"GOODNIGHT SYNDNY WE'VE HAS SO MUCH FUN!" I heard Louis shout into the mic as the concert came to a close. I looked up from evil Twitter and saw Niall coming off stage, we shared a quick smile and hug before he went to the after show meet and greet. I knew I should talk to Niall more, actually talk to him vs the mindless rambles of conversations we have before we call it a night. Sleep, an amazing thing, our thing, we always slept together, not in a dirty way, as messed up as I was, I would wait until marriage to have sex, but in a, I wrap my leg around yours, you pull me close so I hear your heart beating. I play with your hair, you still kisses, we fall asleep. It was an escape, a way to get away. When I slept, I would dream, my nightmares still came, less frequently though.

My empty stomach warned me I'd have five terrible minutes where is feel so absolutely starving I could die. Meg must have heard because she slid over to the couch I was sitting on and asked, "You okay?" I didn't feel like lying so I got up and motioned for her to come with me. Once we were on a stall I sank to the floor, clenched my abdomen, and groaned in pain. "I-I think we should tell Liam, it's gone on for too long, the last time I ate was three days ago, a spoon of peanut butter." I have her a sorrow full look. She nodded. That next day I asked Liam if he'd stay behind when the boys went wake boarding for 'extra practice on his solo'. He agreed. "Whats the matter girls? Is everything alright?" He sat on the couch and handed us hot coco. Meg broke down, she was so ashamed of her self, as was I but, I kept most emotions. Liam gave me a concerned look. "Well, no see, we and the pressure uh-" I couldn't come out with it so I stood up and sighed. Grabbing the bottom hem of my shirt I pulled it over my head and off my body. Exposing my sickly pale skin, and ribs that poked out unnaturally. "Sarah?" He gasped, taking in my decaying body. I simply nodded as tears were coming at this point. I fell to the ground as the turned into sobs. "Dear why?" Liam rushed to my aid. "The hate, all the pressure to be... perfect." I sobbed out. "Ey, ey! Sarah your beautiful, don't let anyone else tell you a damn!" He tried to remind me. "How bout you out your shirt on before Niall comes back and has a heart attack, and we can all go EAT" he put emphasis on 'eat' implying I would have to consume food. I sniffled and stood up. Liam gave my a sad look and opened his arms for a hug.

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