After my blood turns in to alcohol

Harry's p.o.v

The next morning, or should I say afternoon, I woke up at 2pm. Hungover as hell. I put on sweats and a plain t-shirt before walking downstairs to what looked like a bomb had exploded. Niall, Katie, Louis and Liam were sitting around the kitchen table looking dead. ‘’Well you all look like shit’’ I muttered and sat down rubbing my temples. ‘’What the fuck happened last night?’’ Louis groaned and hid his face in his hands, ‘’I could ask the same’’ Niall said with a raspy voice. ‘’Could ask what?’’ I turned around to see Emma walking in the kitchen, her hair was messy and she still had on the makeup from the night before. She was wearing some sort of yoga pants and a crop top. She looked beautiful. How can she look good after the night she had? ‘’Ask what happened last night’’ Liam filled her in and she nodded. She looked at me for a second and when I smiled she turned away. That’s when I remembered, we kissed last night. Again. But we almost took it too far. I stopped it but.. ‘’oh my god you need to see this picture Luke posted last night on twitter’’ Liam yelled and we all went to look at his phone. It was two pictures, one of passed out Emma on the bathroom floor and the other one was of Louis, also passed out on another bathroom floor. The text said ‘The Tommo’s knows how to go hard or go home’. ‘’Oh god’’ Emma facepalmed herself and sat down again. ‘’Guess that pretty much sums up my night’’ Louis said making Niall and Liam laugh. ‘’I now have no idea how I ended up in my bed, looked like I was really gone there’’ Emma said, I wonder if I should say I carried her to her bed. ‘’Someone must have carried you to your bed or something. Harry? You share bathroom did you get her in bed, if you know what I mean’’ Niall smirked and everyone laughed except for me, Lou and Emma. ‘’Don’t think so, I was very drunk’’ I said and stood up ‘’so, pizza anyone?’’ I asked and dialed the number on my phone to Niall’s cheers.

There was a knock on the door and everyone looked surprised, ''is pizza already here?'' Liam said confused. I went to open the door to see Luke, Michael, Calum and Ashton walking in. ''Best party ever woooh'' Calum yelled and walked passed me in to the kitchen. ''Hey can I talk to you'' I said stopping Luke in the doorway. ''Sure'' we stepped outside ad closed the door behind us. ''So I saw you with Emma last night...do you like her?'' I asked, not really sure why it bothered me so damn much. Luke let out a chuckle at my question, ''does it matter? Your're the one she's in love with'' I felt my heart skip a beat ''w-what do you mean? She told you that?'' ''you my friend, was all she was talking about. Don't hurt her, she's a nice girl'' he gave me a smile and a pat on the shoulder before walking in the house. Leaving me more confused than ever. She loves me? That scares the fuck out of me. I don't...I...I don't even know what love is.


Emma’s p.o.v

‘’Sorry I didn’t know you were gonna be in here’’ I said as I opened the bathroom door, Harry was standing shirtless brushing his teeth. ‘’Actually can we talk?’’ he said and put his toothbrush down before cleansing his mouth. ‘’Guess so’’ I shrugged, he nodded towards his room so I followed him in there. I sat down on a chair while he sat down on the bed. ‘’I’m not gonna say I don’t remember what happened yesterday because I do. We kissed and things...was going too far. I don’t get it though, are you mad at me for stopping it or..?’’ he blurted out and I just stared at him before letting out a sigh. ‘’Yes-no’’ I began ‘’I was mad at you yesterday. It felt like….it was humiliating okay. But I was drunk and now I’m not. I get why you did it’’ I didn’t look at him I was more concentrated on my nails. ‘’But I don’t get it do you have feelings for me or why do we keep kissing? It’s confusing me’’ why did I just say that, if I could take it back I so would. He opened his mouth but I cut him off ‘’don’t answer that. It was a stupid question. We’re friends and we’re gonna continue on being that’’ I forced a smile ‘’right’’ he said and smiled back at me, but we looked at each other a little too long to be 'just friends'.

