THE DEATH OF YOU

A year ago

Harry's pov

She's a pretty little thing that one, almost no tits but that blonde hair is her real colour and those blue eyes are big and sad and those dimple jeez I mean how does one look at her without wanting to pock their finger at them.
She is much better looking than Lola which is not here.
Maybe I should make a move on this blonde chick since she's not here.. After all Ed did say she is my girlfriend.
God knows I don't remember her which I'm sure I would have if she was really my girlfriend. I remember Lola.. I mean who would forget after the things that animal of a girl does in bed.. Blows your mind away.. and dick.. Maybe this blonde chick isn't as good.. Maybe that's why I don't remember her? But she seems to know Ed well.. And mum and Gemma.. What the fuck is going on?
"Stop staring at Cassie as if you want to eat her," Ed snaps at my side.
"Right.. Cassie.. I was trying to remember her name.. How long are we dating again?"
"For about two years," Ed sighs. We've been through this a million times and it still doesn't sink in. My head hurts my whole body hurts like a bitch so it's slightly hard for me to follow.
"Why the hell would that girl date me?" I ask myself.
"Believe me mate.. We are all asking ourselves the same question," Ed chuckles.
We both watch her from across the room as she chats quietly with Gem at the far end of the room. Mum is out making calls, and blonde chick is keeping away.. Giving me space. Every now and then she glances over and her sharp blue eyes give a jolt to my heart.
"She is squeaky clean.. not the type I date," I frown which makes my head hurt even more.
"I guess she saw in you something.. Actually you were such a pest following her around.. you really didn't leave her no choice," Ed smirks evilly that bloody ginger.
"You fucking liar! I don't chase girls.. They come to me willingly on their own account!"
"Not that one," Ed snickers.
"Fuck this! Try Lola again! Where the hell is that bloody woman when I need her?!" I shout, making Gemma and Blondie look up at me.
"Stop that Harry! Lola is not dating you and she will not be coming!" Gemma snaps at me angrily.
"Yes she is! I'll get her a ticket! She is the only one who cares about me! None of you understand! She gets me and my racing and she would want me to go back to it once I'm out of here!" I growl. We've been through this too. I am apparently not allowed to go back to racing or riding a motorbike like I'm some 12 year old child.
"Oh sure only she knows! That slut is such an air head I don't even see what you saw in her in the first place sh-"
"She gives the best blow jobs," I joke, however none of them find this funny.
"You're such a dick at time Harry! The only thing that is stopping me from strangling you right now is the fact you're already injured and once your memory comes back you'll see and feel what a dick you are!" Gemma shouts.
"Shut the fuck up! You know nothing! You're-"
"For crying out loud! Shut up! I'll call Lola for you if it would just get you to shut up!" Blondie shoots to her feet and paces rapidly over to me snatching the phone from my hand.
"Feisty this one," I assess her.
"I cannot listen to the shit coming out of your mouth any longer! You want that bimbo here? Fine! Just stop talking!" She demands.
I watch as she dials, noting how shocked Ed is next to me.
"Cassie don't!" Gemma orders.
"Lola? Hi.. This is Cassie Price... Yeah Harry's Cassie.. Yes it is true.. He is asking for you.. Does it sound as if I'm joking? There will be a ticket waiting for you so no you don't need to pay.. For God's sake I'm not playing you.. Here talk to him yourself then!" She shoves the phone at me and then storms out of the room, Gemma following her out.
"Lola?" I speak into the phone.
"Harry? What is going on?"
" I miss you baby.. and everything hurts.. why aren't you here?" I inquire.
"Harry.. you have your girlfriend there and you dumped me like 2 years ago for that little girl so-"
"No I didn't! I have no idea who she is! Come on baby.. I miss you.. Get on that plane.. I got you a ticket," I claim seductively.
"You don't remember her? You don't remember us breaking up?" She finds it hard to believe.
"No.. And they want me to quit racing you need to come and tell them no.. will you come?"
"Fine.. but make sure someone meets me at the airport," she says.
"Sure thing babe! Come quick," I end the call all smiles, finally something is going right.
"You're a royal dick you know that?!" Ed turns to me in anger.
"What the hell is your problem?" I scold him my blood starting to boil with annoyance. Why are they all having a go at me? I was the one injured, the one who was out for a few days! The one who almost died!
"You just made the biggest mistake of your life and I'm done trying to stop you! You can bloody fuck off with your fucking Lola! I'm out of here!" He storms out of my hospital room and I am left alone.
I don't understand what I have done wrong. Yes.. I know they hate Lola but really? That bad? I still don't understand why she isn't here to begin with, however they did explain I have some memory lose which is why I don't remember Blondie.. But honestly.. I remember everything up to the accident.. Well sort of.. I have no clue why and how I got to the US... fuck I hate this! I smash the phone at the wall just as Blondie comes back into the room, making her jump. I don't apologize, I am in too much pain and now I'm hurting even more.
"Are you alright?" She questions, scooting closer to my bed. Her steps are small.. as if she is scared.. Could she be afraid of me?
"I won't bite.. I promise.. at least not until you have kinky sex with me.. then I cannot promise you anything," I hold up my hands.
"So that was the kind of relationship you had with her," she says in disgust.
"Had?" I smirk. She is cute this one.
"Is she coming here?" She asks.
I nod and smile in victory, however the look on her face makes my smile fade rather swiftly. I can see her heart shatter through her eyes.. It’s as though all of the colour has got sucked out of the room leaving only the bright blue of her eyes. And for some reason it makes me want to fix it. To fix her. To make everything right again, which is sooo not my MO.
"I'm sorry," I hurry to claim when I notice the tears running down her face.
"For what?" She wipes them quickly with her hands.
"For hurting you like I just did.. I don't know you even when everyone says I know you best.. I cannot.. I can't remember you," I state softly.
"You really don't remember us Harry?" She inches closer and now her thighs are touching the bed. I reach out for her hands and she climbs up, sitting down beside me
"Help me remember then.. help me retrieve what I have lost," I ask of her.
"I don't know if I can," she whispers. Her voice has this softness to it and I want to hear more of it.
"What were we like? Where did we meet? How did we end up here?" I ask. I rub circles with my finger on the back of her hand, which makes her calm a little. I watch as she takes a deep breath and goes into an explanation.
Listening to her tell this magical story about this wonderful sounding couple. The guy sounding like a much better and cleaner version of me though. I don't do exclusive. All the girls know that.. Hell! even Lola knows that! The only people I act the way she is describing with are my family and group of close friends.
She describes my room back at mum's home and my friends. Shit this is real and I cannot remember any part of it. Could it be this girl has changed me that much?
"You don't believe me," she states at some point and I cannot help but frown.
"I want to but.. this is not me.. I'm not what you're describing.. I wish I could be since you're beautiful and seem truly amazing.. but I'm this crazy racer who doesn't give a shit about anyone.. I do what I want and don't answer to anybody.. and anyway let's say what you're saying is true.. I don't deserve you.. you deserve much better than that.. I get girls like Lola who are already damaged.. you don't want me.. I'll take the shine out of you and turn you dim like me," I whisper.
"No!" She snaps. I glance up at her and there are tears streaming down her face.
"Harry.. you're not dim and definitely not damaged! You have the purest heart I know and you might be confused now but it will fade and it will come back to you.. you just need to push on and give it some more time.. I believe in you.. and you should believe in yourself too," she holds my hand in both of hers. her small fingers lace with mine and she is beautiful. I nod agreeing to her, since how can I not? She is an angel sent down to hell to redeem me and I want to go anywhere she wants to. I fall asleep at some point but don't let her go. She stays close. I can feel her next to me in my sleep and that is all that matters.

