Will it, Won't it?

"AND HERE IT IS FOR THE FIRST TIME ON OUR RADIO LIFT, PLEAE MAKE SURE TO DONATE TO COMIC RELIF AND TO THE KINDEY FOUNDATION" I am at the radio station and they are playing my new charity single.

I know you're hurting
Feels like you're learning
'Bout life the hard way
And it ain't working

Seems like forever
That you've been falling
It's time to move on
You're life is calling, yeah

his was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Cause I know how hard it can get
But you gotta lift
You gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But I know you're stronger
Stronger than this
You gotta lift
You gotta lift

When you can feel your
Whole body's aching
What's left of your heart
It won't stop breaking
You gotta let go
You took a hit
Time to pick up now
Move on from this

This was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Cause I know how hard it can get
But you gotta lift
You gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But I know you're stronger
Stronger than this
You gotta

Lift yourself up above all the hurt
Don't give it
Wipe your eyes and remember
You're better than this
Let them know
That they took their best shot
And missed
C'mon and lift

This was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Cause I know how hard it can get
But you gotta lift
You gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But I know you're stronger
Stronger than this
You gotta lift
You gotta lift

Pick up now...
Pick up now...


"WOW so that song am I right in saying you wrote it?"
"Yes, yes I did" I reply back
"Because we know One Direction and Little Mix released charity singles but they were covers, so what made you want to write one of your own." He asks me
"Well I think my journey was a bit different to theirs, I mean for me some certain parts that I saw and experienced umm hit home for me, based on my personal experiences I've had in my life, and to compare certain resources that they don't have and we do have we should all be so blessed and just thankful for what we do have access too here.
"Wow so you definitely learnt a lot while you were there, if there is anything that can maybe get people to donate not just for comic relief but to your own foundation".
"Yea umm so with The Kidney Foundation is my own charity it focuses on maybe hopefully one day finding a cure for kidney disease and our goal is for one day to hopefully maybe not have the need to have a transplant, we want to achieve where we can grow our organs from our cells, I can't really go in too much detail it's all scientific and I don't quite understand it." I chuckle and take a breath
"And with comic relief you know just we should all be so thankful to live in such a lucky country and people need to be more grateful and not take anything for granted because trust me there are much worse places to be. So if you could all please donate what you can, it will make a massive difference." I conclude my speech.


"Hey can I ask you a question?" I turn to my mum
"Yea" she replies
"Please be honest with me" I say playing with my food on the plate with my fork,she nods
"Do you think I made the right decision?" I say referring to Niall. She looks at me then looks back down.
"Mum plea---"
"No I don't, I mean about the two of you that's all your decision, but for him not to see his own child no you have made a mistake" she says
"He wasn't there mum" I say
"Look you wanted the truth, I mean look at your father and the hell he is going through with his family. You don't want Niall and your child to be like that."
My dad has recently reconnected with his parents because well there not nice people but getting along with his dad isn't easy because of the time they spent apart not knowing each other, and my dad isn't taking it to well either I can tell whenever he has had a conversation with his dad he is always so stressed and tense after it, and I can tell it is eating him up.

I go and lay down in my room, I lift my top up and place my hands on my stomach and cry I keep reliving that night over and over again, and when Niall walked out the door, I haven't even spoken to the other boys and I have become distant to Sophia, which I don't want to do but the less ties I have from him the better.

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