MadHouse
It's Been A While
TALIA’S POV.
I just laid there. Not moving. Just hearing my door open and close repeatedly. I guess I made it back. I try to sit up but I’m lightly force back down and told to stay still, but I couldn’t. I wanted to get up and I wanted to get up now. “Mam you’re going to have to stay still until were finish please” After countless amounts of tries to get up, I finally listened and stayed still until they were finished.
Everything was still a pure blur and I couldn’t quite make out the faces due to the amount of pain I felt in my head right now. “Her stats or normal and her heartbeat is steady.” Is all I heard before one of the nurses came over and changed my IV bag to a new one.The never ending rush of pain surged through my body as I fought to stay awake just a little longer but that seemed inevitable for me. The last thing I heard was them saying my heart was slowing down. “Were losing her! Get the defibrillator” Then there was black.
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The whole room was quiet. I heard the shuffling of footsteps before my door closed. I could feel a heavy presence surrounding me as I lay there awake, but my eyes closed. I heard the tapping of shoes coming towards me. I slowly opened my eyes, staring at the ceiling before finding the large lengthy frame standing directly beside me, looking at a clipboard before focusing their eyes on my blue ones. He had soft eyes the held the color of an earthy tone. He had a full head of short blonde hair with brown at the roots. He smiled happily at me before speaking.
“Well it’s about time you woke up this morning sleepy head.” My eyes met his and I looked at him confused. “Morning?” He nodded. “I thought I woke up yesterday?” He chuckled and sat his clipboard down beside me. “Well you did but you went into mild shock, almost falling back into a coma but we safely revived you and you went into a deep sleep for a while.” I nodded, realization spreading across my face. He walked over to a roller chair, pushing it over to me than sitting down. “Now I have a couple of questions to ask you just to make sure your memory is perfectly fine.” I nodded my head, wincing at the pain it brought me.“What’s your first name?” Opening my eyes from my mild set back, I answered him. “Talia.”
“How about your full name?” He chuckled before looking back down at his clipboard.
“Oh, aha Talia Gigi Innes.”
“Good. When were you born?”
“July 28 1993”
“Where?”
“Las Vegas Nevada”
“How old are you?”
“19 years old.”
“What is today?”
“Ummm…November 3 I think?”
He looked up and smiled, nodding his gratefully that I knew what today was. “Good. So you are set to go then.” Writing something down on his papers before looking back up at me. “Wait so I miss Halloween?” He chuckled and nodded his head, walking over to the desk in my room, picking up the remainder of his things. “Awhhh man no fair!” He completely laughed at this and sighed. “Oh don’t be a baby, you didn’t miss much.” I chuckled before moving my hair out my face. “Well your set to see your friends if you want?”
I wanted nothing more than too see my friends, including the boys right now. I missed then so much. I especially missed Louis. God I couldn’t wait to see him. I was pulled away from my thoughts. “Talia?” His eyes searched for mine as I looked up at him quickly nodding my head. “Okay then, I’ll send them in then. Oh and here is your phone.” He held it out and I took it gratefully. “Thanks.” He nodded before walking to the door, opening it, walking out, and then closing it. I sighed as the small yet intensifying invisible mist of quietness floated all around me. My eyes met my hands as I just stared into an overwhelming black pit of nothingness before I heard the door open, my eyes shooting up, meeting a pair of green eyes.
AZALEA’S POV.
We all sat in the living room, saying nothing. Just waiting for the doctor to come back out. I only remember the bits and pieces of last night. Everything was fine. She was awake. Then they rushed in there and all I heard was screams and things crashing into the walls as they tried to save her. God only knows how she is right now. What if she is still in a coma? What if she is brain dead? What if she died? I soon felt a hand on mine, causing me to look straight up into a pair of sparkling green eyes, ones that resembled mine. “Azalea, she is fine. Nothing is wrong. The doctor will come back out and let us know okay?” I knew he could tell what I was thinking. When it came to Harry. Louis and he could read any of us like an open book.
