History (on hold)

The morning sun beams through the curtains of Niall's room, I turn myself and remember I am back in England with my daughter and a smile sweeps across my face. I then realise Eliza is not on her side I jump out of bed and feel a wave of relief to witness Niall is feeding her some breakfast.

"Morning gorgeous girl" I place a kiss on her head.

"Hey how you sleep?" Niall asks while cleaning Eliza's mouth.

"Good, thanks." I smile and pour myself some coffee, "sorry if I scared you she wasn't in bed with you" Niall turns to me. "No that's ok" I smile. I take a sip from my mug and see the time. "I better get going, do you mind watching her for a bit." I drink as much of my coffee as I can.
"Of course, want to spend the day with daddy." He picks her up from the high chair and uses his long arms to bring her up high and brings her back down and places kiss on her cheek.






"CUT"

"That was amazing, nice touch at the end falling." Ben claps his hands.

I am at the Grove Hotel filming my music video. "Just want to do it one more time"
Ben says and I agree. I am getting my makeup touched up. The scene here and I sing

I remember the day everything changed
You got me with one touch
Boy what the hell, tripped and I fell
Yeah boy I fell in love

I am on a golf course, and the line 'tripped and I fell'
I am on the course carrying clubs on my back and I fall down like Niall did when he was caddy for Rory Mcllroy. It's my own personal shout out to Niall. Hopefully he can see this and know I am still so much in love with him just as much as I was years ago.

Woahhhh
Ohhhhhhh

What did I do without you here
How did I breathe when you're my air
If I had a time machine
I would never go back, never go back
To the day before I met you

The song is also for my beautiful daughter Eliza. It's my way of saying I would never ever go back to the day before she came into this world. With the exception of Niall, I would never go back to the day before I met him, or any of the lads. Otherwise I would not be here where I am now, a happy, content life.








I have finished the music video, thank god I am exhausted. I am on the way driving back to Niall's. Listening to the lyrics over and over in my head all day makes me realise I am ready to have a chat with Niall about us, our family. I want this to work I do but at the same time I think that maybe he doesn't want to be with me anymore, I mean I pushed him away that is something I can never take back as much as I want to. He missed out on such precious times with his daughter no amount of time can replace it. I shake my head at my confusion and go inside the house where I can hear laughter.






I see a girl with her back to me, of long brown hair and Niall slouched down on the kitchen counter.

"Oh, your back" He lifts his head up and smiles. My heart is breaking a little. The girl turns around and I feel even more heartbroken. "This is Selena" I push my sadness aside and go up to her because it's the right thing to do. "Hi nice to meet you" I shake her hand. "I've heard so much about you" she hugs me, which surprises me. "Your gorgeous" she compliments me. "Ah thanks, umm Niall is Eliza sleeping." I change the subject. "Yea but I just put her down, so it's best if you leave her."
"Um ok, I'll leave you guys to it."
"No stay, where about to watch a movie." Really Niall me third wheeling, "No it's ok I'm actually going to give Louis a visit." I leave the room.

I get changed quickly http://cdn.gurl.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/11/donkety.jpg
with sadness and regret emotions taking over my body. I can't stop the tears from falling down. Selena and Niall the part that sucks is they actually look good together.

I kiss Eliza lightly on her forehead and make sure she is ok. I decide to go out the back away so I don't interrupt Niall and Selena's 'date'
I get in the car and drive to Loui's luckily it's not a long drive and I'm there in five minutes.
I ring the doorbell and wipe some of my tears away. I have red puffy eyes and drenched cheeks. "Hey are you ok" Harry answers the door, "Come in it's freezing." He grabs my arm and leads me inside the lounge where Louis and Liam are watching tv.



"No that's silly love there just friends" Louis pats my knee.
I wipe another endless tear away, "It's none of my business anyway I sniffle.

"Well I'm going to head off" I stand up and look at my phone and see a missed call from Niall.
"Thanks guys, I can always count on you" I hug Liam, Louis and Harry. "call me if you need anything" Harry whispers as I hug him.


I get to Niall's and can hear crying, which is never a good sign. I run up the stairs and see Niall holding Eliza trying to calm. I reach for her and cuddle her cries away. "Hey it's ok Mummy is here now ok" I sit down on the bed and place her on my lap. She still cries though, "Whats wrong honey" I bring her over my shoulder where her head rests and pat her back. "Is she ok" Niall asks not knowing how to react to this situation but I know how to fix it. "Can you please sing for her" I say still patting her back. "Like what?" He shrugs.
"Anything" I raise my voice a bit, hoping my baby will calm down. "shhh" I continue to calm her down.

For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only

Niall sings and Eliza has stopped, all she needed was her daddy's soothing singing voice. Niall and I place her in bed and I kiss her forehead, "Get some rest baby."
"I love you Princess" Niall kisses her cheek. "I can keep her with me tonight if you like?" he suggests.
"Do whatever you want Niall." I say annoyed and leave the room

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