Summer Sky | L.T.

"That is none of you business." I said through clenched teeth and not because I was mad at him but if I didn't keep my mouth shut, I would surely vomit all over him. Damn drinking games, why were they invented in the first place.

Someone who was heartbroken must have invested it, to make himself feel even more miserable, Yes I had fun at first but when Oliver kissed me, it went wrong immediately because I didn't want to be kissed by him or every other boy for that matter. The only boy I wanted to kiss was now bugging me and didn't want me in the slightest.

"The hell it is!" He was yelling at me but I just zoned out. I couldn't hear a thing he was saying, the only thing I could hear was the ringing in my ears. I was seriously ill and the fact that he was here with me, witnessing it all didn't make me feel any better. I just wanted to crawl in a dark corner and cry. I was so focused on keeping the vomit in that I didn't realize that Louis was standing closer, that is until he put his hand under my chin to lift my face.

"Sky, what's wrong?" I didn't really hear him but I could read his lips, I didn't answer him but just shook my head slowly. "Why aren't you talking to me?" I looked up so I could see his eyes and there was actually worry in them. The light was becoming way too bright so I just closed my eyes for a second, because there was nothing wrong with resting your eyes for a bit right. Louis pressed his hand against my forehead, why he did that I don't really know but I do know that instead of getting warm it only became colder. Louis was mumbling something under his breath but I couldn't hear it.

I leaned forwards and put my head on his chest. I mean that can't do any harm right and I really needed to rest my head for a second. Louis put his hands around my waist and holds on to me so I wouldn't fall on the floor. At least I think that is why he held me. I felt the elevator stop and my stomach protested against that movement. I heard myself groan when suddenly I was lifted into the air. "Which room is your Sky?" This was a direct question, which I couldn't ignore. I took a deep breath and opened my mouth, praying I wouldn't vomit on him. "Room 236" I whispered and he didn't waste time and walked straight to the room. "I need the key love." I put my hand into the bag and pulled out the key and gave it to him.

He put me down on bed but as soon as he had put me down, I jumped of the couch and ran into the bathroom were I threw up violently. It felt like I was throwing up everything inside of me and believe when I say it was not pretty. I slumped over the toilet when I felt Louis cold hands holding my hair out of my face. Why was he still here, couldn't he just go already. I mean he apparently didn't give a flying fuck about me so why in heavens name would he help me. "please go away." I asked when I was able to but he just kept holding me. It made me think back to that morning where I got high on drugs. He was doing the exact same thing, with rubbing my back and holding my hair back. Why was he doing this?

I'm not sure how I got into bed but when I woke up I was lying flat on my stomach on the softness of my bed. I stretched out when my hand bumped into an arm. So I hadn't dreamed. I opened one eye carefully and there was Louis sleeping deeply next to me. He looked exhausted, which made me feel weirdly guilty. I still didn't feel good, what the hell went wrong yesterday?

I got up and walked to the bathroom when I noticed I was only wearing a shirt. Louis must've undressed me last night. Ugh of course he did. Then it came back to me, what he had said in the elevator yesterday. He was sounding jealous and the fact that he apparently had been spying on me didn't make this situation any better, it was a good thing I was leaving today. I took a quick shower and brushed my teeth for a good 10 minutes, just to make sure the vomit smell was gone.

I had put on a black dress and pulled on my vans because let's be honest they are comfortable shoes! I walked out of the room and saw that Louis was still sleeping, I had to get out of here before he woke up but I couldn't just disappear without letting him know, so I decided to write him a note.

"Dear Louis,

First off all thank you for helping me last night, you really didn't have to do that. I get that you don't want me in your life and I can accept that but please do not call me ever again because you have maybe moved on but I still love you..

Yeah I just said that I still love you. I know I never really said it but here you have it. I have loved you from the moment you knocked me over at the airport but now it's too late and I know that's partly my fault but I couldn't come back with you to France because I was making sure Mike wouldn't see any daylight anytime soon. I should have told you that so I could let you make the decision if you wanted to stay or not, I get that now.

I do hope you will get clean again because you are so much better then the person you are when you're under influence of that stuff. So I guess this a goodbye. You know what I said before everything went bad between us, that if faith wants us together we will find our way back to each other. Well I guess that's not true.

Just know I love you and probably always will and yes the room is already been paid for, don't worry. Oh and call your dad he is worried about you.


