Will it, Won't it?

I hold my phone up to my chest and take in the message that Niall has just sent. God I miss him, so much I miss his eyes, smile, laugh, his touch and the knowing with him I was safe but what is done is done and I can't go back. A few tears fall but I quickly wipe them away. Lately I have been thinking about him what his doing, how he is feeling - probably like crap like me, the truth is the night I left him and I watched him walk out the door I thought maybe he would take no for an answer, and he would fight to keep me, and to have his child in his life but he just walked out the door without a fight maybe he didn't want to be a father or to be with me anymore I thought we were until Infinity.

"Ok that was like the worst movie I have ever seen" I say walking through my corridor making my way up to my room
"I know like there was no storyline and not even that funny." Kylie replies, we have just come back from seeing train wreck movie and we didn't like it really, the hype of the movie what lead us there but didn't live up to it. "The best part was the Rocky Road Popcorn" she says and I laugh.
I turn my bedroom door handle and I see someone with long brown hair son my bed, first I can only see her back, I turn to look at Kylie then I make my way in.

"What are you doing here?" I ask her and she starts sobbing hard as she hugs me.
"Hey, hey El what's wrong.?" I ask Eleanor as she continues to cry it such a shock to see her but I have no idea why she is here.
"I'm sorry to just come" she sniffles using her knuckles to move the bottom of her nose.
"No it's ok um here sit down, can I get you anything?"
"It's really true isn't it?" she asks me
I look over to her not really knowing what she means, and then she continues to cry with both hands over her face.
"I've lost him for good" she says and now I know exactly what she means and my heart breaks for her.
"Is it true, please I need to know?" she says and I give a simple nod, "but hey you know there not together so you never----"
"Oh come on there having a kid together it doesn't matter" she says "they are having a baby they are bounded literally forever." She says and takes a deep breath and I listen carefully to what she has to say.
"They are a family, even though they are not together, when you have a child together they are a reminder of what you have created and looking into their eyes everyday will be a reminder and probably eventually they will end up together. I cannot compete with that it would be wrong to split up a family." she says and her voice cracks and more tears come. I listen to her words and agree, I mean Niall and I are always going to have a reminder of us.
"If you don't mind me asking, but what happened between you and Louis?"
she takes another deep breath, "Umm well I don't even know we were happy, but then things just got in the way, work, school and we started seeing less of each other, but I came out on tour and we agreed to make it work, because our love was strong to get through it" she says and takes another breath "But it just wasn't working and I said some horrible things like I how meeting him ruined my life and how I hated him for making me falling in love with him and all this other crap that I didn't mean and he just left." she cries "I tried to apologise but he didn't buy any of it and yea thats what happened." she concludes.
"I'm so sorry El",
"And then only five moths of being apart his mum calls me telling me he is going to be a father and thats when I really realised it was over" she cries again and I hug her.
"Oh god sorry" she says wiping her eyes away. "No love it's ok" I say

"Umm this may sound weird, but I wrote all my feelings and stuff down when Louis and I first broke up, and well I wanted to maybe make it into a song" she says and I think for a bit "Umm you don't sing El" I chuckle "Yes I know that" she replies "I wanted you maybe help write a song and you can sing it."
"Oh yes of curse, that will be fun." I reply and smile and we try and come up with something.

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