Can we do it all over, over, and over again?

After that very intense english class I catch up with Harry and decide to be honest with him about the whole test thing. "I really like what you said back there" I say to him, "I meant every word Evie" I close my eyes and he pecks my lips. "I kind of need to tell you something now" I nervously say. I look up at him and take a deep breath.


I have finally told Harry the truth how the first maths test I switched mine to his and that's why he got such a good mark on it, and it's been about a minute although it feels longer and he hasn't spoken. "Harry I'm really sorry." I whisper and look to the floor.
"How could you Evie" he says and I look at him with sadness both in our eyes. " Stay away from me Evie" he says "Harry please" I grab his arm "No I mean it" and he walks away.

Great now it's lunch time and I have no where to sit, I am standing awkwardly with a tray in my hands and everyone seems to be looking at me, I see Harry and he looks away from me. I then turn away "Hey love" Sophia comes up to me with El, but I start to walk away. "Hey Evie wait, were your friends too, we are not going to turn our backs on you." El says and I smile. "Thanks you guys. We find a quiet spot outside and sit the three of us and make small talk.
"Just give him some time, he will come around" Soph says to me.
"I'm not so sure about that" I say truthfully. "You didn't see the sadness and disappointment in his eyes." I sniffle. "I don't know if we can do this over again" I cry.
"Don't cry Evie". El rubs my back and Soph places her head on my shoulder.
I pick up my tray and empty the rubbish in the bin and as I turn to walk back to my seat I see Maddy and Harry in the corner making out and my heart drops. Well I guess were over before we really begun. I got to the toilet and start sobbing and I just can't stop, all of it hurst so much. I get my phone and notice a message so I call my voicemail.

"Evie, it's your aunty listen Colin and I are going to be in Rome for a bout a month so don't do anything to mess up the house, We are at the airport now and about to board. Oh and happy birthday for next week. Bye!"
At least I know my house will be safe and I and I can start looking for a place for Oscar and myself. Oh and it's my birthday next week guess I forgot.

"Because we can't stay there anymore Oscar." I grab his arm and we start to walk home.
"Evie do you know what today is?" he asks me and to be honest I have no idea what today is.
"No mate, what is it?" I say in a calmer tone. "It's his birthday" Oscar stops. I can't believe I forgot my younger brother's birthday, "Ok lets go" I grab Oscars hand, we start walking and we walk through the gates of the cemetery.

"Hey baby brother" I bend down and have Oscar in my lap. He died a couple of years ago he would be eighteen today, but his life was taken away way to fast. After about ten minutes we decide it is time to leave. We start walking home and Oscar runs straight to the couch and immediately falls asleep, I decided to text El and Soph to see if they want to come over, which they are happy to and will be over in a bout an hour. I am bored so I decide to play my guitar for a bit and remember the song Harry wrote for me and I start to cry. I don't understand I forgave him for kissing Maddy why can't he forgive me?

An hour later and everyone is here the boys, El and Soph. I guess it's good Oscar has company. "Earth to Evie" El snaps me out of my thoughts. "The door" she points to it.

I go and answer the door to reveal Harry and Maddy, is he serious right now, "We heard some noises and thought we might join you guys" Maddy nudges past me and makes her way in, I then step in front of her. "What do you think your doing?" I cross my arms "Harry tell her she's being rude by not letting me in" she says and I look at him but he remains silent.
"Oh whose this" she picks up the photo frame and my blood starts to boil. She has picked up the photo of Joey my younger brother who's birthday it would of been today. "Is he your boyfriend" she mocks me I snatch the photo out of her hand and hand it to Sophia who is right behind me. I step closer to Maddy, "Get the hell out of my house before I hurt you" I whisper in her face and she steps back. "Come on babe, lets go" she grabs Harry's arm. "Maybe he is the guy she used to get her five seconds of fame" he says and they both leave and I run up the stairs and ball my eyes out.

"Evie, sweetie can we come in" I hear El knock on the door and her and Soph come in.
"Don't listen to that dumb idiot ok" El says and places her hand on my thigh. "You don't understand" I sniffle and start to cry. "Shh we are here ok, you can tell us anything" Soph assures me. So I tell them both about Joey and how he died and I just let everything out.

"Oh my god, we had no idea. I'm so sorry Evie". Both girls hug me tight. I think it's safe to say I found some really good friends who I know I can trust. "If you ever want to talk about anything, we are here for you". Soph says and smiles, they help me out of bed and we go back down stairs.

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