I step into the recording studio to sing a demo for the song I have written for the boys. Harry is in the booth recording his part while the others are sitting waiting their turn in the foyer are, as you need silence when you record.
"Hey boys" I squish myself on the couch in-between all the boys.
"Hey Bec, really looking forward to hear what you have written for us" Liam says "Oh thanks Li"


Twenty minutes later we are sitting around the table and I have handed a piece of paper of the lyrics of the song I have written for the boys.
"Ok so I'm going to go in the booth sing it, so you can get an idea of what it should sound like.

I'm broken, do you hear me?
I'm blinded, 'cause you are everything I see,
I'm dancin' alone, I'm praying,
That your heart will just turn around,

And as I walk up to your door,
My head turns to face the floor,
'Cause I can't look you in the eyes and say,


When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this,
Can love you more than this


If I'm louder, would you see me?
Would you lay down
In my arms and rescue me?
'Cause we are the same
You save me,
When you leave it's gone again,


And then I see you on the street,
In his arms, I get weak,
My body fails, I'm on my knees
Prayin',


When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this,


Yeah, I've never had the words to say,
But now I'm askin' you to stay
For a little while inside my arms,
And as you close your eyes tonight,
I pray that you will see the light,
That's shining from the stars above,

(And I say)


When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this,


'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah


When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah

When he lays you down,
I might just die inside (oh, yeah),
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can love you more than this,
Can love you more than this


I step out of the booth. "Ok boys any questions about that?" I ask
"Rebeca that was so amazing I can't believe you wrote it" Zayn says to me
"Thanks Zayn, i have my ways ways" "Ok so I have highlighted who I think should sing what parts but we can fix that if we need to . Liam in the booth we can do your section first". He happily nods and heads in.


"That was great Liam, very good"
He comes and takes a seat next to me Niall, Louis and Zayn then record their parts and it sounds amazing I am very proud of this song.

Now it is Harry's turn as he is singing I get flashbacks from the X Factor days of the whole thing with Harry and Caroline, this is what the songs about every time I would see her wrapped around him I would die a little inside and I know that I could treat and love him more than her. Thank god Harry's part is done I felt I was going to burst. "Ok yep that was good, you can come out now" I say and Harry makes his way out and sits on the other side of the room.

"Ok boys that was great, thank you for letting me contribute to your first ever album, I know it will be a huge success"
"Yea no worries it's nice to have you credited on our album.. Liam says
"Well speaking of miss success over here I mean a number one single and album nearly at number one" Niall says
"Oh it's not a big deal let's hope you boys get there one day soon."
"What it is a big deal you should be proud" Harry randomly says. The only words I've heard from him in months.
"Ok well I bette get going, catch up soon" I say and walk out the door

I am outside waiting for a cab since I could not be bothered driving. The cold London air is hitting my face luckily I am all rugged up.
"You wrote an amazing song" I turn around and see Harry.
"Thanks"
"No really its great" he comes and stands next to me.
"Look about" "NO NO NO NO you don't get to do this. Not after weeks and weeks of silence. So no you don't have the right to explain yourself." I say back to Harry.

"I just" "Harry what did I just say, please do me a favour and leave me alone please". and with that he walks away and finally my cab comes and i run in my flat and lay on my couch and cry myself to sleep.

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