Emma's p.o.v

Everyone had came back from the club and gone to their separate hotel rooms. Except for Eleanor who was with Louis. Leaving me alone here with Katie. Just when I needed her. I had started over analyzing things when Harry left and I have no clue what's going on in my head right now. ''Are you okay?'' Katie woke me from my thoughts ''why wouldn't I be?'' I asked, too kind for my liking. ''You're pacing. Something's on your mind'' she shrugged from where she was sat on the bed. She was here, and I really needed someone to talk to. ''I...it's nothing'' I said and she nodded and looked down on her phone again. ''Actually'' damn it Emma, she looked up at me ''I know we're not really friends anymore but..’’ ‘’Emma, I’ll always be here for you. Even if we’re not...I wanna be your friend though’’ she said.

I wasn’t really ready to see past my pride but I nodded, I really needed to talk. ‘’I had sex with Harry’’ I blurted out and saw her eyes widen ‘’was that stupid? I mean we’re a thing but we’re not official. He has his problems and I have mine, I don’t know did I do the wrong choice? I did, didn’t I? Shit I’m such a slut’’ I said in, I swear, one breath. ‘’Emma’’ Katie said and cut me off ‘’first of all, you’re not a slut for sleeping with a guy you like. You wouldn’t be a slut even if you did sleep with a guy you don’t like. Or if you sleep with one hundred guys, never say that about yourself. Second of all, did you want to do it?’’ I nodded ‘’then it’s fine, right?’’ she asked. ‘’I don’t know...like how will we go from here? I love him. I really do. But that’s what’s been the problem all along. Loving him is the hardest part, because I’m not sure he loves me’’ I said the last part a little lower, feeling tears build in my eyes. I didn’t know I felt that way before I said it. But that was really it. I loved him, and I wasn’t sure he loved me back. Or if he ever would.

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I had just seen One Direction perform for the second time and they were amazing. Cass was apparently angry with the boys for clubbing last night and were currently yelling at them. She's tough, I love it. ''This is the last time, I'm serious. One more time and you're off this tour'' Cass said and left the room. ''She's not serious, right?'' Niall said, ''think she is'' Liam frowned. ''Whatever we can drink at the hotel rooms if necessary'' Louis said with a shrug. ''Did you see that girl in the audience that had made her own 1D t-shirt? That was so cool'' Katie said sounding all excited and of old habit I gave her the most bitchy face I knew ''why are you talking to me?'' I blurted out.

‘’Honestly what is your deal?’’ Katie shouted at me ‘’I really thought we could be friends again but you just used me for advice for a mistake you did’’ it was only us and the boys in the room, but this conversation were going out of line for so many people to be in this room. ‘’Don’t you dare go there, it wasn’t a mistake I just wanted to talk about it. And will you fucking lower your voice’’ I shouted right back at her. ‘’Why? Don’t want your brother to know that Harry fucked the shit out of you last night’’ she gave me a smirk and the tension in the room changed in two seconds. Louis practically flew across the room and shoved Harry against the wall. ‘’You fucked my sister?’’ he screamed in Harry’s face.

I rushed over and tried to press my body between them ‘’Louis stop’’ I screamed but he was livid. Liam and Niall were over in seconds moving Lou away from Harry and I stood in front of Harry so I was now between them. I could hear Harry's heavy breathing behind me. ‘’I thought you were my friend dude. Do you want me to fuck Gemma? Oh wait, already did’’ I looked in shock at Louis. What the fuck was he saying? Harry was in front of me all of sudden ready to attack Louis. Niall and Liam let go of Louis for a second just to stop Harry but Louis was quicker. His fist flew against Harry’s eye and I screamed when he hit him, Harry hit Louis back on the cheek before Niall grabbed him and Liam grabbed Louis. ‘’Enough, both of you’’ Niall yelled. I had never seen Niall so mad, he was red in the face spitting out the words. Harry was holding a hand over his eye and Louis was rubbing his cheek and the room was all quiet.

That’s when I started. ‘’You’’ I pointed on Louis and stepped up to him ‘’I’m not a fucking child, I can take care of myself and I wanna fuck someone I will. And you’re not gonna punch the shit out of them because of that. I’m so fucking disgusted with you, Lou’’ I said and turned to Harry, ‘’and you, you could have been the fucking bigger person and not fight back. I’m disgusted with your behaviour as well’’ and then I turned to Katie. ‘’And you, the biggest fucking bitch of them all. If I weren’t so against violence I would slap the shit out of you right now because you fucking deserve it. I wish I had never met you. And you know what, your eyebrows are shitty’’ I said before walking out of the room. Not looking back. I was done. With all of them.

Louis’ p.o.v

‘’Now you stay in this corner, and you stay in that’’ Liam warned Harry and I. We were in Liam and I’s hotel room and I was putting some ice on my cheek. Harry really had a strong fist. ‘’You two are gonna solve this now, apologize to each other and Emma. Otherwise there will be no more One Direction. We can’t work together if two of the members wanna kill each other’’ Niall said and gave us both a glare. He was pacing back and forth, clearly stressed over the situation. ‘’I don’t have to apologize to my sister, she’ll forgive me. She’s after all you know, my sister. Harold on the other hand I can’t speak for’’ I said and started playing with my nails.

