After my blood turns in to alcohol

Emma's p.o.v

''Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Dublin. I hope you have a lovely time, thank you'' the air hostess said when we had landed at Dublin's Airport. Yes, we were in Ireland. I was finally going to see Louis and I brought Eleanor with me so I wouldn't kill our other little...Katie. Who joined to see her precious boyfriend Niall. ''I'm so excited'' I squealed and squeezed Eleanor's hand, ''me too'' she said as we stood up to exit the plane. Katie had been very quiet the whole trip and I know it's stupid but I feel like she's planning something evil to destroy me. Ugh, come on Emma enough with that. She's not Satan, she's just a mean girl. Basically Satan but...yeah, mean girl I'll roll with that.

We had got our bags and headed for the exit where the boys would meet us. I'm not too sure what to do when I see Harry. Hug? Smile and wave or..? I've never broken up with someone before. We weren't together but you get the point. And then I saw them. Four all too familiar boys. Three of them smiling, one ready to fall apart. Before I could lay anymore thought in that Louis rushed over and gave me a long bone crushing hug. I was so overwhelmed I didn't notice who I hugged or what happened and suddenly we were in the car. Niall were sat in the back snogging Katie and Louis sat between me and Eleanor. God they are so in to each other. Disgusting. In front of us sat Liam and Harry. Harry. Did I hug him? I can't remember.

''Hi girls, I'm Cass the boys' babysitter if you'd call it that. Let me see, you're Katie, you're Eleanor and you'' she stopped and pointed at me with a grin ''you're Emma. I have been dying to meet you since your brother talks about you all the time, are you as cool as he says?'' I can really see me liking this girl ''you'll have to see'' I winked making her laugh. She was gorgeous I'm sure all of the boys have a crush on her. I smiled looking at Louis and accidentally met Harry's eyes and it was like someone shot me. His face physically hurt my heart. If I were to take him ba.. no, Emma. You need to be stronger than that. What he made you do, wait for him, wasn't fair. ''So what do we do here in Dublin, Niall? Your home country so you better have something planned'' Eleanor said interrupting my thoughts. ''Well we're having the concert tonight but tomorrow I was told we were free daytime before the second concert on the evening. I was thinking, if you all want to we can visit my brother and his family?'' he asked ''that would be so much fun, Ni. I love your family'' I smiled thinking of how incredibly nice his parents are. ''Can't wait to see my nephew, I only saw him when he was a newborn. Now he has just turned one'' I could tell how excited Niall was and it made me so happy.

That night everyone was going out to a club with the band members of The Wanted but I wasn't feeling it at all. Seeing Harry made me question my decision and my head was a mess right now. So I told everyone that I didn't feel good and wanted to go back to the hotel. Both Louis and Eleanor had offered to go with me but I had told them to go and have fun since I was going to sleep anyway. So here I was on the couch watching boring TV in mine, El and Katie's hotel room. There was a knock on the door and I figured it was the cleaning staff or something so I went to open the door only to have Harry stand there. Half of me wanted to slam the door in his face, the other half wanted to jump on to him and kiss him. Responsible me gave him a weak smile ''what's up?'' I asked. ''I want to talk'' he said stepping inside and closing the door after me.

After a long, painful talk about feelings and us I finally confessed that I still had issues.
''I thought I had overcome my insecurities. I thought I had gotten better. I honestly did. But then I found myself in bed at 4 in the morning trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me and why I'm never good enough for anyone''
''you are good enough to me. Better than enough'' he whispered and I sat down next to him. Deciding to take him back. Because it was more hurtful not being with him than him not loving me. I grabbed his hands gently squeezing them and then looking up to see his confused expression. ''I think...no I know, I love you too much to let you go'' I whispered leaning forward. Without doubt, without thinking our lips clashed. Aching warm kisses were shared between us. He was everything I wanted and maybe he can learn how to love me. Maybe I can show him what love is. I can be that person. His person. ''Do you wanna watch a movie?'' I asked pulling away from him as he nodded.


I don’t know how the movie made him feel, but I was definitely turned on. I had been wanting him for so long. For him to be my first. I was sure, I really wanted it. But he would never take the first step, he respected me too much. Without thinking too much about it I placed my hand on his area, I pretended I was watching the movie and I could feel him tense. ‘’Emma’’ he said with his jaw clenched ‘’hmm?’’ I said without looking at him ‘’what are you doing?’’ I turned to look at him. His eyes were confused mixed with lust. I leaned in and placed a quick kiss on his lips just to see his reaction. I could tell he knew where I was going because he turned his head.

