Will it, Won't it?

"PARENTS I'VE MISSED YOU" I yell up and hug my mum and dad hello.
I am at the airport back in Australia on a break for a week then flying out to see Niall in Europe, I am in desperate need of this break I mean I have only been doing this touring for only like a month and I am exhausted I don't know how Niall and the rest of the boys do it.

Calm, relaxed, peaceful are all the things I am feeling, the feeling in being your own bed in your own familiar environment I sent Niall a quick text saying I'm ok and got home safe and within ten seconds I am asleep.

"Come on it's 1:00pm wake up lazy" my mum starts poking me, all I want to do is sleep
"Leave me alone I want to sleep"
"No get up were going for lunch" my mum argues back
I get up, have a shower, get changed in jeans and a simple jumper and my ankle boots, I hate how I've come home to cold winter in Melbourne, thats why I am counting the days down until I'm with Niall in Europe where there is sun.

"Slow down on the sweets" My mum says as I devour my chocolate cake. My mum still worries for me like any mother would worry for their little girl it's not easy being successful , well I'm not like any normal pop star, I still have my health as my number one priority thank god everything is going very well, it hasn't even been a year since my transplant yet and already I am achieving things I never thought I could, I have a doctor come with me on tour at all times just in case. I used to be a diabetic but it's gone away which is good, I got diabetes from the medication that I am on, I still have to be careful with sweet things because it still has a chance to come back so I am always careful.

"Still not feeling well sweetie" my mum comes up to me and places her hand on my forehead, I am lying down on the couch, for the past few days I have been light headed, cramps, and haven't had an appetite which is really unusual for me. I have a doctor appointment later, and Kylie is coming with me. I have spoken to Niall and he thinks it's best for me to stay home and not come and see them in Europe, I mean I'll see what the doctor says, "ok did you need help getting up?" Kylie ask me as she grabs my handbag from the couch, and I slowly get up and my head is spinning a bit, but I mange "No all good" I make my way very slowly into her car and we head off to the hospital.

We have been waiting for what seems like forever they have run test and everything seems fine maybe just a change in the weather I mean I went from sunny California to freezing winter Melbourne. We are just waiting on my bloods now and hopefully they can just pump me with some drugs and I can feel better. In the waiting room I am reading a magazine and there is an article about Niall and Melissa, only if the paps knew who she really was it's funny Niall never mentioned he had a female cousin his family his mostly male based, maybe she's a distant cousin who he never says.

"Ok well your results are back" The doctor says
For some odd reason in the back of my head I am thinking I'm dying aren't I? Oh god shut up I say to myself


"Congratulations Your pregnant" she says I turn to face Kylie and she does the same so we are eye to eye with shocked look on both our faces.
We leave the doctors office none of us have said anything. "This stays between us ok?" I say to Kylie breaking the silence
"Yea of course, but what are you going to do?" she asks me
"I have no idea" I say truthfully, the truth is I am jumping for joy inside, I mean I'm pregnant I am beyond happy, the doctors always said because of my past history with my illness and other complications I had along the way I would have to plan to get pregnant, but the fact that it happened naturally is amazing. I know I am young but I do want to be a mother, but then there is Niall how is he going to react? Will he leave me? will I have to be a single mother? No that won't happened Niall has always stuck by me and he always promises he will always be there for me.
Before we head home Kylie and I go out for dinner, we step out of the car and the paps are everywhere ahhhh annoying.
"DO YOU TRUST NIALL WHILE HIS ON TOUR"?
"HOW DO YOU KNOW NIALL IS BEING FAITHFUL?"
"HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE CHEATING RUMOURS?"
God they are so annoying.
"EXCUSE ME PLEASE LET US THROUGH" Kylie yells and takes my hand with our heads down, she is much more confident person than me, we finally make our way in the restaurant, get seated. "How you feeling" she ask me
"I feel better actually within myself" I smile
"Your really excited about this aren't you?" God she knows me to well
"OH MY GOD YES, KYLIE I'M GOING TO BE A MUM" I yell\whisper
"I knew it, Oh my god this is so amazing, I'm going to be an aunty, you bitch getting pregnant before me" she says and cries a little
I laugh and we just talk and she is even thinking of names for the baby (wow slow down there) I have decided I am going to fly out and see Niall and tell him the news he is going to be dad, and whatever happens, happens. The one thing I am dreading his telling my parents oh and my brother but I am telling Niall first before anyone else well except Kylie.

"Hey preggers got everything" Kylie comes into my room and I giggle
"Yes I do" I say and touch my stomach
"I can't believe a little bit of Horan is growing inside you" she says and we both laugh
"Well you'll believe it when they come in another nine months" I say
I have been back to the doctor I am about a month and a half pregnant and everything is looking good I have had to adjust some medication that I have for my transplant as they can interfere with the pregnancy. I am all packed and meeting Niall in Denmark, I told him I was fine and he was more than happy that I am coming.

I am on the plane and I am tired, being pregnant takes a lot out of you I move my seat down and try and make myself as comfortable as I can. I take my headphones plug them in my phone, go to one direction's playlist and click on "Illusion' and listen to the song carefully with my eyes closed and smile when Niall's solo comes on, when his solo is on I take one headphone out and place it on my stomach

You can tie me up in chains
You can throw away the key
But there's no trapped doors
I'm not gonna leave
You're the truth I can't explain
Your the only one I see
It's not an illusion to me

"Thats's your daddy, were going to meet him very soon" I say and rub my stomach.

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