After my blood turns in to alcohol

Emma's p.o.v

After about half an hour later the doorbell rang and I followed Harry as he went to open the door. As soon as the door flung open Louis stepped inside and gave me a bone crushing hug ‘’can you never leave like that again? I was so scared’’ he mumbled ‘’thanks Haz, I really appreciate you taking care of her’’ ‘’oh it was nothing, she’s a delight’’ Harry said and let out a chuckle. I waved goodbye to Harry as Lou and I walked out to the car. ‘’I can’t believe you drove here, Lou. You could get arrested for not having an adult in the car’’ I said as he started to drive ‘’I needed to pick up my baby sister’’ he shrugged. Always breaking the rules for me this one.

A thing about Louis and I was that through our lives whenever one of us was upset we always slept in each other's rooms. Some sort of comfort thing I guess. I swear we should have been born as twins. So naturally I knocked on Louis’ door at 1am. ‘’Are you sleeping?’’ I peeked in my head ‘’no, I figured you would come’’ I walked over to his bed and jumped in beside him with my little stuffed teddy bear that I always slept with. We were laying quiet for a while and I almost thought he had fallen asleep when he started to talk ‘’tell me what you’re feeling, like everything. I wanna help you, cause I can see that you’re not well’’ ‘’you’re not well either, Lou. Why don’t we talk about your feelings?’’ if he could see my smile through the darkness in this room he would have punched my arm. ‘’I don’t do feelings’’ he chuckled.

‘’Okay if I tell you everything, will you tell me everything too?’’ I offered ‘’deal’’. ‘’I feel betrayed. From mum, dad and sometimes even you. I don’t get how dad was the best dad in the whole world one day and the next day he’s a shitty person who only cares about himself. I’m disappointed in mum for burying herself in work to ease her pain, while she leaves us alone feeling like shit. And you Lou, you’re shutting me out. This is the first honest conversation we have had since they got divorced. I heard you every fucking night, I was crying with you outside your door. Every fucking night, Louis. I heard you cry yourself to sleep while I was sitting by your door. And the next morning you pretended everything was fine. We used to talk about everything, then dad just fucks up this whole family. I take my anger out on mum and you and I became strangers. I get that you’re hurting, but I am too. And I need my big brother for this. I can’t go through it alone’’ he was quiet for a moment, like he was processing what I had said.

‘’I shut you out because I felt like it was my fault. If I hadn’t acted up against mum and dad that time, if I hadn’t been caught drinking, if I did better in school. All those ‘if’s’ were eating me alive. I went through the nights thinking of all the bad stuff I had done in my life, thinking that dad might have stayed if I were a better son. If I were better maybe he wouldn’t have thought our family was so bad after all. I felt like such a fuck up. But I know now that none of what dad did to us was my fault. It wasn’t yours or mums fault either. He made a choice leaving our family, and I will never forgive him for that’’ I was speechless. I could never have imagined he felt that way. ‘’I’m sorry, Lou’’ I whispered ‘’no I’m sorry. I should have been there for you, like you were there for me outside my door’’ ‘’we needed each other, we should have been there for each other’’ ‘’but there’s nothing stopping us from being there for each other now, right?’’ I could hear him smiling from his voice ‘’right’’ I confirmed.

The next day

It was only second period but I was already ready for this school day to be over. I opened my locker to grab my books for math, which was my next class, when someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around to see Harry, ‘’hi’’ he smiled. ‘’Hey’’ ‘’so you forgot your clothes at my house, my mum washed them’’ he handed me a plastic bag ‘’oh thank you so much. I actually forgot the clothes I borrowed from you at home but can I bring them tomorrow?’’ I asked, ‘’sure, I’m late for class, see you later’’ and with that he walked away.

When it was lunch I found Katie and headed for the cafeteria. ‘’Is it just me or are people looking at us?’’ Katie said as we sat down by an empty table, I looked around and people were definitely looking at us. ‘’They are looking at us’’ I said and looked down on my food. ‘’Hang on I’m gonna check what’s going on’’ she said and walked over to another table. When she came back she just looked at me as she sat down ‘’since when are you hanging out with Harry Styles?’’ her tone was harsh ‘’uhm...he’s friends with my brother. Why what’s going on?’’ ‘’someone heard you guys talking this morning and saw him give back clothes you had forgot at his house. Emma, did you sleep with him?’’ my eyes widened ‘’no, are people saying that?’’ she nodded. ‘’I know you’re new to this school and all so you probably don’t know this. Harry Styles is a player, he plays girls. He basically pumps then dumps’’ she said ‘’pumps and dumps?’’ ‘’sleeps with them and then dumps them like they’re nothing’’ ‘’oh’’. She nodded ‘’don’t get yourself involved with that guy’’ ‘’wait so the whole school thinks I slept with him?’’ I asked in shock and she nodded again. ‘’So I’m basically the new girl slut?’’ I said angrily but she didn’t answer. I stood up quickly and walked over to the table where Louis and his friends were sitting, including Harry.

‘’Oi baby Tommo’’ Niall cheered, ‘’What's wrong?’’ Louis asked as he saw the look of my face, ‘’do you know that the whole school thinks we slept together because you gave me back my clothes this morning?’’ I spoke calm but I was anything but calm ‘’uh..’’ Harry said ‘’like thanks a lot, I’m the school slut now’’ ‘’wait did you two sleep together?’’ Louis spoke up, ready to kill a bitch. ‘’No’’ Harry and I said at the same time. ‘’But apparently your friend here has quite the rumour and now he got me involved in that’’ I was so rude but I didn’t care, ‘’I’m sorry’’ Harry began ‘’you know what? Save it. It was nice of you to help me and all the other day but you’re friends with my brother, so don’t talk to me again because I don’t want to be associated with you’’ there was so much disgust in my tone and I didn’t know where the anger came from. Probably from the whole school thinking I’m a slut though. Great, I’ve been here, what, a week? And I’m not only known as the new girl, but also a slut.


Louis’ p.o.v

‘’So are you gonna tell me today, Haz?’’ Harry and I had gone to my house after school, he wanted to explain himself. Now we were sitting here in my room but he wasn’t talking. ‘’Sorry’’ he let out a sigh ‘’they are right I guess, I’m the guy who sleeps with girls and then just dumps them. But it’s not my intention, it really isn’t. Usually it starts with me hanging out with a girl and she gets feelings for me, and I can’t do feelings. I know it sounds weird but I don’t know how to..love...or something. So when a girl comes too close I just shut off. But as I told you with Emma, I just happened to drive by. I would never do anything to her, and I didn’t either. You could ask my mum if you don’t believe me, she was there’’ ‘’Haz’’ I stopped him ‘’I believe you. Thanks for telling me though’’ I smiled. ‘’Sorry my sister hates you, she’ll get over it. You wanna play some fifa?’’ I chuckled ‘’yeah’’.

Notes

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