Yours forever,
Sky"

I put the note on my pillow and quietly left the room, making my way downstairs. I thanked the staff and told them there was still someone sleeping in the room but he would be gone by noon. They didn't mind and wished me a good trip. I got into my car and drove back to Cambridge without looking back.

I had to stop at one point because I was crying like crazy. It was as if I left my heart in Doncaster but it was better this way. He didn't want me in his life and I couldn't bare to look at him, the way he was now. How could I ever think I could help him heal because I couldn't help someone who didn't want to be helped. Now I had to go back to my life in Cambridge and maybe I could get over him in time but too be honest I just wanted to curl up in bed with ice cream and do absolutely nothing.

After the crying decreased I started up the car again and drove straight home. I had called Ashley from the car so she was waiting for me when I walked through the door. She had to look at me once before throwing herself at me. "It will be okay sweetheart." She tried to sooth me and I loved her for that but I wasn't sure about that okay part. In my eyes nothing was okay, she directed me to the couch and after I sat down she went into the kitchen to get some tea. It was her magical fix, at least that is what she told me. "Do you want to talk about it?" she asked when she came back from the kitchen but I really didn't. "No I don't, can't we just talk about your weekend?" I asked and she smiled at me and told me every detail.

"Wait hold up you kissed James? When did that happen?" she giggled and shrugged. "You know I thought he liked you right?" I nodded because I did know that and it's exactly the reason why I always kept him at a distant because I also know that she was into him. "Well I guessed wrong, he does like you but more like a little sister." I laughed and hugged her. "So all this time he was into you?" she nodded with a huge smile on her face. "Thank you." I hugged her again. She didn't say anything because she knows why I am thanking her.

I gave her back her car keys at the end of the evening. I eventually told her about my weekend and in what kind of situation I put myself in and how I got drunk and how Louis took care of me in the end.

"Woa....... back up! He took care of you after he was being ass hole to you?" She was thoroughly confused by now and it made me smile because the mirrored my feelings exactly. "Yeah he did, that's why I'm so confused. If he didn't want me anymore why would he do that?" Ashley's mouth was hanging open and she was speechless. "I should've come with you." I shook my head because then I never had the balls to say goodbye to him.

"I love you but I don't think that would have worked." I really wanted some ice cream right now. "Can't we just get some ice cream?" I asked her and she jumped up and stretched out her hand. "That's a brilliant idea." I put on my shoes not even caring what I looked like. I was wearing black sweats and a nice Cambridge hoodie, it was the perfect outfit for this emergency ice cream haul. We walked to the ice parlour and I ordered a large cone with a rainbow of flavours because I was allowed to do that, as I was heartbroken.

Ashley directed me towards the park, we normally would go for a run, well I did most of the running, she was mostly skating along side of me. "So what are you going to do now?"I shrugged "I really don't know Ash but I need to move on don't I?" She was looking at some children play near the water and when she instantly grinned at me. "What are you doing?" she was pulling me towards the kids. "Hello, can we play with you?" they were playing football and I really didn't know how the play, the only thing I did know was that you had to run after a ball and when you got it, you had to kick it away again. Such a ridiculous game but it was fun to watch with a lot of people.

I gave my ice cream away to a little girl who was watching and pulled the hoodie over my head leaving me in my red t-shirt, which ironically said, "ready to run". I did feel a moment of sadness when I did that because I was really enjoying that ice cream. We introduced ourselves and we got placed in opposite teams, which was only fair because we were older and bigger. The game started and you know, you can actually learn a lot from kids and I was picking up the rules really quick and was having a lot of fun. I was running up and down the field, without once worrying about Louis and it made me feel happy.

The way these kids played this game, was amazing and they also played dirty. I got tackled by this kid who was proud of tackling me. Lucky for me I know how to break a fall but I really needed a serious word with his dad or brother who were watching from the side-lines. At a certain point I had the ball and was running in full speed, looking out when something caught my sight, Ashley noticed my confusion and followed my glare. She knew how Louis looked as I had showed her a picture so her mouth fell open and she came running towards me, making me turn my attention to her. "Ignore him Sky, go on with the game."

She was right but damn it was hard to ignore him but somehow I did it. I did score though and in that moment I totally forgot about Louis who was watching us whilst leaning against a tree. My attention got totally sucked back into the game and as we were running up and down the field I felt myself at ease. My team won in the end and I hugged everyone. I did a little victory dance with my teammates and eventually the other team joined us.

