The campus is buzzing today and I'm not sure why. It’s this kind of excitement everyone is sharing but me.
I am on my way to meet Liam for lunch and I cannot help but glance sideways, trying to figure it out.
Suddenly I'm knocked over, my bag sliding off my shoulder but I am able to catch it before it hits the floor and damages my laptop.
"Dammit," I mutter dropping my phone in the process.
"Didn't see you - oh Cass.. Old habits die hard ha?" Austin smiles down at me. He bends to get my phone which thank goodness isn't smashed.
"Hi.. Sorry.. I wasn't paying attention.. How are you?" I adjust my bag on my shoulder. Austin hands me my phone which I thank him for before he replies.
"Yes.. Everyone is so excited.."
"You've notice it too? I was wrecking my brain trying to figure out why! Is there something going on that I'm missing?" I shoot.
"Are you joking?" He eyes me, his brows furrowed over his eyes as he tries to figure me out.
"What? Oh forget it.. I'm late to meet Liam for lunch.." I sigh, pushing past him.
"Hey Cass," he pulls on my hand, stopping me.
I look up at him.
"It's good seeing you.." He smiles softly.
I stop and turn to face him.
"You too.. Hey.. Why don't you join us? I'm sure Liam would be glad," I offer.
"Are you meeting only Liam?" He questions suspiciously.
"Yeah.. Julie is working today," I rumble.
"OK.. Sure.. Yeah.. Why not?" His smile widens. He let's go of my hand and falls in step with me as we make our way to Liam at the cafeteria.
"Hi Cassie," someone calls as they pass.
I glance their way not sure who they are. This happens a couple of more times.
"This is a new development," Austin notes as he holds the cafeteria door open for me.
"Ever since Harry gave that interview.." I frown shaking my head.

