Louis' p.o.v

''We've been One Direction, thank you'' Liam finished off our set the fourth night at the 02 Arena in London. ''Great job, lads'' Max, one of the members of The Wanted said and gave us all high fives. ''Thanks Max'' Niall said with a grin ''do you guys wanna join us after the show? We're going to this club called the Funky Buddha'' Max asked ''Harry is the only one who's 18 actually'' Liam said ''oh that won't be a problem, you're with us. Gotta go on stage but see you later'' he waved before going on stage with the rest of his band members. ''We're going clubbing? With The Wanted'' Niall squealed making us all laugh. The love this kid has for his boybands. ''We need to check with Cass first'' Liam said, always the responsible one. Cass was kind of like our tour mum. Cassidy Evans. 21, funny, super cool and bloody hot. Only thing is she's the kind of girl you'd never had a chance with, might also be because well she's three years older than us and she's in charge of us. Her only job is to look after us. Not an easy job looking after four boys who loved trouble. ''Lads, Cass would never let us go out, well maybe you Harry since you're 18 but not the rest of us'' I said and everyone's moods just dropped ''that's why we sneak out, duh'' I smirked. I had a brilliant plan. After all those years sneaking out back in Doncaster I had learn a thing or two about sneaking out. We'd get in and out the hotel without Cass noticing.

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Harry's p.o.v

''Was that Emma?'' Niall asked when we were in a car on our way back to the hotel ''yeah'' I mumbled. The party mood I was in just a few minutes ago was just gone. ''I think I'm just gonna go to bed'' ''no, nope. Not letting you do that, mate. We're going to the club, we're gonna get drunk and have fun'' Niall said putting his arm around my shoulder. ''I don't know what went down with you and Emma but I know you would just be depressed at the hotel if you stay. So I say you come with us and have fun instead, and if you don't have fun, at least there's alcohol'' he said and I let out a laugh. He was right.
''Okay boys, I want you to go to bed early tonight. You have your first interview tomorrow at 8am sharp, you better be awake when I'm coming to get you'' Cass said as we got out of the car. She followed us up to the hotelroom we all shared, it was her job after all. ''So what are you doing tonight, Cass? Fancy pizza and playing Fifa with your favorite lads?'' Louis asked. Was this part of his master plan? If she says yes he has failed miserably. ''You wish'' Cass snorted, ''I, am going to take a very well deserved bubble bath and not think about how you lot will make my hair grey before I turn 25'' she said making us all laugh. ''Okay bye now, boys'' she said before closing the door to our hotel room behind her. ''Nice going, Lou'' Niall said and gave Louis a fist bump.

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Louis' p.o.v

Coming in to the club was the easiest thing when we rolled with The Wanted. We got seated at a VIP area with free alcohol and girls coming and going. This was a whole new environment for the four of us. I mean we were basically kids thrown in to this world. All though I would lie if I didn't love every second of it. It didn't take long until Liam started snogging some girl and Niall was dancing very intimate with another girl, someone remind that kid he has a girlfriend. ''Shots, Haz?'' I said to Harry who didn't seem to want to be here. He nodded and we took a couple of shots before joining Niall on the dance floor. I could dance with girls but I had one at home worth waiting for. The music was loud, we were crazy. Crazy teenagers with too much alcohol in our blood.


I popped my eyes open but instantly closed them again. The light in the room made my head feel like it was going to explode. I sat up and noticed I was in the hotel rooms fucking Jacuzzi. How did I even end up here? I made my way out of the bathroom only to find the other boys lying in their own beds sleeping. I turned with a frown to the door when someone started pounding on it. ''Fucking hell what is that?'' Niall said sitting up on his bed, ''what? Shut up'' Harry groaned putting a pillow over his head. I went over to the door and opened for a furious looking Cass. She pushed pass me and walked inside ''all of you, get up now. Get up and sit down on the couch'' she yelled and I've never seen her so mad. She couldn't know we snuck out, could she?
We dragged our hungover asses to the couch and waited for what was about to come. ''I'm just going to say this, if you idiots wants to sneak out - DON'T END UP AT THE FRONT PAGE AT SUGARSCAPE'' she showed us her phone and damn right we were at the front page. ''I look good in that picture'' I said, ''hmm yeah, I however look drunk as hell'' Niall said and all of us bursted in to laughs, well not Cass though. ''No I'm serious you guys, my job is to look after you. It's only one of you who are eighteen and I can't accept that you're out drinking. So no more club nights, that is not a request it's an order. Understood?'' we all agreed, but we all knew that wasn't going to be our last club night. ''Good now you've got ten minutes before your interview. chop chop'' Cass said clapping her hands and leaving.

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''That was quite a welcome out there'' the radio host greeted us ''yeah, never seen anything like it'' Niall said, we were all quite in shock. Almost 30 girls were standing outside screaming our names and asking for autographs and it was all pretty surreal. ''Okay we are live in three two...hi you're back at BBC Radio 1 with me, Nick Grimshaw. I'm here with the lovely One Directioooon'' he said in his trained radio voice ''hi'' we all said at the same time. ''For the listeners that doesn't know who One Direction is, they started doing covers on youtube and ended up being the opening act for The Wanted. But let's get back to the start, Louis, what gave you all the idea of starting the youtube channel?''
''I think we were just at my house one day and I started playing the piano and then we all just kind of started singing together. So we created our channel and Liam uploaded like two videos a week''
''yeah, we also created another channel, a more personal one so the subscribers could get to know us better'' Liam filled in.
''Oh yeah, I saw that video with your sister, Louis. Hilarious. What was her name Em?'' Nick said.
''Emma'' I smiled, even though I kind of wanted to cry because I missed her so much.
''Ah, lovely girl'' Nick said with a smile. The interview kept going while I drifted off.

