Can we do it all over, over, and over again?
Exam
Today is a big day, Niall and I have our music exam he is playing the guitar and I am singing. Liam and Louis have theirs next week so at least they can be there to cheer us on. Harry is before me. The whole music class is sitting in the hall a few have been they played instruments some sang which were good but you can tell they are nervous like me. What if I puke on stage what if I forget words to my own song. El and Sophia are at the back as well they have already wished their boys luck but had to sit with everyone else. "You alright Evie?" Niall snaps me out of my thoughts, "yea bit nervous" I smirk. "Don't be love we will be fine." I smile.
"Styles your next". the teacher says and he stands up I smile at him as he gets ready for the stage.
The music in the background starts and Harry starts singing.
If I could fly, I'd be coming right back home to you
I think I might give up everything, just ask me to
Pay attention, I hope that you listen cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenseless
I look straight up at him, the song he wrote for me while I was away on tour he is singing. I can't help but smile and think back to Harry and I when we were together.
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only
When we were together he told me, it's like he didn't trust anyone else and I saw the real him.
I've got scars, even though they can't always be seen
And pain gets hard, but now you're here and I don't feel a thing
Pay attention, I hope that you listen cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenseless
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only
I can feel your heart inside of mine
(I feel it, I feel it)
I've been going out of my mind
(I feel it I feel it)
Know that I'm just wasting time
And I hope that you don't run from me
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only
For your eyes only
But then I think he doesn't want to be part of my life, he said for me not to love him anymore so why is making me fall for him again.
Niall and I are on the stage now and I am freaking out. http://a54.idata.over-blog.com/4/94/73/69/blue.jpg
(no glasses)
Said I'd never leave him
Cause his hands fit like my t-shirt
Tongue tied over three words, cursed
Running over thoughts that made my feet hurt
Bodies intertwined with his lips
Now he is feeling so low
Since he went solo
Hole in the middle of my heart like a polo
And it's no joke to me
So can we do it all over again
I sing, I wrote this song yes for Harry and I how we had to keep starting again. Things got in the way and we were together even though we technically weren't. If you're pretending from the start
Like this, with a tight grip
Then my kiss can mend your broken heart
I might miss
Everything you said to me
And I can lend your broken parts
That might fit, like this
And I will give you all my heart
So we can start it all over again
I was broken and Harry fixed me.
Again we take the same road
Two days in the same clothes
And I know just what he'll say
If I can make all this pain go
Can we stop this for a minute
You know I can tell that your heart isn't in it, or with it
I sing and I think of when he broke up with me, I am trying so hard not cry right now. So I turn to Niall who is playing the acoustic guitar and he smiles at me.
And tell me with your mind, body and spirit
I can make your tears fall down like the showers that are British
Whether we're together or apart
We can both remove the masks
And admit we regret it from the start
If you're pretending from the start
Like this, with a tight grip
Then my kiss can mend your broken heart
I might miss
Everything you said to me
And I can lend your broken parts
That might fit, like this
And I will give you all my heart
So we can start it all over again
You'll never know how to make it on your own
And you'll never show weakness for letting go
I guess it's still hard if the seed's sown
But do you really want to be alone?
If you're pretending from the start
Like this, with a tight grip
Then my kiss can mend your broken heart
I might miss
Everything you said to me
And I can lend your broken parts
That might fit, like this
And I will give you all my heart
So we can start it all over again
If you're pretending from the start
Like this, with a tight grip (yeah)
Then my kiss can mend your broken heart
I might miss
Everything you said to me
And I can lend your broken parts
That might fit, like this
And I will give you all my heart
So we can start it all over again
We finish and take a bow and everyone claps. I walk down the stage stairs. "Hey you were great" Harry says, and I smile "ah thanks."
I see a message on my phone and it's from Ed, wow it's been a while.
From Ginger Ninja:
Hey Evie, hope your good and school isn't boring you too much hahaha! Please call me when you get this! Oh by the way I miss England - NOT!
I laugh so hard at his picture right now he has sent. It is a picture of him at the beach taking a selfie. Wow LA he looks a bit burnt though.
I finish my phone conversation with Ed and I have so much to think about, but I can't leave no my home is here and Oscar and my family (the girls and the lads) are here I can;'t leave them they have done so much for me, I guess I'll break it to Ed later. I lock my phone and start to walk away but see Harry leaning against the wall in his usual black skinnies and short sleeve shirt with the top buttons undone and his hair falling perfectly. "How you feeling?" he asks me coming off the wall" Um fine." I reply.
"You wrote an amazing song Evie." He comes closer to me, I put my hand out to stop him coming closer. "What are you doing" I ask in confusion. "Evie" he takes my hand and I snap "NO HARRY STOP PLEASE" I yell. "Stop what?" he laughs, he thinks this is funny?
"Stop just stop" I walk back. "Stop making me so confused about everything please" I say with a few tears running down my face but I quickly wipe them away. "You told me to move on and not to love you and not to care, but your not making it easy for me" I say. "Evie I"
"OH MY GOD!" I whisper as I take my hand away from my stomach and see blood on it, then everything blacks out.
