Little Things

I woke up with a smile on my face. Today was the day of mine and my boyfriends 1 month anniversary. To be honest, it's been the longest relationship I've had since I was living in America. Oh yeah, my dad and Danielle have moved. They decided to go back to America, and now that I have a job, I could pay to stay here. Louis' parents also moved out, so he took over with paying the bills and things. It's been amazing though. Louis and I have been best friends since I moved here 8 years ago, as you all know. If you're wondering, which you probably are, Louis is not my boyfriend. Nor has he ever been. And knowing that he probably doesn't feel that way about me, he never will be. I'm okay with it though. Just having Louis in my life makes me happy.

Back to my boyfriend though. His name is Justin, and we've been dating for a month as I said. He's coming over to meet Louis today; Louis is happy for me, and ready to meet him, but I'm not too sure about Justin. When I told him Louis was my best friend, he was a little uneasy about it. Like, he didn't feel comfortable with me having a guy friend. Little does Justin know, I've also got 4 other best friends. They're Louis' band members, Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, and Zayn Malik. Zayn left the band about a year ago, and now that 1D (One Direction) is taking a break, Louis has decided to spend more time with me, enjoying life, and get to know Justin better. He wants to make sure that Justin won't hurt me like all of my other boyfriends have.

Every failed relationship, Louis is always there. He's always comforting, making me happy, buying me chocolate or ice cream, watching sappy movies with me, and anything to get me through the breakup. He's been through the same pain, so he knows how it feels. That's why he hasn't dating since he was 19. He was sick of getting hurt by all the girls he dated. He once told me when he was drunk that he has only ever loved one girl. I asked who, but he wouldn't tell me. To this day, I'm still clueless.

I answered the knock on my front door. I give Louis a hug and we both sit on the couch. "So, Justin knows I'm here, right?" I nod.

"Yeah, he didn't seem too thrilled though." Louis narrowed his eyes.

"Why?" I sigh.

"He doesn't like the fact that I'm friends with another guy."

"Jealously, much?" I shrug.

"I don't know, but, I haven't told him that I'm friends with Harry, Liam, Niall, and Zayn yet. He'd probably be really pissed."

"Pfft, whatever. It's your life. I personally would never be jealous of my girlfriends friends. Especially if I knew how long she'd been friends with them." I nod. "He knows we've been friends for eight years, right?" I nod.

"Of course, Louis. That's something I would never leave out." He nods.

"Good. Anyway, Harry, Liam, and Niall said they're coming over tomorrow night for Pizza. Wanna join?" I smile.

"Of course."

"And hey, you can invite Justin if you want." I nod.

"Cool, thanks Lou." he nods with a smile. There was a knock at the door. "I'll get it," I say. I open the door to reveal Justin. I kiss him and smile.

"Hey babe," he says. I bring him inside and Louis stands.

"Louis, this is my boyfriend Justin, and Justin, this is my bestfriend Louis." Louis smiles and sticks his hand out. Justin reluctantly shakes it. I roll my eyes and Louis' smile disappears. "Alright, well, let's sit down, shall we?" Louis nods and we all sit at the kitchen table. It's silent for a while.

"So...." Louis begins. "How long have you lived in Doncaster?" Justin sneers.

"I don't really see what this has to do with me dating Ally," Justin says. I look down. That was seriously rude. But with me being my idiot self, and being so desperate as to not wanting to lose another boyfriend, I didn't say anything.

"I was just trying to engage in simple conversation."

"Well I'm not interested in what you want." I close my eyes. This is seriously not how I wanted this to go. They went at it back and forth for a while, then I stood up and slammed my hands on the table.

"God dammit you guys! This is not how I wanted this to go!" I turned around and ran to my room. I could still hear the conversation from my bedroom.

"Fuck this. I'm out. Tell her I said it I was nice while it lasted." I started to cry because I was so upset I couldn't tell who had said it. There was a knock on my door.

"Go away!" I yell.

"Ally, please let me come in. It's Louis." I was silent, so the door slowly opened. He walked over and sat next to me on my bed. He grabbed my hand and held it. Then, he did what he does best, he sang.
Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind, it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me...

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs, the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right darlin' but I want you to
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

I cried into Louis' chest as he ended the song. I was so touched, and even though I'd heard the song before, something about it now made me very emotional. After I'd calmed down, I hugged him. "Remember when I told you I wrote that for the only girl I've ever loved?" I nod. "It was you." My eyes widen.

"W-what?"

"It's always been you, Ally. From day one. The first day we met, I liked you instantly. You were so sweet, kind, mysterious. You were also the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen after being alive for only 16 years at the time. Then, as time went on, and I got to know you, I fell in love you with you more and more. You're the only woman I've ever wanted." I close my eyes and breath. I smile and look at him. He smiles back.

"I've always felt the same. I just didn't want to say anything to you because I thought the special girl was someone else. I guess thinking that, I needed guys to fill in the blank of not having you." He sighs and puts my hands in his.

"Well, Allison June Hayden, the most beautiful girl on the planet, would you do me the absolute honor of being my girlfriend." I engulf him in a hug, which surprised him a bit.

"I thought you'd never ask, Louis." he chuckles and hugs me back. Though I lost Justin, I was glad he was gone. I love Louis, and I will love him until my mind is non-existant.

"How about I make some tea and we watch a movie or two?" I smile and nod. The rest of the night was amazing. We watched The Notebook, Titanic, and P.S I Love You. I cried during all three, and when those were over, Louis cheered me up by making silly faces, tickling me, and showing me funny compiliation moments of him and the boys (the rest of 1D) on youtube. After I was all cheered up, I said goodnight, and gave him a blanket for the couch.

Yes, I know it seems like he should sleep with me in the bed, but I didn't quite yet feel comfortable, and he completely understood. I said goodnight, and went to my room.

As I layed in bed, I thought out what could happen with my relationship with Louis. Would it be a fail, and would we only be together for a really short while? Or would it be the best damn thing to happen to me, the most amazing thing, and the both of us be together forever. Like til death do us part. I know that's jumping the gun a bit, but those thoughts do run through my mind. I sighed and took all thoughts out of my mind. I closed my eyes and slowly drifted to sleep.

Notes

Thanks for reading! xoxo Ally Payne xoxo