Main Characters POV:

I set up the camera in my room and begin to talk.

"Hi baby" I wave both hands, "So if your watching I'm probably not here" I sniffle. "But that doesn't mean I am not always with you, and you have so many people around you who love you so much. I mean you have all your awesome uncles first Liam and Louis they are the most kind and most down to earth people you will ever meet. If you need a serious chat then Liam is the guy you talk to and then if you want to be a little bit mischievous and have some fun Louis is the guy for you.

Then there is Harry, he will always be there to talk and encourage you whenever you need him. He will always be there for you and will teach you a lot as well.

And finally Niall well he is umm his your daddy and even though I have pushed him away he will always be there for you and I know he will be an awesome dad to you and never leave or neglect you. No matter how much you push him away he will always come back and he will eventually not only be your dad, but your best friend.

Then there is Anthony, Kylie and your grandparents who will always be here, I know you will be in safe hands with everyone I don't have to worry about not being around because you will always be so loved and nurtured and protected."

I start to cry.

"I'm just sorry I am not here with you, but life has had a different plan and if I had to choose again I would always choose your life over mine, I hope you are happy and enjoying life and I guess we will meet someday. I love you baby, and this is a little song I have written for you."

I get my guitar and start to play.

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
(Yes He did)
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you


I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true.

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
(Yes He did)

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

I finish and wipe my tears and switch the camera off. I get up off the chair and go out to my balcony and sit with a pen and paper and begin writing all my letters that I need to do just incase. I write a letter basically to everyone telling them how grateful I am to have spent my life with them now it's time for Niall's letter, I take the pen and start to write.

Dear Niall, (Little Leprechaun)
You are my best friend you have always stuck by me through everything from the good to the bad and for that I am forever grateful.
The time and special moments we have shared I will hold in my heart forever and carry with me wherever I go.
Thank you isn't enough to express how grateful I am to have known you and love you.

But I also need to apologise, I am so sorry Ni. I pushed you away when you didn't deserve it. But now I am somewhere else watching over you, and our baby and I am so glad you have a little piece of me I know deep down in my heart you are going to be an amazing father. I love you so much and I guess I'll see you again someday.

A few tears have fallen on the paper, I put the pen down and put the paper in the envelope. I out my hands over my face and rub my eyes. I still can't believe that I am going to die, but as I said I wouldn't have it any other way I want my child to have a life and experience it. Truth is since I found out I haven't really spoken about it, so everything is bottled up inside of me, Kylie has tried to get me to talk but it hasn't worked. I get up from my chair and go back in my room and hide the envelopes that I have for the others as well. I sit up on my bed and just look around and rub my stomach and then there is a knock on the door, "it's open" I yell out and the door opens and Harry is here he looks sad, well I guess he knows whats going on. I get up and we meet half way and we embrace each other and I do what I haven't done in a while I start to cry uncontrollably and he rubs my back and I can hear him start to cry.

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