I sighed before laying my head in his shoulder. “I know I know Harry, I’m just scared.” My mind flew back to Louis as we came home that night. He looked terrible when I went into his room. He laid there, curled up into one spot of the bed, eyes filled with a mixture of hurt, guilt and sadness. I felt so bad for him. We all did. He was never the same after Talia’s accident. Her being in a coma, devastated him and I bet to him it felt like a ton of bricks being thrown at him almost every day of every hour. I mean you have to understand, this is the love of his life we are talking about here.
Soon the door to her room opened and out came Dr. Simmons. He looked to his right and saw us sitting there, dying to know the outcomes of the little scene from yesterday. He walked over and stood in front of us. We all looked at him with pleading eyes as to what happen ended in a good way. “Well...” He started off, looking at his clipboard. “She is perfectly fine. She just woke up from her power nap and is now fully awake. Her memory is perfectly fine so she should know you guys. You guys can go see her. Just don’t bombard her with limitless amount of questions.” A big wash of relief showered over me as the news sunk in. She was okay. Talia was okay. I felt a smile slide across my face, this time meeting my eyes. He voice broke through the wave of happiness that filled the air. “Though I suggest one of you go in first, see what happens with her, and then the rest of you can go in all at one time.”
We all nodded and he walked away. “Well who is it going to be?” Tori’s voice came through the all our thoughts, making all of us stand up. We waited, eyes darting back and forth to each other. I didn’t show it but in my mind, I was hoping they would say me but I didn’t let the arrogance peak through so I stayed quiet. Finally someone spoke up, that someone being Niall. “I think Azalea should go.” My eyes shot up to his, becoming wide. Everyone else soon agreed that it should be me. “A-are you guys sure though? I don’t want to be the one doing it if you guys truly don’t want me too.” They nodded to let me know they were sure. I sighed. Happiness flowing inside of me. I gave a small smile and greatly thanked them. “Okay then, I’ll be back.” They nodded before sitting down. I was going to walk away but Harry pulled me back and turned me around, leaning down to whisper in my ear. “Don’t be scared, everything will be fine babe I promise.” I nodded and smiled. Kissing his cheek and squeezing his hand before turning to walk away. I made it to her room which was a couple of steps away from where we were sitting at. I stopped in front of the door, taking a few breaths before slowly opening the door. And there she was. Laying there, looking pretty yet bored by the lack of company in her room, which was none at the moment. I finally get to have my chaingster back.
NIALLS POV.
We watched Azalea walk to her room. You could tell she was nervous just by the way her facial expression held it. She finally opened the door and went in, the closing of its echoing filling the hallways. We sat there for a while before Lina speaking up, saying something we all were thinking.
“I can’t believe she is awake, i-I just…c-can’t.”
We all looked at her, who was looking at the ground. Her hands shaking uncontrollably and her face held nothing but disbelief. Soon Zayn cradled her into his side, not letting her go as she seemed to calm down a little. “I know me either.” We all seem to speak up after this. Talking about how we couldn’t believe this is happening. Then Liam said something that made us all quiet again.
“What about Louis, how are we going to tell him?”
We all looked up at him, not saying anything to his question. The most of us about to say I don’t know until Harry spoke up first.
“Don’t worry about that, Azalea has it all figured out.” He said, not meeting our gazes. What did he mean she had it all figured out?
TALIA’S POV.
My body seem to relax as I saw Azalea walk in. Looking dead at me, worry spread across her face. “Talia?” I looked up to her, sending her a small smile in reassurance. “Flowerbomb.” She giggled at her nickname. Suddenly her arms found me, holding me in a tight embrace. I did the same, silent tears of happiness streaming down her face. “Shhhh, don’t cry Azalea. It’s okay, I’m here now.” She looked up, smiling at me before wiping her tears away. She sat down next to me, our eyes never leaving each other.
