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN US WAS A MISTAKE. YOU SLEPT WITH HIM THEN TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME? THAT’S NOT LOVE, JULIA. I WOULDN’T BE SURPRISED IF YOU SLEPT WITH THE REST OF THEM TOO.” He yelled at me. Liam was holding me, comfortingly.

“Hey, mate. Watch it. You didn’t need to go there.” Liam said, glaring at Niall. Niall squirmed from Zayn’s grip and broke loose.

“Whatever, I’m leaving. I never want to speak to you again.” Niall said, with a tear rolling down his cheek. He walked out of the room, and out of the restaurant. Harry jerked away from Louis and left behind Niall, but they probably weren’t going the same way.

Just about a month ago I thought my life was messed up.

I stand corrected.

Notes

:o So everybody found out because Harry was being a jerk, basically. *sigh*

It's pretty obvious what will happen next...so...not much of a surprise there, but whatever. Well one more chapter, and then this story will be over.

But there will be a sequel :)

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