After my blood turns in to alcohol

Louis' p.o.v

''How are you doing?'' Liam asked. I had been inside for a week and the boys had been taking turns bringing my homework, today was Liam's turn. ''Good'' I said without looking at him. ''I can see that something's bothering you. You have barely talked to us in a week and you haven't even left your house'' he sat down next to me on my bed. ''Honestly I don't know what's going on with me'' I finally said. ''I just don't feel like going out or seeing someone'' ''you can't just stay inside until you can go back to school, Lou'' ''I can'' I shrugged. ''I'm not gonna let you, the lads won't either. We're going out tonight, Tommo. You need a lads night out'' Liam stood up but I just shook my head. ''I'm gonna go to bed'' ''the hell you're not, I'm going downstairs to call Niall and Harry. See you downstairs in five'' he left the room leaving me annoyed. Couldn't they just accept I didn't want to go out?
''Hi Liam'' I heard Em's voice from the hallway.
''Hey Baby Tommo''
''What's up?''
''We're taking Lou out, don't know what's going on with him but he needs to get out of the house''
''That's good, I'm quite worried about him''
''Yeah, me too''
They didn't have to be worried about me, I was just not in the mood at the moment. Nothing to be worried about. I decided to get dressed and join them after all.

I walked down to the kitchen where all the boys and my sister were joking and laughing. ''Are we ready to go?'' I asked and they turned to me with smiles. ''I didn't actually think you would..'' Niall began ''shut up, Niall'' Liam cut him off. ''Yes, we are ready to go'' Harry quickly said. ''Have fun tonight'' Em smiled and grabbed a soda from the fridge. ''Do you wanna come?'' I asked her hoping she would say no. I know, I'm such a nice brother. ''No, I have plans. Thanks anyway'' ''okay, don't do anything stupid'' I said with a smile and she rolled her eyes at me.

We ended up at a house party in some rich neighborhood. Big flashy house, loads of alcohol and at least one hundred people. ''This is the biggest party I've been on'' I told Harry trying to speak up since the music was so loud, he nodded ''come on, we'll get something to drink''.

Harry's p.o.v

''What the hell are you doing Harry? Are you trying to break my window?'' Emma stuck her head out the window. ''I need some help'' I said pointing towards Louis where ha was lying on the sidewalk. He refused to stand up. ''Oh my god'' she said before closing her window. For a moment I thought she went back to bed but soon the front door was opened and she stepped out. Only wearing very short shorts and a top. My eyes were focused on her body but I shook my head trying not to think about her body. ''What happened?'' she asked as we walked over to Louis. ''All of us were drinking but I have no idea how he got this drunk'' I said and together we lifted him up. ''Come on Lou, you need to try and stand. We can't carry you'' I said by he just groaned, ''Louis. mum is home if you don't want to wake her you need to help us a bit'' Emma said and Louis took a little step on the sidewalk before falling again. He really can't take care of himself right now.

We got him inside the house and he was completely gone and we were basically carrying him up the stairs. We put him in bed and I started to take off his shoes as Emma got some water for him and a bucket in case he would vomit. I put the covers on Lou and waited for Emma to come back. ''Guess there will be no sleep for me tonight'' she sighed and put down the bucked and the glass of water. ''Why?'' I asked, ''one time when he was drunk he started vomiting in his sleep, I was just passing by his room. Came running in and flipping him to his side, ever since I sit in his room when he comes home too drunk'' she said and sat down on the floor. ''I'll stay and keep you company then'' I said and she gave me a shy smile. She was pretty, no beautiful. But I wasn't allowed to think that. She's my best friend's little sister. ''What are you thinking about?'' she asked and I quickly answered with a lie ''just how it was before you and Lou moved here, I think everyone got happier when you move here'' I said and she just smiled at me.

''I'm glad we moved too. Life in Donny was...not good''
''How come?''
''It's a long story''
''I have time''
''I had a rough time. In school, at home, with myself. I didn't have many friends, the ones I had didn't care about me. My parents were fighting all the time and I started to get conscious over my looks and boys. Just normal teen stuff. My problem was I didn't feel like I was good enough and I...took it out on myself''
''You hurt yourself?'' I breathed.

''I cut myself once, but then I just burned myself on cigarettes or pinched myself until I got bruises. I don't know why I did it, I guess it was a way for me to control the pain. I couldn't control the pain I felt about everything else but then suddenly there was something I could control. I controlled when I felt the pain and when I didn't. It helped, for a while but I soon realized I couldn't do that to myself. Louis found out too, that's why he's so over protective of me. He's scared someone or something's gonna fuck me up again and I'm going to start hurting myself again''

''I'm happy you realized you should stop'' I said, unsure if it was the right thing to say. But I couldn't figure out something else to say.
''In school people started noticing I wasn't being myself anymore and instead of asking why they distanced themselves from me. I once heard someone talk about me, they said I was 'sweet but fucked up'. I had a mental breakdown that night''

''Did your parents know?'' I asked. She nodded.

''They tried to fix me, glue me back together. What they didn't realize was that all I needed was someone to hold me from not falling apart even more. I was so scared because I didn't know what was wrong with me''

''I'm sorry. How did you get through it?''

''It's like...one day it just get's better. There's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up one morning and you're not sad anymore''

''I'm sorry you had to go through it though'' I said.

''Yeah, but it made me who I am today'' she gave me a weak smile.

''I like who you are today''

''Thanks. You know it's a weird thing when you get so comfortable with someone and you realize you're telling them things you've never said before''

''Makes me happy that you trust me'' I smiled and met her eyes.

''I have no reason not to'' she smiled back at me.


I woke up by a sound I couldn't identify. I noticed I was still in Louis' room, lying on the floor with Harry beside me. I sat up and looked over at Louis and I my heart skipped a beat. He was lying on his back making noises and suddenly he spat up vomit. I rushed up and switched him to his side. ''Harry'' I said, not too loud so my mum wouldn't wake up. He sat up confused but stood up when he saw what was going on. he helped me clean up the vomit when Louis was done and we put him back to bed. ''This is what I'm scared of, if I'm not here and this happens he'll choke on his vomit and die'' I whispered. ''You need to tell him that, he needs to know so he'll think about how much he drinks. Does it happen often?'' I asked, she shook her head ''no, it has happened probably three times. I'll talk to him about it'' she said and made a face. ''You okay?'' I asked, ''yeah it's just my back hurts from lying on the floor'' ''you can go to bed if you want to'' I offered but she shook her head with a smile. ''Wait'' she said and disappeared from the room. She came back with a mattress, two pillows and the covers from her room. She put a pillow on each end on the mattress, ''night, Harry'' she said and lied down. ''I'll sleep on the floor'' I said, feeling kind of weird sleeping beside her. ''Don't be silly'' she said and patted the mattress for me to lie down. I lied down on my corner and the second I put my head on that pillow I fell asleep.

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