“I missed you Talia.” My smile was wiped off my face as I finally took in her state. She looked so dull and not as perky as she used to be. Her eyes, they were a darker shade of green, the brightness in them gone. Her hair was held in a useless ponytail that was about to come lose any time soon.Her skin was close to being pale and her face not holding make-up. I knew if she looked this back, then the others did too. I put them through hell being stubborn. I knew I should have come back sooner. I made them feel sad and depressed. I felt horrible for putting them through this. “I missed you too Azalea. So much.” She smiled and grabbed my hand. “How was your time with Anabelle?” I felt myself light up at the mentioning of her name. “It was great. I finally got to see her, actually touching her was just soothing me. I feel better now.” She smiled looking down, it not reaching her eyes. I could tell she was still sad and I could see a glimpse of madness in her eyes. “Azalea I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you guys and I realize what I put you guys through. I feel like complete shit right now. Not just because I hurt you guys but because I just woke up and my head hurts like hell right now.” She giggled before looking back down at her hands. “I ‘m not mad anymore Talia. I stopped being made when I realized all that matters if you waking up.” I smiled at her and pulled her in for a hug. As I pulled away from our embrace, she sighed. “Ready to see the others?” I smiled happily and nodded. “Can’t wait.” She laughed at my excitement. I mean I was truly excited, I could not wait to see them all, even Louis. I just know he still looks bad but I hope me being awake can finally put his nightmares to rest.
Azalea’s voice brung me back to present day. “Talia?” I looked up at her smiling. “Yea?” She didn’t seem too happy to what she had to repeat. “I said that Louis…not here.” My smile was slowly wiped away from my face as guilt filled my body. He wasn’t here? How could he not be here? Then I remembered him being completely miserable just seeing me like this. How he cried all day over me but not once leaving my side. “I told him what happen to you last night and he couldn’t stand to see you in any more pain so he didn’t come today.” I felt the tears coming to my eyes. I never meant to hurt Louis. My slight scare from last night hurt him and put him in a hiding state. I wanted him here. Soon Azalea was to my side, hugging me. “I’m sorry Talia. I tried to talk him into it but he refuse. I’m so sorry.” I sob quietly into her shoulder, not able to keep in the hurt and guilt any longer. I forgot that the others were outside so I finally stopped crying. “I think you can bring the others in now.” She let go and looked at me. “You sure I mean we could all come back tomorrow if you want?” I nodded my head and shooed her to go get them. She got up and walked to the door. “HURRY UP I WANNA SEE MY FRIENDS GIRL!” She giggled and waved me off. I laughed as she shut the door. Anxious to see my friends.
Soon the door opened, and in came the group I been waiting for. They all looked towards me, smiling happily. I smiled back and waved for them to come over. First was Lina. She came over and hugged me tightly.
“Oh god I missed you so much Talia.” I chuckled, rubbing her back to soothe her from the forming tears in her eyes. “I miss you too Lili.” She pulled away, wiping her tears. I studied her from up and down. She looked so beautiful. Her hair was longer, still the brownish-blackish tint it was originally and she looked a little skinnier than I remember. “Lili you look gorgeous girl!” She chuckled and smiled. “Thank you Talia. It means a lot coming from you.” I continued to smile as she step back, letting the others come to me.
Penelope came over and latched herself on to me, hugging so tight I thought I was going to die. “Penelope your killing me.” I managed to choke out from the snuggling embrace. She chuckled, heat rising to her cheeks as she pulled away, mumbling a sorry. “It’s okay, it’s glad to know that’s how much you miss me” I laughed with her until she backed away, letting Niall come to me.
I pulled him into me, hugging him closely. He shifted, bringing his mouth closer to my ear. “Don’t you ever do that again Talia, ever.” I sighed, feeling the tears come back. Niall was like one of the babies out of the group of us and I felt the need to take care of him even though he is grown. He was like a little brother I never had and I felt so bad putting him through this. I kissed his cheek softly, smoothing down his hair as he let out silent sobs that could barely be heard in the room. “I won’t Niall, I promise.” He in return kissed my cheek and pulled away. I patted his hand and waited for the next person to come to me.
