I Can't Fall for him!
I wouldn't have it any other way
Harry's POV:
"Sam, honey wake up" I hate doing this, it has been three weeks of her being home and every day is the same old routine and I can tell she is struggling but who can blame her, it is 7.00am and Mark is here for her rehab. she started rehab last week and at first she found it really hard and she cries after every session and it hurts me she is trying so hard but these things take time. "hmmm" she moans, "come on Mark is here, I kiss her cheek where lays peacefully in bed with her eyes still closed. "noooo not today Harry" she whispers with her eyes still closed.
"I know sweetie, but come on we have to get you better."
"Good, excellent work Sam" Mark calls out to her he finished with her stretches with lifting of her legs. I am sitting at the back of the studio that I set up in our house.
"Now maybe you want to stand with your hands on the rails?" Marks asks her, but she shakes her head. "I think we might be done for the day" I stand up and Mark agrees and I go and walk him out.
I head back into the studio and see Sam crying, I rush over and sit next to her, "Sam it will get easier I promise you." I whisper and wrap my arms around her. "HOW DO YOU KNOW HARRY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH". she yells at me , I pull back away, "I'm sorry your right love." I rub her back, can you please leave me alone right now?" she whispers and I nod my head but first place a kiss on her cheek and leave her alone.
It has been a couple hours and Sam is still in the studio, I am in the kitchen and have just finished making us some lunch, I place it on a tray and head towards the studio. I use my foot to knock on the door, but there is no response, "Sam, darling it's me open up." I call out, but she is still silent. I place the tray on the floor and open the door and just see Sam day dreaming I walk up to her, and get her out of her trance, "Sam are you ok?" I ask her she sniffles and shakes her head. "Look I'm sorry for what I said before." I try and apologise, I go back and pick up the tray and place it next to her "I made some lunch" I sit opposite her on a chair. Her head is rested back on the wall as her feet dangle down from her rehab table. "I'm not hungry" she whispers "Oh come on I made my famous sandwiches," I chuckle
"I SAID I'M NOT HUNGRY HARRY" she yells at me I get up angry, I mean I know she is hurting but I am really trying my best here. "YOU KNOW WHAT SAM I KNOW ALL OF THIS SUCKS, BUT YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT FOR WHAT IT IS". I yell back at her.
"NO YOU DON'T HARRY YOU HAVE NO IDEA" she crosser her arms and yells, then I lose it,
I pick up the tray and throw it against the floor making her eyes see where the tray landed, "FUCK SAM YOU THINK IT'S HARD FOR YOU, WHAT ABOUT ME I AM THE ONE WHO HAS TO WATCH YOU GO THROUGH THIS, AND SOMETIMES I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO OR WHAT TO SAY TO YOU." I confess and she cries.
"Stop shutting me out Sam". I say and slam the door shut.
Sam's POV:
He slams the door shut , making me cry even harder. This is why I knew Harry and I were not going to be ok, he had a choice if he wanted to stay and he did and yes I am so grateful for him and his encouragement and support. I am just so angry all the time, angry of this situation, angry that I am going to be a bride in a wheel chair I am just so angry. I bang my head back against the wall and cry harder.
It has been an hour and I have been sitting alone crying. Harry hasn't come in yet which I am surprised it's not like I can get up and get him. I then do something I remove my head from the wall and use the palm of my hands and press down and turn my body a bit and try and move my legs, but nothing I then try again but nothing again
"AHHH" I yell out and cry again. Then there is a knock at the door and it's Niall.
"Hey buddy can I come in? I nod, "how you holding up?" he sits next to me and rubs my back, "honestly I have no idea" I whisper. "Come on, we are going somewhere." He picks me up and puts my in my chair.
We arrive at the destination and I see Taylor, "I'll wait here" Niall says and wheels me to her.
"Hey sweetie" she bends down and hugs me, then she wheels me to the stone where both my parents lay, "I thought you might want to catch up." Taylor says and rubs my arm and walks away chatting with Niall and Liam and Calvin.
"Hey mum, hey dad" I whisper and play with my fingernails
"So well look at me that's what has been going on" I chuckle, "I really wish you were both here" I cry. "I keep pushing Harry away, I know I shouldn't if it was any other man they would have walked away, but not Harry. I'm always yelling at him and just being a bitch to him really he does not not deserve any of it" I sniffle and use my arm to wipe my tears away.
I talk with my parents for another twenty minutes and Taylor wheels me back to the car, "Good chat then?" she asks me while wheeling me and I nod "yea thanks" I reply.
"Ok we will see you later Sam, call me if you need anything" Taylor bends down and hugs me goodbye, "see you later love" Calvin hugs me goodbye too.
We arrive home and Niall unlocks the door - hmm apparently he has a key, and Liam wheels me in and I see Harry, Sophia and Louis on the couch, Jeremy and Kate have gone away for a couple of weeks. I see Niall look at Lou and Soph and he signals them to leave the room. Leaving Harry and I alone I use my hands and place them on the wheels and wheel myself closer to Harry, I have my hands crossed in my lap and I am nervous all of a sudden. Harry shuffles closer to me and grabs my hands "I'm so sorry Harry, I don't mean to push you away." I whisper. "Don't apologise for anything, please I am the one who should be sorry I had no right to lose it at you before" he kisses my hands and I sniffle.
"I am so grateful to have you Harry, I thank god for you everyday, I'm just sorry I can't be what you need what right now." I cry. He gets on his knees and rubs my arm, "Sam you give me everything just by breathing, I love you more than anything." He whispers and kisses my cheek, and cups his hands on my cheeks and kisses me passionately. "I love you too Harry, thank you so much for being here with me,"
"I wouldn't have it any other way" he pecks my lips and picks me up and lays me down on the couch.
