MadHouse
She's Confident
Louis POV.
She looked sad for some reason and I didn’t know why. The thing she was trying to tell me was like it hurt her or something. I sat patiently waiting for her to speak. I could tell she was hesitant to tell me but I didn’t want to pressure into anything she didn’t want to do. I could see the confusion in her eyes as she stared at the lower end of the bed.
I reached for hand and grabbed it, slowly squeezing to reassure her it was okay. She looked up at me with a smile that easily interpreted as a weak thank you which I gladly returned to her. She took a long deep breath then facing me.
“Okay don’t say anything till I’m finished okay?” I nodded, a little confuse but ready to hear what she had to say. “Back in the 6th grade, I had a best friend named Beck. We always hung out every day and we were very close. His parents hung with mine and we loved each other like best friend.” She looked at me to see if I was getting any of it. I nodded my head for her to keep going.
“Over that period of time I feel in love with him. Every moment we spent together turnt into a usual bestie day into a special love for him but I didn’t know if he felt the same way until 11th grade. He asked me out and of course like an idiot I said yes because I fell in love with him.” I looked at her kind of amused at the fact that she fell in love at a young age. Then again this isn’t a time to laugh so I kept the comment I wanted to say inside.
“We had dated from the beginning of 11th grade to the beginning of 12th grade. One day we were at my house alone. He told me he wanted to know EVERYTHING about me. This included the events that happened in my life that were depressing and brutal.” I knew exactly what she was talking about. The same things that broke my heart when I heard them.
“I told him about my mom, my sister, my grandmother, and everything that happened to me. Basically everything I told you, I told him. Now on the contrary, he wasn’t as understanding as you. The reaction I was hoping to get wasn’t there. He basically went from loving me to hating me. I tried to get him to stay but he wouldn’t even look at me.” I could tell this was hurting her by the way her features softly turned into sadness.
She took another long breath, this one being a shaky one. I rubbed her back to let her know its okay. Her grip on my hand tightened as she continued. “He said that the things that happened to me disgusted him and made him not want to date me. He said that me and my family were crazy and that he didn’t want to be around when my dad came back to kill me” I could feel the anger rise in me at these words. How could you treat someone like that? They spill out there darkest secrets to you and all you do is disown them? Like what fucker does that?
At this point she was sobbing but trying to hold it in. I pulled her closer to me and wrapped her into my embrace which I know she loves. She instantly started to calm down a little and faintly wrapped her arms around me. “What he said hurt me. I watched him walk out that day and never forgave myself for letting him go like that.” How could she blame herself? No way in the world this was her fault! “The last 2 years of high school were a living hell. He ignored me and avoided me every time I tried to talk or get near him. I couple days after trying to get him to talk to me, I had found out that he broke up with me through several people. The kid didn’t even have to balls to break up with me in person!” At this point she was full on pissed. I could see why though. I would beyond mad if someone broke up with me and not tell me to my face. She sat up and wiped her eyes furiously.
She stared at the door in front of her, not blinking or looking away. “He told everyone about my life and they all made fun of me for it. That’s when i started cutting again. Everyone soon found out about that to and used it against me. All my “so called” friends chose Beck over me and left me. Never talked to me again” She used air quotations while saying so called. I cringe a little at the mentioning of her cutting. She on the other hand, only got madder.
“He bullied me every day and I could not get over the fact that it was my fault.” Her anger slowly faded out and she slump back down on the bed, still not looking my direction. She took a long time to talk so I decided to say something that’s been on my mind. “Talia, it’s not your fault.” She looked at me with tears at the brim of her eyes. She shook her head up and down then she broke down. I instantly came closer to her and embraced her again.
“Yes it is. It’s my fault I fell in love with him. It my fault I told him everything. It’s my fault I trusted him. It’s my fault my bullying started. All my fault Louis.” I shook my head, neglecting the thought of it being her fault.
I let go of her and lifted her head to mine. “Talia you can’t blame everything on yourself. You need to know that. You were a teenager who just like any other teenager, thought they found the right one. It’s okay. It happened to me too. My story is bad too” She looked up at me with a challenging look. “How?” I took this time to soften the moment.