Liam. My silent partner in crime. He stood there staring at me, smiling. I smiled back, hoisted myself up so I could sit up better. “Come over here you little devil.” He chuckled and made his way over to me. I felt the tensing in his muscles as he hugged me. As you know, Liam is the dad of the group all the time. I take Penelope’s place when she isn’t up for the job, making me the mom.“It’s been hard without you Talia. It really has.” I hugged him tighter and sighed. “I bet it has Liam.” He chuckled at my reference and pulled away. He sat down next to Penelope. Tori came over hugged me. I hugged her back. “I’m so glad my twin is back.” Me and Tori really were like twins. “ Me too.” She smiled and pulled away. Tori’s hair was longer, and I mean WAY longer. And let’s just say, she got A LOT curvier than before. She sat down on Niall’s lap and nuzzled her face in his neck.
Leaving on Harry and Zayn. My eyes met Zayn’s, his staring at the floor. “Zayn…” His head shot up, looking directly at me. I held my arms out, motioning to him to come here. He hesitated, but shot over, hugging me tightly against his body. I took in his scent, strong and masculine. Patting his back, he sighed into my shoulder.I felt a wetness on my gown, then realize that Zayn was crying. “I can’t stay strong anymore Talia, I had to do it for everyone else.” He sadly whispered in my ear, shattering my heart. My near death experience had caused nothing but tragedy and sadness in this group and I couldn’t stand the hurt that they all felt, all because I decided to let some stupid letter get to me. “I’m sorry Zayn, I really am. I never meant to hurt you guys.” I lowly said in his ear. He sighed, tears stopped falling as I felt the coolness of the tear stained gown dry. “All that matters now is your back and safe. That’s all that matters now.” I nodded and sighed. He soon pulled away and went to go sit down.
Then there was Harry. I could see the hurt, guilt, and sadness in his dull green eyes. ‘Get over here curly.” He came over and I pulled him into my embrace. He quickly bursted out in tears as he held on to me. Me and Harry have gotten so close over the last few months. We do everything together if I’m not hanging with Louis and I tell him everything, just like he tells me. “I was so terrified. I-I was s-scared t-that we were g-gonna lose y-you. L-louis was s-scared he was g-gonna l-lose you.” I felt my heart bust into a tiny pieces of guilt. “I tried to stay strong but I couldn’t do it anymore. I missed you so much Talia. I’m so glad your back.” Now my sobs were relentlessly coming out but I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I hated seeing them cry, all of them. He pulled away and sat in the chair next to me by the wall. I sighed and rubbed my forehead. What I had to say, I had to get it out now.
“Guys, I am so sorry. I feel like complete shit for putting you guys through all of this and making your life full of sadness and fright that I might die. I never thought I would do it again.” I looked down to my hands as I continued talking. I could feel their stares on me but I didn’t want to look up. “I never thought I would cut again, ever. It never occurred to me that it might happen again. I thought I was cured and fine, but I wasn’t. I sorry for hurting you guys, turning your lives upside down, and making you wait so long on me. Truth is, I was there the whole entire time. I watched you guys go through hell waiting for me to wake up, for me to come back to you guys. I didn’t want to leave Anabelle. I missed her for so long. This was the only time I could truly see her as in physical form and not spiritual. I hugged her for the first time in 3 years and I didn’t want to leave but I knew that if I left for good, I would have nothing but 10x more the guilt I already have now on me.” I took one long breath before saying one last thing. I met her green eyes as she stared back at me.” Azalea, I am s sorry. I promised you. I promised you I would stop. I promised I wouldn’t do it again. I lied to you. I put you through the exact same thing you went through the last time I did it. I never meant to hurt you or all of you for that matter. I’m just, I’m just so sorry guys. I put you guys through hell and you guys stayed. You guys stayed with me. You never left.” I finally let the cries out as I sat there, my face in hands as I cried and cried until I felt pairs of arms wrap around me.
