Something Good Can Work

It’s been about two weeks since Ali joined our little clique. She and Niall have been inseparable, I’m quite proud of myself. Ali’s parents were apparently very well off – Her father was a surgeon and her mother was the head of a big PR firm – they were almost never home. We’d been at her house a lot these last couple weeks and it was stellar, like decked out- she had everything.
We were sitting in her living room, the lads were drinking and I was having a smoke. It had become somewhat of a norm for me now, I’m not sure how I feel about it. I like the way it makes me feel and I’m keeping my grades up, but you know. Drugs and shit.
“Guys, I have a great plan.” Harry said as he walked into the main room from the kitchen, a bag of cookies or something in his hand.
“My cousin has this great cabin out in the woods” Harry started, looking around the room for response.
“And?” Louis asked, looking up from the couch where he was seated, Lucy between his legs and leaning back into him.
“He’s just given me permission to use it this weekend. What do you guys say about a little exploration? Bonfire and all, could be nice yeah?” He’d ask before sitting down beside me.
Ali and Niall were seated across from us on the sofa. They looked at each other and Niall nodded.
“Yeah, that sounds great.” He said giving Ali a smile.
I gave Harry a thumbs up and everyone agreed, this was a brilliant idea.
Luckily we only had to wait a few days for the weekend and I’d mastered the art of telling Gran I’d be at either Lucy’s or Ali’s and Louis was always at Niall’s and vice versa. Harry’s mum seemed much more lenient though, he just told her what he was doing.
We’d taken two cars, Harry’s and Lucy’s, but Harry and I were the only ones in his. There just wasn’t enough room for us all in Lucy’s car.
It was located pretty deep in the woods, it was small with only two bedrooms which meant someone was sleeping on the pull out in the main room. We piled into the rustic cabin, Harry and I claimed room 1 and Lucy and Louis claimed room 2. Ali and Niall decided they’d share the main room. We’d smoked the whole way up so everyone was very chill about it.
It was off to a great start.
“Love.” Harry said as he stepped up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist.
I smiled, turning in his arms and wrapping my arms around his neck. We fit together perfectly, always gave me a rumbling in my belly. The good kind.
“So I’ve been thinking…” His lips curling into a smile - dimple on full display while green hues focused on me. I arched a brow, he seemed suspicious.
“That’s never good…” I interjected
“Be nice.” He pouted. “I’ve been thinking about you and me. Us.” He sucked in his bottom lip, I felt like my knees would give out at any given moment.
I stay silent as he looks at me with a fire in his eyes I’d never seen before.
“I want you to be my girlfriend, Summer. Officially, like just mine. Will you?” His normally lazy voice had pep to it I feel an excitement was dwelling inside of him.
I smiled, he had scared me at first, but this was not what I was expecting. I’d told him no boyfriends, just friends. He’d told me it worked because he didn’t do girlfriends anyway. A fact that had been confirmed by multiple girls at the school – they were either trying to warn me or to make me feel used. Either way I never really cared, he made me feel something I’d never felt before so I couldn’t just stop.
If only feelings were that simple.
I blinked slowly, not sure what to say. We were practically together already, the only thing different would be a label. What’s a label though? Surely we’re beyond that? I shouldn’t be difficult, I should just say yes.
Why don’t I?
“Why do we need to call each other by anything other than our names, Harry? Will you like me less if I’m not known as your girlfriend?” I question.
“I just, don’t see why not? I mean, you’re not seeing anyone else are you?” He asked with an expected confusion in his tone.
I inhale, looking at the space between us. Our feet pointed toward one another as I ponder how to make myself sound interested, but slightly put off by the label of a girlfriend.
“Well, I mean… No I’m not and I don’t want to. I just am scared that this…” I drew an arrow between us as I spoke. “I’m scared this will change.” I confirm.
“No, it won’t. It’ll just tell other guys to back off.” He was trying to sway my decision, but this was only making it worse.
“So you just want to claim me? Show me off?” I feel my cheeks heating up, not the time to have our first argument, definitely bad timing.
“No, Summer. You’re twisting my words! I just wanted to be with you, fucks sake.” He said stepping away from me, I could tell he was agitated, but I was agitated too.
“I am simply restating what you’re saying to me Harry.” I defend.
“No you’re making it into something it’s not and fuckin’ never mind if you’re going to be like this.” He said throwing a hand into the air and turning to walk out of the room.
“Great.” I sigh, leaning my head back against the chest I’m standing in front of.
I grab my bag and then my phone, clicking on Lucy’s name. I hit the message button;
“I just got into a fight with Harry. Fuck.”
I pressed send and sat on the bed, lying back and letting my blonde curls stretch out beside me.
I felt my phone chirp.
Lucy :
What happened? You alone?
Summer:
Yes, in the room. I don’t know where Haz has gone.
Lucy:
I’m coming to you.
I sat my phone on the bed and sat up, looking around at the décor. It was decked out in mostly cabin themed stuff; wood, bears, fish, ultra masculine things. I traced my fingertip along the dresser, it was extra clean. It had to have been cleaned recently.
“What’s happenin’ then” Lucy asks as she walks into the room, Ali behind her. I wasn’t really expecting them to come together, but oh well.
“I don’t know, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I panicked. It just seemed like such a bad idea, I don’t even know why.” I groan, feeling like I’ve just made a complete ass of myself in front of Harry.
“He asked you to be his girlfriend?” Lucy gasped, looking at Ali who also had her jaw dropped in amazement.
“Missing the point Luce, I’m fucked this up.” I grimace, looking over at Ali who is giving me a sympathetic look.
“Well just tell him you want to be his girlfriend and to fuck this little conversation you’ve just had. Move along.” Lucy said with a chuckle, looking to Ali to join in her laughter.
“Yeah, well he said never mind. So I’d feel awkward as hell walking out there and saying that…” I felt silly, made something out of nothing. I mean, it didn’t seem like nothing then? I’m confused, just confused.
My internal struggle must be obvious because Ali and Lucy are looking at me with furrowed brows.
“Okay, I’ll go talk to him.” I say and turn around, walking out the door and leaving them alone.
I walk through the house, the soles of my sneakers squishing against the hard wood.
I open the door to the backyard, the lake is spread out for miles – there was a setup for a bonfire and a few blankets on logs. I spotted Harry throwing rocks into the water, his wild curls blowing in the breeze.
“Haz.” I call, walking up behind him.
“Yeah, what is it…” He asks, solemn as ever. I loved when he was pouty.
“I’m sorry babe. I got cold feet.” I say walking up beside him and looking out at the water, the sun setting in front of us cast a peach glow to our skin.
“No, I just thought you wanted it too. I misread.” He said, looking down at me. His face was so handsome, that dimple. Those beauty marks. Those eyes. Oh god I’m smitten.
“You didn’t. I panicked, I want to. I don’t want anyone else, so yah. Be my boyfriend?” I say with a pout, my lashes batting as I dramatize my apology.
He rolls his eyes, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and pulling me into his side. He placed his lips against the top of my head.
“Fine, let’s get this fire started then.” He moved his face quickly to mine, pecking a fast smooch on my lips before giving me that goofy grin. “Girlfriend.”

Notes

Brown Eyes - Lady Gaga
Love Lockdown - Kanye
For Lovers - Jake Fior (ft Pete doherty)
Washed out - New Theory


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