“Well I had loved my girlfriend Hannah but obviously she didn’t feel the same. She cheated on me the day our anniversary was. She of course didn’t feel bad about it. Doesn’t matter though because the fucker used her for sex anyways and said it wasn’t that good so I think I won in this situation.” She chuckled at my comment and shook her head.
“How could someone not love you? You’re like amazing!” I threw my hands up in the air, agreeing with her. “I know! That’s what I was thinking!” She laughed and wiped her tears away. She got and turn to me, coming closer. She sat down on my lap, straddling me. She wrapped her arms around me as I wrapped my arms around her waist.
“Well I love you” I smiled and rested my forehead on hers. “And I love you too” We just sat there staring into each other eyes. I brought my hand up and wiped the remaining tears on her face. She simply smiled at me which caused me to smile. I asked her the question that I always asked myself.
“How did I get so lucky to have you?”She giggled and shook her head, shrugging her shoulders a little. “I don’t know Tommo, why?” I chuckled at her arrogant comment. I pecked her lips again and pulled back. “Taliaaaaaaaaa” Her eyes lit up instantly as I did that.
“Whaaaaaaat?’ She copied me. “I’m sleepy baby” She giggled again and nodded her head. “ME TOOOOOOAH!” I shook my head at her silliness. She was always silly when she was sleepy. I wrapped one arm around her and slid myself back and laid down, reaching the top.
“Lou I’m sleeping on you tonight” I smiled to myself, not really caring. “Fine with me” She chuckled and I could clearly hear the sleepiness in her voice. I turned off her lamp and wrapped my arms around me, not really feeling like pulling the covers up.
“Lou?” I stared up at the ceiling as the street lights shined through the thin curtains. “Hmm?” She turned to face me, snuggling her face into my neck which I know she loves. “Will you sing to me?” I smiled to myself and nodded slightly. “What do you want to here?” I could tell she was half way asleep but she gave me an answer. “Confident” She mumbled.
I started singing her favorite part from the song. She soon was asleep and I was on my way.
“Cause she’s confident oh no no oh no no and I’m down with it oh no no oh no no she’s confident, could tell by the way she walks in the roooooom yeah”
I was soon into a peaceful slumber, dreaming of me and Talia and our future together. A great future.
She looked sad for some reason and I didn’t know why. The thing she was trying to tell me was like it hurt her or something. I sat patiently waiting for her to speak. I could tell she was hesitant to tell me but I didn’t want to pressure into anything she didn’t want to do. I could see the confusion in her eyes as she stared at the lower end of the bed.
I reached for hand and grabbed it, slowly squeezing to reassure her it was okay. She looked up at me with a smile that easily interpreted as a weak thank you which I gladly returned to her. She took a long deep breath then facing me.
“Okay don’t say anything till I’m finished okay?” I nodded, a little confuse but ready to hear what she had to say. “Back in the 6th grade, I had a best friend named Beck. We always hung out every day and we were very close. His parents hung with mine and we loved each other like best friend.” She looked at me to see if I was getting any of it. I nodded my head for her to keep going.
“Over that period of time I feel in love with him. Every moment we spent together turnt into a usual bestie day into a special love for him but I didn’t know if he felt the same way until 11th grade. He asked me out and of course like an idiot I said yes because I fell in love with him.” I looked at her kind of amused at the fact that she fell in love at a young age. Then again this isn’t a time to laugh so I kept the comment I wanted to say inside.
“We had dated from the beginning of 11th grade to the beginning of 12th grade. One day we were at my house alone. He told me he wanted to know EVERYTHING about me. This included the events that happened in my life that were depressing and brutal.” I knew exactly what she was talking about. The same things that broke my heart when I heard them.
“I told him about my mom, my sister, my grandmother, and everything that happened to me. Basically everything I told you, I told him. Now on the contrary, he wasn’t as understanding as you. The reaction I was hoping to get wasn’t there. He basically went from loving me to hating me. I tried to get him to stay but he wouldn’t even look at me.” I could tell this was hurting her by the way her features softly turned into sadness.
She took another long breath, this one being a shaky one. I rubbed her back to let her know its okay. Her grip on my hand tightened as she continued. “He said that the things that happened to me disgusted him and made him not want to date me. He said that me and my family were crazy and that he didn’t want to be around when my dad came back to kill me” I could feel the anger rise in me at these words. How could you treat someone like that? They spill out there darkest secrets to you and all you do is disown them? Like what fucker does that?