‘’How can you tell me what I did was wrong when you did the exact same thing?’’ Harry asked ‘’because I didn’t. I wouldn’t. Friends don’t do that’’ I mumbled. ‘’You didn’t sleep with Gemma?’’ Liam asked and I shook my head ‘’just said I did because I was mad’’. ‘’Oh’’ Harry said. ‘’When I met you, Harry. You were this womanizer who according to yourself ‘doesn’t do feelings’. How do you think I should feel when my sister obviously is in love with you and you choose to sleep with her?’’ I looked up to meet Harry’s eyes. He opened his mouth to answer me but the door opened and he remained quiet. Emma walked in but froze when she saw that we were all in here.

I gave Harry a quick look, and that’s when I saw it. He looked at her like he just realized what love is. ‘’I was just gonna get your house keys, forgot mine at home’’ Emma said and I turned towards her again ‘’you’re leaving?’’ Harry's voice cracked and I could swear I heard hurt in his voice. She gave him a quick nod before crouching down on the floor beside my suitcase. She found the keys and stood up again before hugging Liam, Niall and El goodbye. Without looking back she left, for the second time today. I looked at Harry, he looked absolutely crushed. ‘’Haz, mate’’ I said, deciding to swallow my pride, ‘’do you like her?’’ he shook his head “I love her” he whispered and I gave him a weak smile ‘’if you let her leave, you’ll lose her. Go after her’’ I said and nodded towards the door. He quickly stood up, suddenly stressed ‘’but...shouldn’t you?’’ ‘’she’s my sister, she will never get rid of me’’ I shrugged, he gave me a quick smile before rushing out the door. ''Proud of you, Lou'' Liam said patting my shoulder, ''me too. You did the right think, mate'' Niall nodded.


Harry’s p.o.v

I ran towards the elevators of the hotel and just got a foot through before the elevator closed. Emma looked up, surprised to see me and wiped away a few tears. ‘’I’m really tired, Harry. I don’t want to talk’’ she sighed but I stepped in and let the doors close. The elevator started to move without us speaking. You’ll lose her, Harry. Do something. So I did. I pressed emergency stop and turned towards her. ‘’Why did you..’’ she said but I cut her off, ‘’Before I met you, I slept with girls for fun. And when they got too attached I dumped them. I was a shitty person. But then I met you. I think I knew from the beginning, and from that day I denied it. That day we first met, you laughed at Louis telling you to piss off. You laughed, and I think I forgot how to breathe. And when you talk, I love to hear you talk. About anything, really. Even if it may not seem important I’m hanging on to every word you say. And when you walk in to a room it just brightens up my day, even if it was the shittiest day a second before. I love when you play with my hair when we watch your favorite tv-shows or when you insist on eating the whole Ben and Jerry’s ice cream because fuck gender roles saying girls shouldn’t eat what they want. It wouldn’t matter to me if you gained one hundred pounds because in a room full of art, I’d still stare at you. Knowing this made me scared as hell. Because I really fell for you. And I mean, love, love was just a word before you showed it to me. Because fuck, I’m so in love with you you can’t imagine. Emma, I love you’’ tears were flowing from her eyes, she was actually crying. I had this speech prepared in my mind but I just blacked out and spoke from my heart instead. ‘’You love me?’’ she asked with a voice so fragile ‘’I love you’’ my face formed in to a huge grin. ‘’Good, because I love you too’’ she said and jumped on my torso, I held her tight as our lips collided. ''Where do we go from here?'' she asked when I put her back down, ''if you want to...do you wanna be my girlfriend?'' ''I'd love too''.


Louis’ p.o.v

‘’Hey’’ I smiled when Em opened the door to her hotel room. She stepped aside so I could walk in and I sat down on the couch. I was quiet for a moment trying to figure out what to say. ‘’Our family has always had this problem, y’know? Pride. Mum has it, dad has it hell even you and I have it. It ruined your relationship with mum. I don’t want that to happen to the two of us. So here I am, the Louis Tomlinson, swallowing his pride. I’m sorry Emma, I apologize. I know you’re growing up, you can take care of yourself. I know that. But, I will always be your big brother. I will always be protective of you, I do that because I love you and I care about you. However, I will try not to punch future boyfriends’’ I winked and she let out a laugh. I took a breath of relief.

‘’I can live with that’’ she shrugged ‘’bring it in’’ I said and opened my arms inviting her in to a hug which she gladly accepted. ‘’you’re a good big brother, you know that?’’ I pulled back to look at her with a smile ‘’the best’’ I said and kissed her forehead before letting her go. ‘’Sooo you had sex...how was it?’’ I asked and I immediately regretted what I had just said ‘’Actually don’’ I began but she was mortified ‘’Louis’’ she yelled as her cheeks turned light pink. ‘’But like you’re fine, you’re okay?’’ I let out an awkward laugh ‘’I’m great’’ ‘’good, good. So I’m gonna leave now because discussing my sister’s sex life isn’t the ideal convo for me so bye’’ I said and headed for the door ‘’bye Lou’’ she laughed after me.

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