It is a day later when Lola finally shows up. She enters like a tornado making all heads snap up. I can see the anger and distrust my family has towards her. I notice the hurt in Blondie’s face and for a moment I regret asking of her to come. But then she rushes to my side and grabs my jaw, kissing the shit out of me. An R rated kiss and all regret is gone. She is fake and annoying but she is mine. How can I send her away?
"Baby what have you done to yourself?" She questions when we come up for air.
"This? This is nothing.. you should see the other guy," I joke.
She looks around then, taking in the other people in the room.
"The little girl is here?!" She inquires angrily.
"Don't mind her babe.. she's just as you said.. a little girl," I wave Blondie’s presents off.
I catch her eyes which are sending daggers on fire my way.
She then stands and takes a deep breath.
"I'm done! I thought I can help.. I thought.. What was I thinking? This is a waste of my time!" She claims.
"Come on.. don't be like this," I smile, Lola wrapping her arms around me.
"No! As long as she is here there is no point for me! I'm leaving! Have a good life Harry.. I hope you'll be happy.. I'm out of here!" And with that she is gone. Ed follows after her and mum and Gemma look heartbroken and beside themselves. But the worst is the way I feel. It is as if this beautiful stranger walked out with a piece of my heart, and the moment she stepped out the room, with her gone the room had lost some of its light.

Notes

Little by little this story is coming together, and we are filling in the missing parts..
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