That kiss was pure bliss, but after a minutes of our tongues being intertwined I finally become aware of what I'm doing. By allowing this to happen, I am basically letting Liam off the hook...or so he thinks.
"We can't do this" I say while pulling away from his grip.
"Why" He asks
"Because us swapping spit isn't going to make things better, in fact it made things worse. Now I am more confused than ever." - E
"Ella tell me what you want!" - L
"I don't know. Of course I want you. I love you. I love you so much, but you destroyed me!" - E
"You think I don't know that? I have barely gotten any sleep for the past 22 days. I can hardly live with myself knowing what I did." - L
"I'm never gonna be good enough for you am I?" - E
"What are you talking about. You are perfect." - L
"Clearly not or else you would have never gone near her! Am I not skinny enough is that it?" - E
"No, don't be fucking ridiculous! You have the best body I have ever seen, I love every inch of it." - L
"Then why Liam. Why did you do this to me? I need answers." I'm trying my hardest so keep a firm exterior, and fight back the tears.
"I'm gonna be honest when I did what I did I was a selfish bastard. It was the early stages of our relationship. I was the old Liam. I was unsure, unsure of what the future had in store for us, unsure if you would stick around, and unsure if I could be the guy that you deserved. I was afraid, so I did the most cowardly thing possible. You changed me Ella. You changed me in all the ways a person can be changed. I never thought that I could be capable of loving someone as much as I love you. I love you with every fiber of my being, and I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you. That night you got into the car crash and I didn't know whether or not you were gonna make it, I couldn't even bare the thought of you being gone. I don't know what I would do. I need you. I need you more than you need me. I know that there is no possible way to justify what I did, but I wish that you would try to understand. Try and see beyond my flaws and this one mistake. Let me make it up to you. I promise I will. I'll do anything." - L
Hearing Liam profess his true feelings for me make me realize that I can't be without him. Well, I could but I don't want to. Maybe I should, but I don't. Being in love is about forgiveness right? It's about being there for each other until the end I can't give up on him.
"It's not gonna be easy, we are going to have to work at it, but I am willing to do it because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day, you and me. Let's try and move past this." - E
"Really?" - L
"Yeah, but we have to take it slow. It's going to take me a while to gain your trust back." - E
"I promise you, you won't regret this." - L
"I hope not. Don't make me change my mind." -E
"This can be a new beginning." - L
"Where should we start?" - E
"How bout here?" Liam says while dragging me into the bedroom
Oh, how I've missed this.