The following morning I woke up didn’t feel like doing anything, I was just sitting in my couch watching all the videos that me and Dre shared together. People told us we were like romeo and juilet meant to be together, and I believed that he also believed that our lives together was perfect . We talked about having kids getting married and exploring the world together… how can someone move on from a situation like this. It was an emotional day for me I was drinking heavily to numb my feelings.

Crystal came to the door to check on me she saw me lying down in the floor passed out, I wanted to give up on life she shock me to wake me up.

Crystal: “ ELIZABETH WAKE UP, ELIZABETH WAKEEEE UP DON’T GIVE UP ON ME NOW WAKE UP”.

Me: “ Let me be alone” I was to drunk to even talk “ Fuck you, fuck this life fuck everything in this whole entire world I lost the person that I loved the most”

Crystal: “ STOP IT NOW I BEG YOU DEANDRE WOULDN’T BE HAPPY TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS GET UPPPPPPP NOW”

Me: “ GET OUT OF MY HOUSE GETTTTT OUT YOU ARE NO HELP FUCK YOU GET OUT” I punched crystal in the face when I am drunk I tend to get violent.

Crystal left my house in tears and lost for words, I was still in the floor lying passed out… 3 hours passed I got up I called crystal up.. Crystal didn’t pick up I was worried to I went by her house…

Crystal: “ Do you know what happened to me”…

Me: “What happened to you?... I don’t know what happened to you I was drunk”

Crystal: “ You hurt me.. why were you drinking in the first place why did you want to numb your feelings”…

Me: “ I JUST LOST THE PERSON I LOVED!! I wanted to numb my feelings so I got wasted now if I hurt you I am sorry!!”..

Crystal: “ Get your life sorted out then come and talk to me cause right now I don’t even want to talk to you there are plenty of alternatives to deal with your pain getting drunk wasn’t the good option please leave my house now”…

Me: “ Really this is how it is going to be… I just lost Dre now I will lose you… Great just great” I slammed the door really hard..

Crystal got a point there was no need to get drunk and numb the pain…. At that time it was the better choice it was just an extremely hard time for me...

Notes

Drinking will not help solve any problem having your friends and family around you is more than enough.. :)