"Sam, honey wake up" I hate doing this, it has been three weeks of her being home and every day is the same old routine and I can tell she is struggling but who can blame her, it is 7.00am and Mark is here for her rehab. she started rehab last week and at first she found it really hard and she cries after every session and it hurts me she is trying so hard but these things take time. "hmmm" she moans, "come on Mark is here, I kiss her cheek where lays peacefully in bed with her eyes still closed. "noooo not today Harry" she whispers with her eyes still closed.
"I know sweetie, but come on we have to get you better."
"Good, excellent work Sam" Mark calls out to her he finished with her stretches with lifting of her legs. I am sitting at the back of the studio that I set up in our house.
"Now maybe you want to stand with your hands on the rails?" Marks asks her, but she shakes her head. "I think we might be done for the day" I stand up and Mark agrees and I go and walk him out.
I head back into the studio and see Sam crying, I rush over and sit next to her, "Sam it will get easier I promise you." I whisper and wrap my arms around her. "HOW DO YOU KNOW HARRY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH". she yells at me , I pull back away, "I'm sorry your right love." I rub her back, can you please leave me alone right now?" she whispers and I nod my head but first place a kiss on her cheek and leave her alone.
It has been a couple hours and Sam is still in the studio, I am in the kitchen and have just finished making us some lunch, I place it on a tray and head towards the studio. I use my foot to knock on the door, but there is no response, "Sam, darling it's me open up." I call out, but she is still silent. I place the tray on the floor and open the door and just see Sam day dreaming I walk up to her, and get her out of her trance, "Sam are you ok?" I ask her she sniffles and shakes her head. "Look I'm sorry for what I said before." I try and apologise, I go back and pick up the tray and place it next to her "I made some lunch" I sit opposite her on a chair. Her head is rested back on the wall as her feet dangle down from her rehab table. "I'm not hungry" she whispers "Oh come on I made my famous sandwiches," I chuckle
"I SAID I'M NOT HUNGRY HARRY" she yells at me I get up angry, I mean I know she is hurting but I am really trying my best here. "YOU KNOW WHAT SAM I KNOW ALL OF THIS SUCKS, BUT YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT FOR WHAT IT IS". I yell back at her.
"NO YOU DON'T HARRY YOU HAVE NO IDEA" she crosser her arms and yells, then I lose it,
I pick up the tray and throw it against the floor making her eyes see where the tray landed, "FUCK SAM YOU THINK IT'S HARD FOR YOU, WHAT ABOUT ME I AM THE ONE WHO HAS TO WATCH YOU GO THROUGH THIS, AND SOMETIMES I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO OR WHAT TO SAY TO YOU." I confess and she cries.
"Stop shutting me out Sam". I say and slam the door shut.
Sam's POV:
He slams the door shut , making me cry even harder. This is why I knew Harry and I were not going to be ok, he had a choice if he wanted to stay and he did and yes I am so grateful for him and his encouragement and support. I am just so angry all the time, angry of this situation, angry that I am going to be a bride in a wheel chair I am just so angry. I bang my head back against the wall and cry harder.
It has been an hour and I have been sitting alone crying. Harry hasn't come in yet which I am surprised it's not like I can get up and get him. I then do something I remove my head from the wall and use the palm of my hands and press down and turn my body a bit and try and move my legs, but nothing I then try again but nothing again
"AHHH" I yell out and cry again. Then there is a knock at the door and it's Niall.
"Hey buddy can I come in? I nod, "how you holding up?" he sits next to me and rubs my back, "honestly I have no idea" I whisper. "Come on, we are going somewhere." He picks me up and puts my in my chair.
We arrive at the destination and I see Taylor, "I'll wait here" Niall says and wheels me to her.
"Hey sweetie" she bends down and hugs me, then she wheels me to the stone where both my parents lay, "I thought you might want to catch up." Taylor says and rubs my arm and walks away chatting with Niall and Liam and Calvin.
"Hey mum, hey dad" I whisper and play with my fingernails
"So well look at me that's what has been going on" I chuckle, "I really wish you were both here" I cry. "I keep pushing Harry away, I know I shouldn't if it was any other man they would have walked away, but not Harry. I'm always yelling at him and just being a bitch to him really he does not not deserve any of it" I sniffle and use my arm to wipe my tears away.
I talk with my parents for another twenty minutes and Taylor wheels me back to the car, "Good chat then?" she asks me while wheeling me and I nod "yea thanks" I reply.
"Ok we will see you later Sam, call me if you need anything" Taylor bends down and hugs me goodbye, "see you later love" Calvin hugs me goodbye too.
We arrive home and Niall unlocks the door - hmm apparently he has a key, and Liam wheels me in and I see Harry, Sophia and Louis on the couch, Jeremy and Kate have gone away for a couple of weeks. I see Niall look at Lou and Soph and he signals them to leave the room. Leaving Harry and I alone I use my hands and place them on the wheels and wheel myself closer to Harry, I have my hands crossed in my lap and I am nervous all of a sudden. Harry shuffles closer to me and grabs my hands "I'm so sorry Harry, I don't mean to push you away." I whisper. "Don't apologise for anything, please I am the one who should be sorry I had no right to lose it at you before" he kisses my hands and I sniffle.
"I am so grateful to have you Harry, I thank god for you everyday, I'm just sorry I can't be what you need what right now." I cry. He gets on his knees and rubs my arm, "Sam you give me everything just by breathing, I love you more than anything." He whispers and kisses my cheek, and cups his hands on my cheeks and kisses me passionately. "I love you too Harry, thank you so much for being here with me,"
"I wouldn't have it any other way" he pecks my lips and picks me up and lays me down on the couch.
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11/4/15