I knew from the beginning I would miss my family, I knew what kind of choice I made. I just didn't know I'd miss them this much, especially Emma. And that makes me worried that she misses me that much too. We were sat in the car back to the hotel to eat lunch when I got this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I just wanted to go home. ''You okay, mate?'' Harry asked while I desperately tried to blink away the tears in my eyes. I quiet whimper left my lips and put my hands up to cover my face as the tears started to fall. I cursed myself so bad for not being able to hold my tears in. ''Lou what's wrong?'' I heard Niall say as I tried to cry as silent as I could. I felt Liam put his arm around me because I guess he knew why I was sad. We had talked about home the other day and I had told him I missed my family. And it really hadn't bothered me this much until the interviewer talked about Em. ''Boys what's going on?'' Cass asked from the front seat of the car. Please Liam don't say I'm home sick in front of everyone. ''We don't know'' Liam answered, remind me to thank him later. The car stopped at the hotel and Cass told everyone to get out so she could speak to me alone.

She sat down beside me and took my hands away from my face. I refused to look her in the eye. It was so embarrassing I broke down in front of everyone. By everyone I mean the boys and Cass. Yes, I know how silly that sounds. ''How you doing, Champ?'' I gave her a quick look and saw a smile on her face as she gave me a tissue. I started wiping my eyes from the many tears that had fallen. ''Did something happen with the boys?'' she asked and I shook my head. ''Do you want to tell me what it is? Maybe I can help you'' her voice was soft. ''It's stupid'' I said with a sniffle. ''So? I'll listen even if it's stupid'' I heard the smile in her voice, ''I just..I miss home, my parents, my sister and...when the interviewer mentioned Emma I just..I don't know I just miss them so much'' the tears that finally had stopped escaped once again and I angrily wiped them away. ''That is the most normal thing I've heard today, Louis. It's okay to miss home. You're kids and I'm sure you've never been away from your parents and sister this long?'' I shook my head, ''you're all out of your comfort zones here. It's a new environment and new faces everyday it might feel like everyone's a stranger. That's why it's so good that you boys have each other. Depend more on them, they will be there. I promise. And remember, feelings doesn't make you weak, it makes you human'' she gave me a pat on my shoulder and I took in everything she had just said. ''Now I suggest you call up your family members, have a little chat with them and then I can join you guys playing Fifa. I will beat your ass, just warning you'' she winked and I let out a laugh. I dialed Em's number and she answered almost directly. ''Hey'' I smiled at hearing her voice, ''what's wrong?'' she asked, she must have heard it on my voice. ''I'm just having a bad day. How are you? Are you in school right now?'' ''I'm gonna go'' Cass mouthed ''thank you'' I mouthed back as Emma had a monologue about a science project in school.


Harry's p.o.v

When Louis walked in the hotel room about an hour later we all jumped on him with hugs making him laugh. ''I just wanted to say something. I feel like we're all brother's, so from now on - whatever it is we'll be there for each other and support no matter what. Okay?'' Niall said and I was a little stunned, he usually was't the smart one who'd say something like that. ''Of course'' I said and they all agreed.

We had been playing Fifa for awhile with Cass who surprisingly was really good, all though I have learned not to underestimate girls. Since Emma.. I jumped at the sound of my phone ringing. 'Emma calling' it said. ''Hi'' I answered ''hey, are you with the boys?'' she asked and I could hear something was going on. ''Yeah, why?'' I asked ''can you go to another room?'' ''yeah, wait a minute'' I said and walked out to the hallway of the hotel. ''What's going on?'' I asked, ''I don't know how to say this so I'm just gonna say it. I can't wait forever, Harry. What you're doing is not fair, for me. I need to move on and live my life, I mean...you are doing that. Hundreds of girls everyday and...'' ''I only want you'' I cut her off. ''Doesn't matter, Harry''.

''I said it'' I whispered.

''What?''

''I told you from the start. I'm only gonna break your heart''

''Yeah, guess you did'' she whispered and I sunk down on the floor.

''Don't be angry with yourself though. This is my fault as much as it's yours. I shouldn't have expected too much from someone who barely knows himself. We're kids, Harry. We're too young. I'm too young to be this caught up with someone''

''I knew from the beginning I wouldn't be able to keep you. But I tried anyway. Is this because I don't know if I love you yet?'' I asked feeling the numbness and emptiness fill my body.

''Harry. I know you don't love me. And that's okay. You know how I know? I n the beginning you told me that you take pictures of what you loved. Yet you've never taken a picture of me. But that's okay'' I noticed she tried her hardest keeping her voice steady. And I took advantage of that.

''Please don't leave me'' I whispered.

''Goodbye, Harry''

I walked back inside, grabbing my camera and looked through all the pictures I've taken of Emma the past year.

Notes

Correction: In the last chapter I wrote that Harry is 17, he's 18 in the story now, my bad. The site won't allow me to edit that chapter though so that's why I'm writing it here. Sorry for the error :)
I hope you like this chapter!

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