I Can't Fall for him!

"Hi Mum, sorry I haven't been around much." I sit in front of her stone with my legs crossed.
"Is it supposed to hurt this much, mum?" old tears that I have left built inside me I say. Truth is I haven't spoken about the break up to anyone and I haven't cried, until now.
"I miss you so much mum" I say between my sobs, "why did he break my heart? why?"


I get back in the car and start to drive I have no idea where I am going, so I just keep driving, until I reach the destination. I step out of the car I take my shoes off and leave them in the car and I start to walk, I shut my eyes and take in all the memories I had here.

I am sitting on the sand letting the waves flood me. I am here where Harry and I had our first date and he said all those wonderful things to me, my eyes are still shut and I look up at the dark night sky and take a deep breath, I put my headphones in my phone and start to listen to Harry's voice in Infinity.

How many nights does it take to count the stars?
That's the time it would take to fix my heart
Oh, baby, I was there for you
All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah

I listen to the song carefully and I am looking up at the stars that are impossible to count, there are so many off them, therefore it is impossible to fix my heart. Harry and I were always there for each other, and now all I want the truth from Harry. I use my arm to wipe away my tears and begin to cry harder and harder clenching my body.
I can't control my tears right now everything is coming out, I quickly snap out of it and bring myself back up and stand. I let the water was my feet it is very dark where I am maybe I should head back home.

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I then notice someone behind me walking towards me and I am freaked out so I begin to walk faster but they catch up, oh my god I'm going to die now. "Sam" they call out, ok how the hell do they know my name? I turn around and notice who it is





Harry, what the hell is he doing here?

"I guess we had the same idea" he says looking at the water and I just stand there not saying anything.
I start to walk away but he pulls my arm back so I can't. "Sam please don't leave again" he says trying to put his head on my shoulder but I step away. "Leave Harry? really, correct me if I am wrong you left me" I yell at him punching his chest but I won't cry he can't see me break down. I take a deep breath "You had someone you loved you unconditionally, treated you right and wanted to be with you everyday and you threw that all away.
I then start to rub his cheek with my thumb and I get on my toes so I can reach his height and whisper "I only want you to be happy, I'm sorry it couldn't be with me" and I walk away.

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