Tell me if you love me

Ashleys POV:

“Why, when I walked in that day were you and Christine kissing?” even saying it now I feel as if it had just happened again and my heart is breaking all over again. “Was I not enough for you Luke, was I not good enough?” I say, silent tears streaming down my face. He gently wipes away my tears “Never say that Ashley, if anything I wasn’t good enough for you, I’m still not.” “So, why?” I sob. “Honestly I dont really know, I didn’t feel good enough I suppose, I was always worried you’d realise that I could never be worthy of you, Christine made me feel special, it sounds so stupid now but she made me feel good about myself.”

I listen to him speak and hear the regret in his voice. He continues “As soon as you saw us, I regretted it I told her there would never be anything between us, but I knew then I had lost you.” “And I have, your’e engaged to my best friend” I laugh at this “Luke if you really have lost me why am I here now?” “Why do we keep finding each other even after we break each other?” We both sit in silence.

“Luke, I have loved you ever since the day I have met you, I may be sitting here with this ring on my finger but I know that, you’re the only one for me its just…” “You’ve broken my heart too many times and I dont want us to both mess up our lives for something temporary.” He grabs my hand again and I feel the spark of electricity between us “Please” he begs “I won’t push you away this time, we can start over for real” He says it with so much conviction I almost allow myself to imagine it, but with Luke I would be living a fragile dream, Calum has always been my stability, my reality.

I gently squeeze his hand “Luke, this can’t go on I’m getting married, I’m sorry but I dont think I can take all this uncertainty.” “Why does it have to be uncertain?” he argues “If you break things off with Calum, I’ll marry you, I love you Ashley, your’e the only girl in the world for me.” “How many times have I heard that before?” I say, but I know I am slowly losing my certainty that I want to get married to Calum.

He smiles at me and then lowers his face to mine wrapping his arm around my waist I dont even try to stop him, as he presses his lips to mine. When I pull away slightly breathless i whisper “This is so wrong” “Is that why it feels so right?” he want to know. “If there’s a hell” I say “We’re going straight to it” “At least we’ll be together” he says.

Notes

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