Something Good Can Work

I walked towards Niall’s house, no one was home so this was the perfect opportunity. Christopher and I had spoken to my grandparents last night. I knew I hurt Gran, but I explained what was going on with me. She admitted she didn’t know and agreed I needed to be taken out of the situation even though I know it hurt her. My grandfather thought it would be for the best to, he didn’t say it…but I knew he was disappointed. Louis hadn’t been home and I hadn’t told him yet. I didn’t want to tell him.
I stepped up to the front door of Niall’s house and pulled an envelope from my bag. I taped it to the front door and turned quickly, jogging back to my house where Christopher was putting the last of my bags in the car.
“I’ve got one more thing to grab, I’ll be right out.” I said as I smiled at him, walking through the door and into the kitchen I’d called my own for the last year. Gran gave me a pitiful smile.
“I’ll still see you Gran…I promise. I couldn’t live without seeing you.” I said as I threw myself into her arms. She hugged me tightly, holding back tears.
“I love you Summer, very much.”
“I love you too.” I said as we shared a look, she finally gave me a smile and I gave her an Eskimo kiss before turning and walking up the stairs. My grandfather wasn’t home; I knew he was avoiding me leaving. It was better that way.
I walked into my room and looked around. I had gotten almost everything, just leaving a few things for when I came to spend the night because I told them I would now and then.
I walked t my bed and grabbed the framed picture of Harry and me that was placed on my night stand. I sighed and pressed it against my chest before I turned around.
“Is it true?” I jumped at the sight of him almost dropping the picture.
“It is…” I said swallowing.
“You weren’t going to tell me goodbye?” Harry said sadly, walking across the room and stopping in front of me.
“It … it’s too hard.” I said feeling ashamed, I had intended to leave without telling him. Gran must have told Louis.
“I can’t believe this, do I mean nothing to you?” He asked with tears in his eyes.
“You mean everything to me Harry, that’s why I have to go.” I said trying not to get upset.
“I love you Summer…Please, please don’t go.” He said as the tears began falling freely. He wrapped his arms around me and buried his head in my hair. I hugged him back, tightly.
“I love you too Harry, you have to let me go though.” I said through gritted teeth, trying to hold back my own tears.
“Please, I’ll change. We won’t go out, we’ll stay in and we’ll start eating kale chips and tofu and you’ll be healthy and I’ll make you happy, please don’t leave me Summer.” He sobbed, tightening his grip on me.
I let out a shaky breath and felt the tears, I couldn’t hold it back. I moved my hand to his face and looked into his blood shot eyes.
“I love you Harry. This isn’t over, it’s just paused.” This was torture.
He pressed his lips to mine, clinging to me like a lovesick puppy.
I kissed him back and he tasted like salt from his tears. Finally I moved back, taking his hands from my sides and letting them fall down to his sides. He looked at me defeated; I had never felt so bad.
I had let him down.
I didn’t say anything; I picked the picture back up and briskly walked out of the room, not looking back.
I heard him yell my name, but I didn’t turn. I didn’t stop until I got in the car, Christopher looked at me concerned.
“Please just drive.” I said, not making eye contact with him as I fastened my seat belt.
I had to do this.
I had to.
Didn’t I?


<<<< Niall P.O.V.>>>>
As I walked up the pavement towards the front door, I noticed a pink envelope taped to the front door. I arched a brow as I neared it and saw my name written across it. I plucked it from the door and walked inside, going straight to my room. I threw my backpack beside my desk and plopped down on my bed, tearing into the letter. I instantly knew it was from Summer and my heart skipped a beat. I didn’t think she’d ever speak to me again. I began reading with bated breath.
Niall,
I am sorry for everything that has happened with us. I felt like the best way to explain everything would be in a nice old fashioned letter. Sorry if you can’t read my handwriting.
You were my first real friend here; you were so kind to me. I instantly felt an attraction to you (you were absolutely my type)
You were always at the house which made it even harder to not like you. You’re funny, sweet, and caring. You’re truly wonderful. When I met Harry though, something happened. I promise I didn’t intentionally lead you on, I couldn’t figure out the best way to tell you how I felt about him. I am always scared of hurting people, so much that I will hurt myself to save them from it. I didn’t tell Harry about our exchange in my room that night because I knew you were upset and you had a moment. We all have moments. I am so angry at Harry for hurting you and I’m even angrier at myself. It was my fault, this is all my fault. You will always be special to me Niall. I feel myself spiraling out of control and the last thing I want to do is let my own self down and end up like my mother. I don’t want to die because I can’t control myself.
I’m taking control of the situation and removing myself. I’m moving to live with my father, I don’t know if it will be permanent or temporary, but I had to tell you. I hope you do not hate me, because I certainly do not hate you.
All the love,
Summer.

I blinked, feeling an emptiness in my stomach and a heavy feeling in my chest. I grabbed my phone, going straight to her name and calling.
I got a message telling me the number had been disconnected. I tossed my phone down and ran out of my room, not stopping to explain to my mum who was asking me what was wrong. I ran to her house, knocking on the door. I didn’t care who answered.
Louis answered the door and looked at me blankly.
“Where is she?” I asked, catching my breath.
“She’s gone mate. She left this morning.” Louis said with a frown.
“Fuck.” I said before turning around and grabbing my hair. This was my fault, I should have backed off and let her and Harry be happy together. We could have been friends. Why did I have to be so selfish.
“Come in, let’s have a cuppa and talk about it.” Louis said as he placed his hand on my shoulder. I turned around and nodded before following him inside.
She was gone and there was nothing I could do about it.

Notes

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