Liam left last week. Since he's been gone I don't know what to do with myself in what feels like this massive apartment. Yes, I have had Megan and other friends over, but it's not the same. Of course Si keeps me company and plenty of cuddles, but I just wish he was here. You'd think I'd be used to the whole long distance thing by now, but I'm not. The boy's are so so so busy lately. When they aren't rehersing they are promoting, or starting some other major project. They're kicking off there 2014 tour in a couple of months, so I'll hardly ever see him. Even though he keeps begging me to go with him, but I have school, and responsibilities. I'm not sure if I'm ready for that, ready for all of our communication to be at a bare minimum. I'm scared to be honest. What if it doesn't work? Liam says it will, but I have my doubts, not in him, but in me. I hope I'm strong enough for this. Luckily, I'l have school to keep me busy. My second semester schedule is very rigorous so I'm sure ill have lots to do. Between that and Simon maybe ill be able to keep busy without Liam. I'm gonna have to. It's not like I have much choice right?