The little girl who I gave my ice cream to was running towards me so I lifted her high in the sky. She was laughing, I spinned her around and eventually Ashley joined us as well. "Where are your parents?" I eventually asked the girl but she shrugged. "Don't you know where they are?" she shook her head. "Do you want us to help you find them?" There was something off though when I took a proper look at her. She was too skinny and her clothes were all messed up. "Ashley will you take her please?" I gave her to Ashley and when I saw how she was looking at the girl I knew what I had to do.

There were some nuns standing in the shade and they were watching the little kids. I walked up there "Excuse me, can I ask you something?" One of the nuns looked up and nodded. "Of course my child." I pointed at the girl who was now playing with Ashley's hair. "Is she with you?" I asked and she confirmed it. "She doesn't have any parents then?"

"No she doesn't, the poor thing." I looked again at Ashley and I know that she wanted a kid of herself but she couldn't, this would be the perfect opportunity.' "Is there a way to adopt her?" I asked the nun and she smiled at me "Yes of course, do you want to adopt her?" I shook my head but pointed at Ashley. "I don't but I know that my friend does, I just have to tell her about it." I thanked the nuns and ran back to Ashley. Before I could speak I had to catch my breath first. I mean my condition is good but not after running more then 2 hours.

"Ash.." I quickly stopped and put my hands over the girls ears as I didn't want to hurt her if Ashley didn't think it was a good idea. "Do you want her?" Ashley looked at me incredulously. "What are you talking about?" I smiled because you could see the hurt on her face. "She doesn't have a family, I just asked the nuns over there and if you want her, you can adopt her." I told in one breath before she would walk away. She didn't like it when I brought this subject up. "You are not kidding right?" I could hear hope in her voice and I quickly shook my head. "I'm not kidding love." I was already crossing my heart when a smile broke out on her face, she looked at the girl and back to me. I nodded and encouraged her. I pulled my hands away from her ears and walked away to give them some privacy.

I started walking into Louis direction but when I saw him I turned around and started to run again. I had to go away, Ashley would tell me what happened and if she was planning on adopting her. For now I just had to think of a way to get out of here. We were in the middle of this damn park and this park was huge. I could feel my legs trembling, which meant that I had reached my limit but I couldn't stop knowing that Louis could catch up to me if I did.

I know I was being a coward but my head was telling me to run and run hard. I finally reached the entrance of the park but the moment I stepped through the gate, I was grabbed by my arm and spinned around, which made me have a head rush. "Woah head rush." I mumbled under my breath and when my sight was steady again I looked at Louis chest. I took a deep breath and looked up. He was holding the letter I wrote him in his hand.

"REALLY SKY?!" Ai he was pissed beyond words and I wanted to say something but when I opened my mouth to speak I quickly closed it when I saw him shake his head slightly. "First, you make me worry about you and then the next morning you're fucking gone and then I find this fucking note, were you tell me you FUCKING LOVE ME!" I took a small step backwards, as he was scaring the fudge out of me.

"Let go of me Louis." I tried to pull my arm out of his grasp but he didn't budge. "So after everything, you come back to torture me some more, why Sky?" Wait was he kidding me, I was torturing him? He was the one who called me in the middle of the night, only to yell at me the moment he recognizes me. "LET GO OF ME NOW!" I screamed at him but he didn't listen, he was just glaring at me and I know there was already forming a bruise on my arm. "Why couldn't you just stay away?" that's when I slapped him, this made him distracted and I pulled my arm free and bolted to the safety of my house.

I know he was following me but I didn't stop once and when I was inside I didn't even wait for the elevator but I took the stairs and as I was living on the top, that were a lot of stairs. Halfway through I could've sworn that my heart was going to jump out of my chest. "FUCK!" this time I did yell it, because I had to run a lot of stairs to get to my apartment. I just decided to sit down and prayed he wouldn't come looking for me in here. I waited till my heart wasn't racing when I got up and started walking the remaining steps. I felt relieved when Louis didn't come after me again. What the hell was that all about and why did he come here? I reached my floor after at least 5 minutes, I know that's a long time but I was tired. I pushed the door open to enter the hallway when I got slammed against the wall.

"Took you long enough."

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