We sat in long awkward silence for what seemed like ages before he decided to talk.
"I don't even know where to begin" He says, trying to figure out what to say next.
"I should probably start with apoligizing although, if I apoligized for everything I did to you in the months after our break up wemwould be here all day. Ella I'm sorry for being a dick before, during, and after our relationship. Some of the things I said were so fucked up, and I truly regret them every day. I could take them back if I could, but the truth is, I was hurting, so bad." - M
"If you're just gonna blame you being an asshole on me then I don't wanna hear it." - E
"No let me finish. Ever since the day we broke up I have never been the same. I mean that. You were everything to me, despite everything that happened I still desperatley wanted to be with you, but I couldn't let myself. I couldn't let myself go back to a girl who cheated on me. Sorry to bring it up, but it's true. Deep down, I wanted to forgive you, but I was afraid of what everyone would think, I was afraid of being judged." - M
This is everything I have been longing to hear for years, but much too late. I wish I could give him a hug, an let him back into my life, but I can't. I need to remove myself from this situation before I do something stupid.
"I appreciate you trying to make things right between us, but unfourtunatley its too little too late." - E
"Do you love him?" - M
"More than words can say." - E
"Are you in love with him?" - M
"Yes - E
"Does he make you happier than I did?" - M
"Well..." I stutter before he interupts me.
"Just answer the question." - M
"He makes me a different kind of happy, and the two of you are totally incomparable so you interrogating me about my love life is irrelevant." - E
"Are you sure you aren't just dating him because he's famous, or maybe the money has something to do with it?" - M
Oh no he fucking didn't. I am furious. Get me out of here. Now.
"How fucking dare you!" I scream
I reach for the door handle to get out, but he looks me in. Oh, he's holding me hostage now...great.
"You aren't going anywhere!" He shouts back at me.
"Yes I fucking am. You crossed the line with that last comment Matt. To think that for a split second I actually thought you changed. Boy was I wrong." - E
"But I love you." - MSay what...