Can we do it all over, over, and over again?
To starting over, over and over again (last chapter)
6 months later:
The car ride home is silent. My head is leaned against the window, the news that I and Harry had to endure is making my world stop and not in a good way. Because of my miscarriage I had I am not able to conceive children. I won't have a mini Styles to have and hold or to call my own.
When we get home I run upstairs and slam the door. I collapse on the bed and fall asleep.
I am woken up by constant kisses on my bare shoulder. I flutter my eyes open and see Harry. "How you feeling babe?" he asks me and I sit up and just shake my head. Harry continues to kiss me first on my cheek, then my nose, then a peck on the lips then on my neck which he knows my weakness. A rush of anger comes across me and I stand up. "REALLY HARRY YOU WANT TO DO THIS NOW?" I shout and he looks hurt. "Evie we can keep trying." he stands up and grabs my hands but I let go. "NO WE CAN"T HARRY DON'T YOU GET IT." I yell back.
"Ok, ok but why can't we be intimate?" he asks me. "whats' the point in having sex if it won't get us anywhere?" I say and turn around and shut the bathroom door behind him, and I turn the shower on and soak myself under the water and cry.
I hear the door slam and immediately get up to where I was sulking on the shower floor. I turn my body so he won't face me. I know I am being selfish now but I just want to be alone now. But then again Harry is my husband and we are both experiencing this pain. He comes and joins me in the shower and wraps his arms around my waist. "Evie your my wife baby, please" he kisses my shoulder and I turn around and cup his face and kiss him passionately. I rest my forehead against his "I'm so sorry. I love you." I kiss him again. He lifts me up and opens the shower door not breaking our kiss. He lays me down on our bed and immediately skips everything else and comes right away thrusting into me.
It has been a couple of weeks and Harry and I have kept trying day an night. We are both so adamant to get pregnant with our own DNA. However all the hard work has indeed paid off, I have a special dinner set up on our balcony I made his favourite tacos and even dresses up myself. http://ak2.polyvoreimg.com/cgi/img-set/cid/91941803/id/gGO2MaC3T66uwEFUBTXptw/size/y.jpg
"Evie, babe I'm home" Harry shouts out "Upstairs balcony husband" I shout back. Yes I still call him husband.
He comes into our room and sees me "Wow don't you look sexy" he kisses me on the cheek and unbuttoning his shirt. minutes later Harry returns in his white t.shirt and some black skinny jeans. "Yayay tacos." he cheers and takes a bite. "So what did you do today my love?" He asks me with his mouthful but I laugh at his silliness. "Oh you know, this, that. Found out we are pregnant" I reveal.
Harry literally drops his taco and stands up. "Wait are you serious Evie?" he cups my face and I nod in happiness. "Yes Harry we did it." I laugh and cry and place my hand on his cheek. "but the doctors they".
"Doctors are idiots Harry" I laugh
"WE DID IT BABY, WE DID IT!" Harry shouts out kissing me.
9 months later:
Well here we are nine months later and I am holding Harry and I's creation in my arms. Our perfect little boy: Zachary Edward Styles.
"Hey little guy." Harry holds our little boy in his arms. "He has your smile babe" Harry turns to me and sits next to me on a chair while I lay in the bed.
My life has been nothing but perfect but slowly has gotten more perfect as its progressed. I have an amazing friends Sophia and Liam and their little girl Amelia. El is a victoria secret model. Niall is still Niall eating and watched more and more soccer with Oscar usually. The best part is they all live here in LA, and we all live in the same street. The boys are all on their way to becoming successful in the music industry. Harry he works on the writing songs with me and my label, with everything I have experienced through my life I realise that without the man sitting next to me right now who is holding our little miracle I would have never gotten through anything.
"Evie you ok honey?" Harry aks me, we are back home and laying in bed together. Harry has just put Zach down and Oscar is with Niall they are two best friends it is so cute.
"Yea I'm just thinking." I whippers looking at the ceiling. "About what baby?" he scoots closer to me wrapping his arms around my waist as we lay together.
"I love you Harry."
"I love you too Evie."
"Thank you for letting me, us start over again." he says and kisses my cheek.