By the time we were leaving for home nothing felt normal between Harry and I. He was acting weird and it had me on edge. I was quite a confused mess. “What's up?” Louis asked when I came in to his and Liam's bedroom, they were both packing. I just shook my head at him and gave him a hug. He hugged me back tightly but I could tell he was confused, I was normally not the hug person. “I just really needed a hug” I mumbled in to his chest “are you alright?” I nodded but felt tears fall from my eyes and I quietly cried in to his chest as he rubbed my back hushing me. Truth is I felt something when I kissed Harry, both times. I don’t know what to do about it. I'm so in love with that kid and it really scares me. “Did something happen?” He asked and I pulled back from him shaking my head. ''No, I'm just..I don't know” I forced a laugh ''can you sit with me in the car?'' I asked ''of course, silly'' he said and pulled me in for another hug.

Liam and Harry sat in the front of the car and I could tell Harry was confused of why I didn't want to sit next to him. But it was him who was being weird, not me. Niall and Katie jumped in behind me and Lou. I leaned on Louis' shoulder and felt myself drift off. I was too tired from crying earlier. When I woke up I accidentally met Harry's eyes in the rear view mirror, he was now driving. ''Oh good you're up, here you should take this before it's too late'' Katie said and handed me a pill. If I wasn't so sleepy I would have reacted sooner. ''What's that for?'' Louis asked and took the pill from me to study it. ''It's the day after pill, don't think I didn't see you with Luke honey'' Katie said and the next seconds were intense. ''YOU HAD SEX WITH LUKE?'' Louis yelled ''that's why you were...oh my fucking god'' ''no'' I got out suddenly terrified. What the fuck Katie. ''You had sex with Luke?'' Liam had turned to look at me and suddenly I couldn't breathe. I need to get out of this car. Right now. ''Stop the car'' I said ad felt my breathing getting heavier ''no, we're on the freeway I can't..'' ''STOP THE CAR HARRY I SWEAR TO GOD'' I screamed and he slammed the brakes. I climbed over Louis and opened the car door before almost falling out of the car and on to a field. And then I ran until I collapsed in tears. Why was I so emotional today? Why is Katie the biggest bitch? And how the fuck did I fall so deeply in love with Harry that I can't even look at him?

''Louis what's going on with her?'' I heard Harry say in far off distance but I looked to see both him and Louis standing in front of me. ''She's having a panic attack'' Louis said. Someone was breathing really loud and really fast. It took me a moment to realize it was me. ''Okay Emma, I need you to breathe with me okay?'' Louis said and I nodded. ''Slowly okay inhale with me come on'' we both inhaled slowly ''and exhale'' we exhaled. We did that a couple of times and when it didn't help I started to freak out. ''No no, keep breathing with me. You're good, you can get through this come on. I know it's scary but keep going'' after a while my breathing slowed down. ''Told you that you would get through it, proud of you'' Louis said and I was again noticing my surroundings. ''C'mere, give me a cuddle'' Louis said and lifted me off the ground and I let him embrace me. I was exhausted. ''Is she okay?'' I let go of Louis and looked at Harry who had tears in his eyes. ''I'm fine, why are you crying?'' I asked with a frown ''I got a little scared, I'm sorry'' he said and quickly wiped away a tear that escaped from his eye. Without saying a word both me and Lou walked over to hug Harry. Even though I have had a panic attack before it still scared both Louis and me but Harry had never seen that before. It's understandable he got scared.


Harry sat down beside me in the middle of the car when I sat down next to Louis. Niall and Liam were in the front and by herself Katie sat back in the car. Everyone was kind of annoyed with her. She better never speak to me again.
I was both tired and hungover so I soon fell asleep. When I woke up I noticed I had been sleeping on Harry, again. But this time he was also asleep, his head were leaning on my head. It was quite cozy.