"Hello Austin.. Fancy seeing you," Liam holds out a hand for him to shake.
"Long time mate, how's school treating you?"
"Feeling like a celebrity when hanging out with shorty here," Liam jokes, using Louis's nickname for me. I roll my eyes as I take a seat across from him.
"Everyone is hyped today ha? It's like a campus frenzy," Austin notes.
"I wonder why that may be.." Liam mumbles.
I am about to ask him what that's supposed to mean when a hand is placed on my shoulder. I look up and choke.
"Wondered when I might run into you," Harry smirks, tapping my back to ease my cough.
When I get a grip he takes the seat beside Liam.
"This is one fucking campus! Didn't realize it would be this hard finding where I need to go," he notes, holding out his hand for Austin.
"Alright there Austin?" He questions, as Austin shakes his hand reluctantly.
"Harry.. What are you doing here?" I hiss in a low voice, noting the eyes and ears turned to our table.
"Starting school, thought it's time to give it a shot.. Liam here was kind enough to let me crash at his flat for the time being," Harry slaps his back. I catch the way Liam's cheeks flush. I feel the anger rise inside of me.
"I'm out of here," I push back my chair.
The boys glare at me, and I can feel the eyes of the students around watch as I get up and leave.
"Not so fast," my arm is captured with a strong grasp.
"For once Harry can you just let me go?" I beg him, watching the people around, from the corner of my eye.
He lets go of my arm as if I stung him, but he doesn't walk away. Instead, he shoves his hands into his pockets, a somewhat sad expression on his face.
"I just wanted to talk to you," he mumbles.
I suddenly feel sorry from him. I let out a sigh and give him one nod. He falls in step with me and we make our way out the building and to a slightly less public place. I know walking with him here is a terrible idea, knowing there will be photos and speculations all over social media in a blink of an eye.
"What did I do to make you hate me so much?" He inquires sadly. I swipe my head to blink at him, not expecting such a question.
"I don't hate you," I whisper, baffled by his thought.
"So why won't you talk to me? Why do you escape the moment I come into view?" He asks, hurt written all over his features.
"Harry.. You come to my school, and it's like high school all over again.. I had a fresh start, an opportunity to start new, without being the girl with no parents.. The girl who's Nan died in a car crash.. Without being Harry Styles- the famous racer's girl.. I was finally me.." I explain.
"Did I over shadow you that much? Was I that suffocating? Why did you stay with me for so long if you had it that bad?" He accuses me.
"I- it wasn't.. It came out wrong!" I take a hold of his hands, holding them in mine to make him meet my eyes. That was a bad idea since the look in his eyes, the hurt, devastation will hunt me.
"You were the best thing that ever happened to me... You made me something more.. You made me your world and made me feel important and loved.. And I will forever love you for that.. But you left me.. I lost you.. Just like I lost everything else in my life.. So I needed something new.. And this was it," I explain.
He sighs and closes his fingers over mine.
"Do you want me to leave? Find a different college?"
"No.. I would never ask you to do that.. Besides.. You're here now.. Damage is done already," I try and joke.
A small smile flashes on his face, although the hurt is still there in his eyes.
"Cassie.. I won't lie to you.. I came here to study but I also chose this place because you're here and I want you back.. I will do my best to convince you to give us another go.. And make things right.. "
"I don't know if I want you to," I whisper.
"You do.. I know you do!" He tries to convince.
"You hurt me Harry.. You left me once.. You shattered my already shattered heart.. How do I know you won't leave me again?" I push.
"I'm not as stupid as I was!"
"I need time to think this through.. I can't.. I can't just jump in this with you.. I'm not 17 anymore.. You can't come and sweep me off my feet again, spreading your smile and charm.." I shake my head.
"OK wait! Answer this," he catches my waist and pulls me to face him. His hands move to my arms, making sure I won't back away.
"Do you believe me when I say I'm sorry?" His eyes are so intense I can't help but nod.
"And do you believe me when I say I love you? That I'm in love with you? That I love you so much I can't fall asleep at night without thinking of you?" I cannot not believe him. The truth rings with every word, every line in his face.. The shine of his eyes. I nod again.
"And.. Do you still love me? Even if it's just something little?" His voice is small and insecure.
"Yes.. You know I do," I whisper. A tear falling from my eye.
"I just needed to hear you say it," he sighs, wiping it away.
"Harry..." I whisper at him.
"Cassie please... Give me a chance.. We don't need to jump right back into it.. God knows I still don't remember much.. But every day is one day closer to remembering it all.. It comes back slowly but surely.. And every day I remember you more and love you more and I can't take the ache of not being with you.. Please.. We'll take it slow.. I'll take you out on dates.. To movies.. To picnics.. I'll watch girly movies with you and let you choose the restaurants.. Just say you'll give us a chance," he whispers, tucking a lock of my hair behind my ear.
I am caught in his spell. I want all that he said and more. I miss him. My Harry. I nod. Tears stream down my face and his eyes go wide not believing.
"You will? Was that a yes??" He cups my cheeks with his hands, brushing away tears.
"Yes.. I'll give us a chance," I cry.
I watch his eyes- his entire face lights up with pure happiness. He pulls me to him, kissing my cheek and then my forehead before crushing me to his chest and wrapping his arms around my head, burying his face into my hair.
I can hear claps, and realize people were watching us. People have seen and heard this exchange of words and emotions. I push those thoughts away and focus on Harry and me.
Harry pulls away to study me.
"We take it slow," I remind him.
"I promise Cassie Price," he melts my heart with his smile. I nod once and then turn away from him. I make my way down the street, ignoring the whispers and the phones held up to catch a photo. I walk to my next class, feeling my heart get lighter and heavier at the same time.
He won't hurt me again will he? He loves me too much to do that.. But he has done it before.. Who will stop him from doing it again?
But this time he remembers.. This time will be different.
My next class is mixed with other majors which I'm happy about since I share it with Liam. Our only class together this new semester, just like old times.
I am surprised to find him already in class, sitting at the back row, the seat next to him saved for me.
I smile widely, my face freshly washed from my early tears.
"Since when do we sit in the back?"
I wait for him to move his bag. Once he does I sit down.
"I've decided to try something new.. How was the talk with Harry?" He whispers as students pile into class.
"I think I agreed to try," I mumble.
"I was sure you'll hold out longer," Liam chuckles, giving his head a shake. I swat his arm to make him shut it.
"I'm joking.. Actually I thought he'd get his way much faster," Liam whispers.
"I think I'm happy.." I confess, a small smile playing on my lips.
"I'm glad to hear that!" Harry takes the seat next to me, making both Liam and me jump.
"What are you doing here?" I inquire, rubbing my heart. Warming it up so it can start again.
"Attending my class.. Fancy meeting you here.. Aren't you like in pre med or something?" He smirks, his eyes twinkle, and my heart which is once again working, does this little flip.
"We all have to attend this class," Liam replies.
"I'm glad I get to share a class with you lads," Harry offers us his best smiles. He leans back on his chair and reaches out to hold a strand of my hair in between his fingers, rubbing it and letting his fingers glide up and down.
"Harry.. Everyone is watching us," I mumble, leaning closer to Liam making him leave me and my hair alone.
"Let them watch.. Let them know to stay away," he claims.

The old feeling is back. The one I used to get when he used to claim me this way. And I wonder once again if this is a good thing.

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