At this point she was sobbing but trying to hold it in. I pulled her closer to me and wrapped her into my embrace which I know she loves. She instantly started to calm down a little and faintly wrapped her arms around me. “What he said hurt me. I watched him walk out that day and never forgave myself for letting him go like that.” How could she blame herself? No way in the world this was her fault! “The last 2 years of high school were a living hell. He ignored me and avoided me every time I tried to talk or get near him. I couple days after trying to get him to talk to me, I had found out that he broke up with me through several people. The kid didn’t even have to balls to break up with me in person!” At this point she was full on pissed. I could see why though. I would beyond mad if someone broke up with me and not tell me to my face. She sat up and wiped her eyes furiously.
She stared at the door in front of her, not blinking or looking away. “He told everyone about my life and they all made fun of me for it. That’s when i started cutting again. Everyone soon found out about that to and used it against me. All my “so called” friends chose Beck over me and left me. Never talked to me again” She used air quotations while saying so called. I cringe a little at the mentioning of her cutting. She on the other hand, only got madder.
“He bullied me every day and I could not get over the fact that it was my fault.” Her anger slowly faded out and she slump back down on the bed, still not looking my direction. She took a long time to talk so I decided to say something that’s been on my mind. “Talia, it’s not your fault.” She looked at me with tears at the brim of her eyes. She shook her head up and down then she broke down. I instantly came closer to her and embraced her again.
“Yes it is. It’s my fault I fell in love with him. It my fault I told him everything. It’s my fault I trusted him. It’s my fault my bullying started. All my fault Louis.” I shook my head, neglecting the thought of it being her fault.
I let go of her and lifted her head to mine. “Talia you can’t blame everything on yourself. You need to know that. You were a teenager who just like any other teenager, thought they found the right one. It’s okay. It happened to me too. My story is bad too” She looked up at me with a challenging look. “How?” I took this time to soften the moment.
“Well I had loved my girlfriend Hannah but obviously she didn’t feel the same. She cheated on me the day our anniversary was. She of course didn’t feel bad about it. Doesn’t matter though because the fucker used her for sex anyways and said it wasn’t that good so I think I won in this situation.” She chuckled at my comment and shook her head.
“How could someone not love you? You’re like amazing!” I threw my hands up in the air, agreeing with her. “I know! That’s what I was thinking!” She laughed and wiped her tears away. She got and turn to me, coming closer. She sat down on my lap, straddling me. She wrapped her arms around me as I wrapped my arms around her waist.
“Well I love you” I smiled and rested my forehead on hers. “And I love you too” We just sat there staring into each other eyes. I brought my hand up and wiped the remaining tears on her face. She simply smiled at me which caused me to smile. I asked her the question that I always asked myself.
“How did I get so lucky to have you?”She giggled and shook her head, shrugging her shoulders a little. “I don’t know Tommo, why?” I chuckled at her arrogant comment. I pecked her lips again and pulled back. “Taliaaaaaaaaa” Her eyes lit up instantly as I did that.
“Whaaaaaaat?’ She copied me. “I’m sleepy baby” She giggled again and nodded her head. “ME TOOOOOOAH!” I shook my head at her silliness. She was always silly when she was sleepy. I wrapped one arm around her and slid myself back and laid down, reaching the top.
“Lou I’m sleeping on you tonight” I smiled to myself, not really caring. “Fine with me” She chuckled and I could clearly hear the sleepiness in her voice. I turned off her lamp and wrapped my arms around me, not really feeling like pulling the covers up.
“Lou?” I stared up at the ceiling as the street lights shined through the thin curtains. “Hmm?” She turned to face me, snuggling her face into my neck which I know she loves. “Will you sing to me?” I smiled to myself and nodded slightly. “What do you want to here?” I could tell she was half way asleep but she gave me an answer. “Confident” She mumbled.
I started singing her favorite part from the song. She soon was asleep and I was on my way.
“Cause she’s confident oh no no oh no no and I’m down with it oh no no oh no no she’s confident, could tell by the way she walks in the roooooom yeah”
I was soon into a peaceful slumber, dreaming of me and Talia and our future together. A great future.
Notes
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