Hey You.....

I cry for hours in my bed and at the end, I cried myself asleep....

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For a few days I only cry, eat ice cream and all those other things you do when your heart is broken. Harry flew back for me. Theo also stays at my place at the moment. Together they watched every stupid romantic movie I could find. They really try to cheer me up a little but even that doesn't work. Well, it works for a few minutes, maybe hours, but I always get remembered about Luke. Everywhere, on the news, in the newspapers. I guess the whole world knows it now. I told Mel to stay there, she really deserves some time with Mike. She calls me everyday to do report about what they did together, and let's say that I'm happy for her. And I'm happy that she doesn't mention anything about Luke. Sometimes I hear him on the background talking to Cal or Ash. Luke called me several times but I never pick up. He doesn't deserve that. I also met the new manager, I mean the one who goes with me to Europe. And I decided to finish my law school, Or how you call that thing. At least I can do something when this is all over. And I always liked to watch my dad as a lawyer. I'll be happy when I'm one too.


I wake up with my dogs in my bed. They're always sleeping with me now. I feel my eyes well up again but then I look at my dogs and I realize something. Of course, I can cry my eyes out again, but what is that gonna solve? I also just can go on with my life. It will be hard but I just need something else to focus on. I look at my dogs and pet Spike on his back. I have enough to focus on. I smile for the first in a few days. I'll show Luke that he messed with the wrong one.

I dress in some shorts and a normal tee. I walk downstairs with a smile on my face. I begin to clean up the living room. It's a really mess here, I think while I grab the movies and put them back in the shelf. I clean up the rest of the morning and then Harry and Theo come down.
"Someone looks happy." Harry says while his eyebrows shoot up.
"Yup." I smile at him while I grab the last ice cream tub and throw in the trash can.
"Why are you so happy today?" Theo asks.
He looks at me in relief, probably hoping that he doesn't have to watch another movie.
"Because I realized something."
"What did you realize?"
"That I don't need Luke to be happy. And that I have enough things to focus on. I'm gonna show him that he messed with the wrong one... Literally." I laugh at the end.
"That's my girl." Harry walks to me and gives me a hug.
"Groupshug." Theo says while he hugs me too.

We walk into the recording room and I grab some paper.
"What are you gonna do?" Harry asks confused.
"I'm going to give Luke a place somewhere." I say while I begin to write some thing on the paper.
"So what are gonna do?"
"I'm going to write a song. It helps to give things a place that I never could give a place."
"Can we help?" Theo asks.
"Nah, I think I need to do this on my own." I smile.
"Okay, we'll go, just call us if you need us." And they walk out.
I begin to write. It's never gonna be a real song that's going to be released or something. Just a song for myself. I'm not that mean, sometimes.. I smirk.

Verse 1

"you wanna play, you wanna stay, you wanna have it all,"

"you started messing with my head until I hit a wall,"

"Maybe I should've known, maybe I should've known,"

"That you would walk, you would walk out the door."

"said we were one, met someone and rubbed it in my face."

"I guess you should've known, I guess you should've known,"

"That I would talk, I would talk."

Chorus

"But eve if the stars and moon collide,"

"I never want you want you back into my life."

"you can take you words and all your lies."

"oh oh oh, I really don't care."

*Chorus*

Verse 2

"I can't believe I ever stayed up writing songs about you,

"You don't deserve to know the way I used to think about you."

"Oh no not anymore, oh no not anymore,"

"You had you shot, had your shot, but you let it go."

"Now, if we meet out on the street I won't be running scared,"

"I walk right up to you and put one finger in the air."

"And make you understand, and make you understand."

"You had your chance, had your chance."

*Chorus*


So that's at least a part of it, I think happy. I look at the time and see it's 19:00. Wow I sit here already the whole day. I hear my stomach and know it's time to eat something. I walk to the living room and see that Harry and Theo are sitting in front of the tv.
"Hey Deems. We ordered some pizza, do you want too?" Harry asks when he sees me.
"Yeah, sure." I sit down and grab a slice.

we ate the pizza and spend the rest of the night on the couch. After that I'm going to bed. I'll show him....

Notes

HEY GUYS SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING LATELY. Anyways I started a new story and if you just wanted to check it out and read the A/N in the third chapter because is some important info for you guys!! Anyways I hope I can upload tomorrow or maybe later this day :)

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p.s. I also changed the background of this story,just so you know ;)