chapter 3: it’s time to say goodbye  I wake up again ,Louis and the guys aren’t there. it  couldnt be eleven yet, could it? then i hear a bang and swears coming from the kitchen. found them. i run in, the guys were making dinner , and harry was at the sink running water over his hand , he sees me he just shrugs and smiles . i leave the room go upstairs, i go into the bathroom . i get the first-aid kit and walk back  downstairs into  the kitchen , i gently pull his towards me. i put a band-aid on it then he says” what you wont kiss it better ” “no” i chuckle, i give his hand back ” so lilian did you sleep well” zayn asks     “yeah, why do you ask?” i reply confused “well you seem pretty comfortable sleeping on lou” i blush “well if i looked comfortable why would you ask if i slept well ‘cause you clearly know the answer” i snap back im still blushing like crazy “sorry” zayn whispers “well she was like a blanket all warm and soft” louis adds, i turn a deeper shade of red  ” then wouldnt she be a teddy bear ?” harry asks ” no she would be more like pillow” niall replys ” no she was sleeping on lou not the other way around” liam adds. why are they talking about this i slept on him on accident. i want to change the subject so i ask ” so, when is dinner done?”  ”uh…now” nial says turning off the stove ” what did you make” i ask “pasta with vegetables and cheese sauce” liam says “wow that sounds soo good” i say ” well we didnt know know if you’er vegetation or not ” liam adds “liam” i put a hand on his shoulder “dude i made food with meat in it last night why would you think im a  vegetation” i smile, his eyes are filled worry , for the first time ever so one is worried for me my smile drops quickly “well you didnt eat that much last night though” he says softly ” i wasnt very hungry last night” i lie , i dont eat that much anymore but when i am hungry i massively pig out and last night was like that , i didnt want to scare the guys the first night i meet them “so… we should eat before the food gets cold” i say to brake the silence , i start grabbing the plates, niall grabs me by the forearm he’s touching the scars. Oh no.” lilian is everything alright” he says with worry in he’s eyes I’m standing here wanting to say everything is not alright and tell him everything that happen in my past all that I’ve been though but I chock “right as rain” I wiggle out of his grasp I feel the tears threnten to brake lose I try to blink them away and run out. I can feel starring at me. Great * a few minutes later* I walk in to the dinning room the guys look like they’re at home laughing and talking about where they’re going on tour I glance at the clock it reads 10:30 only 30 more minutes intill they leave I get my food and i eat it quickly soon as I’m done I turn on the Tv then I hear my home town pop up into the conversation I block what they say about that horrible place out of my head and finish my show I check the clock again it reads 10:58 I see the boys getting ready with sad looks Im sad too. *2 minutes pass* we say our goodbyes and we hug, Paul comes up to the door I say hi but he just nods and leave after the boys. this might be the last time I see the boys in person.