Only Ever You

Lukes POV:

Now that everything okay with Ashley my whole day feels brighter. Its like there was a cloud of gloom hanging over my head stopping me from smiling, now I beam at absolute strangers in the street for no reason.

Also, now the biggest problem has been dealt with I can focus on my Mum. I havent told Ashley this because we weren't strictly talking when my Mum was diagnosed, also a part of me knows I didn't want to say the words for fear that once I had said them it would all seem so dreadfully real, my mother has terminal cancer. I hate that word, terminal it sounds deadly and dangerous and I never thought it would be used so bluntly to describe my mother, my rock.

I give my name to a sympathetic looking receptionist and wonder, somewhat morbidly how many patients she has seen come into this hospital...and not come out. I shake my head trying to clear these horrible thoughts, that won't be my mother, she's a fighter she single handedly raised three boys when my dad walked out on her for someone who is closer in age to me than her, if anyone can fight cancer, its her.

I wish she was at home, seeing her lying the in the bed surrounded by machines and the unforgiving hospital bed makes her look so tired and weary, like all hope has been drained out of her. She smiles at me but it looks more like a grimace, she is in so much pain.

We thought the cancer had gone away, turns out it came back. She was diagnosed with breast cancer five years ago, she had all the treatments they could offer and eventually it became dormant, notice how it was just 'dormant' not completely gone away, it couldn't just stay away!

I sit beside her on the hard hospital chair "How you doing Mum?" I ask her stroking her pale cheek. "As good as I can be darling, but I didn't ask you to come here to discuss my health I need to talk to you because I'm afraid love, afraid I won't be around for much longer." "Dont say that..." I begin but she silences me with a look.“My darling boy, I’m not afraid of death I’m afraid that I won’t be able to see you my beautiful son grow up, that I will never be able to hold my grandchildren, now you listen to me I have always tried hard not to have favourites with my sons, but from the moment the nurses put you in my arms I knew you were special, and every day after that I have confirmed it.”

Tears are leaking out of my eyes as she speaks with such love shining in her eyes “And I want you to have something” She raises her shaking hand and slips the small diamond ring off her finger and holds it out to me, I never understood why after all this time and what my father put her through she still wore it, but Im beginning to she wore it for us, and out of love for he had many faults, my father did help bring us into the world.

“Take this, give it to Ashley, Luke can you do this for me you marry that girl, you have beautiful children and you tell them how much their grandma loved them” she is crying too now and how can I not accept the ring?

I take it from her and we sit there our tears streaming down our faces praying that the impossible will happen

Notes

Hi guys! Hope you liked the new chapter it was emotional to write ;(

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