‘’Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck’’ Liam yelled making me jump, which lead to Harry waking up. ‘’What’s going on?’’ Harry asked just as Liam slammed the brakes and everyone flew forward. Thank god we were wearing seatbelts. Almost like a reflex Harry’s hand was in front of me, stopping me from diving head first in the seat in front of me. ‘’Are you okay?’’ he asked and I nodded. Liam stepped out the car and I saw that something from the engine was smoking. I don’t know a lot about cars, frankly I don’t know anything, but that didn’t look good. We were stopped by the side of the road and Harry, Niall, Katie and I were just waiting inside the car for Liam and Louis who were now outside checking what was wrong. Liam opened the door and looked back on us ‘’we’ll have to call a tow truck, I can’t fix this’’ he said. ''How are we getting home if the car needs to be fixed?'' Harry said with a sigh. ''I'll call my dad, maybe he can pick us up'' Louis said and grabbed his phone.

''So no one can pick us up but he booked us some hotel rooms in Birmingham, we'll take a cab and pick up the car tomorrow'' Louis said after he had hung up the phone. ''Don't you mean motels? Dad's seriously paying for all of us?'' I said in disbelief, our dad had never been the most generous person. ''He's only trying to score points for the court hearing'' Louis shrugged.

Since dad had booked the hotel rooms he had put me in a room with Katie. Nobody had the energy to argue so we all just disappeared in to our rooms. I laid down on the bed next to the window desperate for some sleep. ''Sorry about before, I didn't know you would react like that'' just hearing Katie's voice made me annoyed. I quickly stood up and left her in the room. I can not sleep in there. I walked around in the pretty empty hotel and followed a sign that said 'pool'. I didn't have a bathing suit with me but I figured I could just sit in there for a while.

I opened a door and came in to a large room with a pool in the middle and a curly haired boy sitting with his feet in the water. He must have heard the door because he turned and gave me a quick smile. I walked over to him, took off my socks and sat down next to him. ''How are you feeling?'' he asked ''I'm better, I didn't mean to scare you before. It hasn't happened in such a long time I scared myself too'' ''Louis handled it so well. I just stood there, frozen. I couldn't move'' he whispered and I could tell he felt guilty. ''It's okay'' without thinking I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. He turned his head towards me and without hesitation he put his soft lips on mine. He let go too soon and I couldn't help to feel disappointed. ''What was that for?'' I whispered ''I'm just trying to figure out...this. Can we be honest with each other for a minute?'' he asked. I took a deep breath and nodded turning my head away from him. ''Do you like me?'' he whispered, I swallowed before nodding my head slowly.

I didn't dare to look at him but when he didn't spoke for a few minutes I had to say something. ''Do you like me?'' I held my breath waiting for his answer. ''Since we're being honest I guess I'll have to tell you the truth. I don't know how to...I don't do feelings'' he said and my heart just sank. ''That came out wrong'' he sighed, ''I don't have the same feelings as you because I don't know how. Fuck, this is so hard. I feel something for you but I don't know what that is. The thing is when I'm with you I don't want to be with anyone else, I only want this'' he pointed at us ''with you. But I can't'' I fought so hard to hold my tears inside and it was like my chest was about to burst. ''I can't because I'll break your heart'' he whispered and my tears fell. ''You won't'' I sniffled and cursed myself for crying in front of him. ''You see? We're not even together and I make you cry. I don't know how to do this, I'm gonna ruin you'' I let out a laugh, ''Don't you get it? You're the one who keeps me from falling apart. Just sitting here with you right now keeps me from exploding in thousands of emotions'' I moved closer to him and like a reflex he put his arm around me making me lean on his chest. ''I just...I need you'' I whispered as he carefully stroking my arm.

Notes

I hope you don't think Harry's being mean or something. Of course he's in love with her, it's just some things that has happened in the past for him. Like Emma he has a past.


I hope you liked it, if you did you know what to do!! Thanks to everyone that has been commenting by the way, you really make me happy and inspire me to write :) And as I've said before, english isn't my first language so I hope you bare with me if I make errors :)

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