I placed my free hand on his cheek and turned him towards me before kissing him again. I deepened the kiss and felt his hand stroke my arm for a bit before placing it on my waist. My hands traveled up to his hair, burying my fingers in his curls, while his hands traveled up my shirt. A moan slipped out my mouth as he grasped one of my breasts and I could feel him smile into the kiss. With a smooth hand motion he unhooked my bra and he first pulled of my shirt, letting go from my lips for a second before pressing against them again. When he took of my bra I suddenly felt self-conscious and covered them with one of my arms. He pulled away from my lips ‘’you’re beautiful’’ he said and gently removed my arm. He started kissing my neck and I had never felt this good, I thought, until he started massaging my breasts. He looked me in the eye as he bend over and placed his mouth over my nipple.

He then began placing small kisses before taking it in his mouth sucking it. Moans came out of my mouth without me really controlling it. Suddenly I felt that I should do something too so I gently pushed him off and reached for his shirt and pulled it off, but when I reached for his belt he stopped me. ‘’This is all about you feeling good’’ he whispered and hovered over me. I lied back on the couch, feeling his hardness against me, and closed my eyes. He began placing kisses on my neck, traveling down to my collarbones, then to my breasts. I could feel his tongue lick its way down further and further and when he reached my jeans he shot me a glance, reassuring I was okay with what was going on. I nodded and he opened my jeans before sliding them down. He slid one finger up and down once against my knickers and I took a quick breath, which made him stop. ‘’Is it okay?’’ he asked and I gave him a quick nod. This was everything I wanted.

He pulled down my knickers and before I knew it I felt his fingers between my lips. ‘’So wet’’ he mumbled, in normal circumstances I would be embarrassed, but his touch made me block out everything. I could feel his breath against me and then I felt his tongue. I let out a loud moan when his tongue touch my clit and my hands instantly grabbed his hair. He licked me up and down and soon my hips were moving while my hands pressed down his head. When he took my clit between his teeth for a second before sucking it I exploded. I had no longer control over my moans or my body. I was lying there for a moment trying to get control over my breath again while Harry was undressing. I reached for my purse on the floor and found a condom in my wallet, I threw it to Harry and he looked surprised ''are you sure?'' he asked ''yes'' I answered him.

He rolled on top of me, holding himself up by one knee, and grabbed his penis with one hand. He looked me straight in the eye ‘’are you sure you wanna do this? You can change your mind, it’s okay’’ he said ‘’I’m sure. I want to’’ I whispered and I could see a hint of relief in his eyes. He wanted this as much as I did. He placed his tip by my entrance, I could hear my heart beat fast. ‘’Be careful’’ I whispered just before he pressed himself in a few centimeters. I closed my eyes and let out a whimper making him stop, ‘’I’m fine, keep going’’ I forced myself to open my eyes to look at him. He looked sad because he was causing me pain. He pressed himself in a few centimeters more, he was probably halfway in now and it hurt. Like really hurt. He thrusted in all the way in and I was flinching the whole time. ‘’I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Emma’’ he said and stroke away tears from my cheeks, I didn’t even realize I was crying.

I took a deep breath ‘’I’m fine’’ I whispered but he just shook his head, ‘’you’re not, shit we shouldn’t have done this’’ he tried to pull out but I stopped him. I placed my hands on his cheeks looking straight in to his green eyes, ‘’Harry, it did hurt. But not anymore, you can keep going. I’m okay’’ I said truthfully. It did hurt, like shit. But when he was inside at last I guess I got used to his size. He nodded, ‘’okay I’m gonna move, slowly’’ I gave him a quick nod. He started moving out and I’m not gonna lie, it hurt, but I was able to keep a straight face. He almost pulled all the way out before pressing himself inside again. He repeated that action a couple of times and when I no longer felt pain, but pleasure, I started moving my hips along with his thrusts.

‘’Faster’’ I whispered and reached for his lips. He began to move faster as our tongues were wrestling and I moaned in to his mouth. It didn’t take long before I felt that tingling feeling in my stomach and I released, and when I did Harry did too. He was still on top of me panting and when his breathing slowed down he rolled off of me. I saw him take off the condom and putting it in a trashcan before laying behind me just cuddling me. I turned around to look at him, stroking away a few curls, just gazing in to his beautiful eyes. I really loved this kid. ‘’I can’t believe I just had sex on a couch’’ I said and the two of us bursted in to laughs.

Notes

Oh my god, they had sex!!!

How do you guys feel about Emma deciding to take him back?

Next chapter something I think everyone has been waiting for is happening ;)

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