"To starting over, over and over again" we both laugh!
The car ride home is silent. My head is leaned against the window, the news that I and Harry had to endure is making my world stop and not in a good way. Because of my miscarriage I had I am not able to conceive children. I won't have a mini Styles to have and hold or to call my own.
When we get home I run upstairs and slam the door. I collapse on the bed and fall asleep.
I am woken up by constant kisses on my bare shoulder. I flutter my eyes open and see Harry. "How you feeling babe?" he asks me and I sit up and just shake my head. Harry continues to kiss me first on my cheek, then my nose, then a peck on the lips then on my neck which he knows my weakness. A rush of anger comes across me and I stand up. "REALLY HARRY YOU WANT TO DO THIS NOW?" I shout and he looks hurt. "Evie we can keep trying." he stands up and grabs my hands but I let go. "NO WE CAN"T HARRY DON'T YOU GET IT." I yell back.
"Ok, ok but why can't we be intimate?" he asks me. "whats' the point in having sex if it won't get us anywhere?" I say and turn around and shut the bathroom door behind him, and I turn the shower on and soak myself under the water and cry.
I hear the door slam and immediately get up to where I was sulking on the shower floor. I turn my body so he won't face me. I know I am being selfish now but I just want to be alone now. But then again Harry is my husband and we are both experiencing this pain. He comes and joins me in the shower and wraps his arms around my waist. "Evie your my wife baby, please" he kisses my shoulder and I turn around and cup his face and kiss him passionately. I rest my forehead against his "I'm so sorry. I love you." I kiss him again. He lifts me up and opens the shower door not breaking our kiss. He lays me down on our bed and immediately skips everything else and comes right away thrusting into me.
It has been a couple of weeks and Harry and I have kept trying day an night. We are both so adamant to get pregnant with our own DNA. However all the hard work has indeed paid off, I have a special dinner set up on our balcony I made his favourite tacos and even dresses up myself. http://ak2.polyvoreimg.com/cgi/img-set/cid/91941803/id/gGO2MaC3T66uwEFUBTXptw/size/y.jpg
"Evie, babe I'm home" Harry shouts out "Upstairs balcony husband" I shout back. Yes I still call him husband.
He comes into our room and sees me "Wow don't you look sexy" he kisses me on the cheek and unbuttoning his shirt. minutes later Harry returns in his white t.shirt and some black skinny jeans. "Yayay tacos." he cheers and takes a bite. "So what did you do today my love?" He asks me with his mouthful but I laugh at his silliness. "Oh you know, this, that. Found out we are pregnant" I reveal.
Harry literally drops his taco and stands up. "Wait are you serious Evie?" he cups my face and I nod in happiness. "Yes Harry we did it." I laugh and cry and place my hand on his cheek. "but the doctors they".
"Doctors are idiots Harry" I laugh
"WE DID IT BABY, WE DID IT!" Harry shouts out kissing me.
9 months later:
Well here we are nine months later and I am holding Harry and I's creation in my arms. Our perfect little boy: Zachary Edward Styles.
"Hey little guy." Harry holds our little boy in his arms. "He has your smile babe" Harry turns to me and sits next to me on a chair while I lay in the bed.
My life has been nothing but perfect but slowly has gotten more perfect as its progressed. I have an amazing friends Sophia and Liam and their little girl Amelia. El is a victoria secret model. Niall is still Niall eating and watched more and more soccer with Oscar usually. The best part is they all live here in LA, and we all live in the same street. The boys are all on their way to becoming successful in the music industry. Harry he works on the writing songs with me and my label, with everything I have experienced through my life I realise that without the man sitting next to me right now who is holding our little miracle I would have never gotten through anything.
"Evie you ok honey?" Harry aks me, we are back home and laying in bed together. Harry has just put Zach down and Oscar is with Niall they are two best friends it is so cute.
"Yea I'm just thinking." I whippers looking at the ceiling. "About what baby?" he scoots closer to me wrapping his arms around my waist as we lay together.
"I love you Harry."
"I love you too Evie."
"Thank you for letting me, us start over again." he says and kisses my cheek.
"To starting over, over and over again" we both laugh!
