Every morning I am woken up by Twitter and it's always articles with Niall tagged in them. The past few weeks it has had 'NIALL SECRET GIRLFRIEND MELISSA WHITELAW' obviously it isn't true but it does bother me sometimes when people make up stories because sometimes they seem so real, but I don't let it bother me, I think I should stay off social media for a while especially when your dating a pop star.
We have now all landed in Dubai which I am happy because it is the last show then a long two month well earned break, Dubai is so amazing the everything to the people to the scenery is absolutely gorgeous. I have nearly completed my album which I am beyond happy about, we just have to figure out first single release date and Niall still has no idea which I think is so cute.


"NIALL DOES IT SERIOUSLY MATTER IF YOU COME TO AUSTRALIA FIRST OR IF I COME TO LONDON FIRST SERIOUS ITS TWO MONTHS" I yell back. Right now Niall and I are in the middle of an argument about his time off and who comes where first.
"YES BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO TO THE STATES I HAVE THE GOLF THING WITH RORY MCILORY" Niall says.
"OH I'M SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW THAT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN SPENDING TIME WITH ME" ok I probably shouldn't have said that.
"IT'S ONE DAY OF GOLF SERIOUSLY" he says "YOUR BEING UNFAIR" when I know he makes random comments I know his in a mood.
"I'M BEING UNFAIR, NIALL I HAVE BEEN WITH YOU THIS WHOLE TIME ON TOUR" I say
"WELL IT'S NOT LIKE YO DO ANYTHING ELSE WITH YOUR TIME BACK HOME, I MEAN YOU DON'T WORK, YOU DON'T GO TO UNI,he shouts back and that really hurt what he has said. He knows I missed the opportunity to go to uni because of being sick and then getting the transplant and to say I do nothing when I have been through so much. I get up and leave our room and make my way into Anthony and Kylie's room
"I'm sorry, do you need me to go in their and kick his ass" Anthony offers and I laugh and shake my head.
"Maybe we should go back home, I mean it's only one more show" I suggest "Hey it's up to you" Kylie says.
"Give me a sec" I say and get up and leave their room.

"Hey can I speak to you guys for a moment" I knock on Liam's door and walk in and Louis and Harry are there too.
"Sure did you want to wait for Niall or" he asks but I shake my head, I then put my hand bag down and grab the cd out of there and throw it on the bed and all the boys look up at me.
"So a lot has happened, but basically that cd there" I point to it with my eyes "It is a first copy of my first ever album, I mean it's just a demo one I haven't done like the album cover or anything but yea" I reveal
"WOW WE HAD NO IDEA" Louis says and picks it up "Can we listen to it?" he asks
"Yea if you want to, and long story short I'm going back home and catch up with Niall later on can you make sure he listens to it once I'm gone though". I ask
"Yea of course" Harry says standing up and walks me to the door.
"Hey are you ok?" he asks me
"Yea all I good" I open the door and Harry and I are standing opposite ends of the door.
"I'm really proud of you." He says and hugs me.
"Ill see you later Harry." I say and leave.



Niall's POV:
I am such an idiot why would I say all those things saying that she doesn't do anything I mean she went through a Kidney transplant for god sakes and that's why all her friends left her, that was such a hard time for her, just all of a sudden her friends stopped contacting her and she has no idea why. I make my way over to Liam's room and he opens the door and lets me in and they are playing music.
"Niall you should listen to this" He says and I look at him confused.
I can hear the voice coming from the stereo it almost sounds familiar but I can't put my finer on who it is and I open the plain plastic cd cover and see a note inside and it says

Niall and I song:)

Oh my god it can't be, she has such an amazing voice I then turn the paper and it has lyrics at the back of it I sit listen to the song and read the lyrics a long with it.

We are broken, we can't fix it
There's no cure for our condition
Desperate eyes are staring at me
Should be hopeless but we're happy

It's not perfect here between us
Even angels have their demons
Trapped inside this twisted circle
It ain't right but it's eternal

There's a white light
And it's calling me
And it's promising ecstasy

But I don't wanna go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

We're not healthy, barely breathing
But this pain keeps my heart beating
We are lost when we're together
But I'll follow you forever

There's a white light
And it's calling me
And it's promising ecstasy

But I don't wanna go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

I don't wanna go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

I don't wanna dream without you
I don't wanna bleed without you
I'll do anything you want me to
'Cause I know you'll burn with me too
I don't wanna dream without you
I don't wanna bleed without you
I'll do anything you want me to
'Cause I know you'll burn with me too

There's a white light
It's calling me

I don't wanna go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

I don't wanna go to heaven
If you're going to hell
I will burn with you
I will burn with you

I don't wanna dream without you
I don't wanna bleed without you
I'll do anything you want me to
'Cause I know you'll burn with me too
I don't wanna dream without you
I don't wanna bleed without you
I'll do anything you want me to
'Cause I know you'll burn with me too

There's a white light
And it's calling me

This song is amazing, and I had no idea she could even sing, and she actually sing really well. The lyrics relate to us so well we have both been there for each other the good and bad times and we would literally burn with each other because that is how much I love her and I treated her badly but I will fix it.

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