I cried even harder. Even though I put them through some much shit, they stayed. They stayed for me. One by one they surrounded me into a group hug. I felt so much better in the hug right now. One part was missing. Louis was missing. My other half. I needed him here so I could personally apologize to him. I needed him here with me.
Soon they pulled away, grabbing chairs and sitting all around my bed. I felt so loved. I felt so relieved that I had true friends by my side. We were all laughing about the celebrity ball that is happening tonight, which I am going to. The doctor said I could leave, I figured that was Anabelle’s doing. I told you she has her ways. Soon one question completely caught me off guard, sending the group into utter silence. “Why’d you do it?” I heard Liam’s voice say, his face automatically guilt and sorrow. “No no I need to tell you guys this.” They all looked up, listening intently. My eyes met Azalea’s for a moment, I know she told them some things. “How much did you tell them?” She thought about it for a minute before answering me. “Just the main points, not the story.” I nodded and sighed. “I just now heard this story from Anabelle hours ago when I was in a coma so bear with me here, okay?” The all nodded and waited for me to continue. “When I was a baby, my father wanted to kill us all; me, my mom, and my sister. We managed to get away and go to my grandmother house. On a rainy night, he found us and during the mess of screams and fighting going on, me and my sister managed to get away. Stan, which is my father, killed my grandmother and my mom that night.”
“I thought your mom and dad died in a car crash?” I sighed and shook my head. “That’s what I thought before I got the letter which I will tell you about later. Now, he beat my mom to a pulp then put her body into the car, angling it so it could roll of the bridge, put her foot on the gas then let her go. Anabelle ran to the nearest neighbor and told them to called the police. The found the car and everything but didn’t know what happen so the case was closed. When I 7, me and my sister was staying with Anabelle. Her mom was at work so it was just us. Azalea was out in the backyard bathing her dog puddles. The doorbell had rung and my sister told me to stay in the room while she answers it so I did. I was playing with my dolls when I heard the closet door open. Now I told you guys I was diagnosed with asthma when I was 5 years old. When I saw him, he had a sinister smile on his face. He told me he has been waiting for this moment. I panicked and was looking for my inhalers but he had both so I was slowly dying and he hit me in the head, knocking me out. I woke up in the hospital and didn’t remember a thing so there was no case made. Lastly, my sister. He killed her also. He purposely crashed into her on the highway, causing her car to flipped 7 times, her being ejected from it.” I never once cried telling this whole story. My eyes settled on the white sheets covering my legs.
I looked up to see them looking at me, some with tears in their eyes and some with anger. “So what about the note?” I closed my eyes. “I don’t have it on me but I do know what it said.” I was about to sum it up when Azalea stood up, took a piece of bloody paper out her pocket, and hand it to me. I slowly opened it and hesitated reading it. “Talia you don’t have to do this. It’s fine.” I shook my head at Tori’s words and went on. My mouth opened but nothing came out. I needed to read this to them so everything makes sense but my body froze. I could feel the heat of my nervousness surround the room, swallowing piece by piece. I was snapped out of my state by Harry’s hand on my arm, calming me down.
My body seem to relax and I was determined to read this to them without crying because it was not going to get to me, not now. I opened my mouth again and as I read, my voice seem strong and had determination in it. Soon I finished and looked up to see everyone staring at me. Time to take this whole mess of a story home. “That day when Zayn gave me the mail, this was in it and after I read it, it all came back to me. The times when I use to cut and cry because I thought my parents were killed naturally but it was him. Stan. He killed my mom, sister, and grandmother. I also found out during my coma that he tried to kill me twice. I know this is a big mess and shit and I m truly sorry for all of this, I really am guys. I just hope you forgive me.” I met all of their eyes, mine being masked in fresh tears. Finally Niall spoke up.
“Of course were not going to forgive you because there’s nothing to be sorry about. Yes we were sad and hurt but guess what? Your back now and that is all that matters right now. We still love you and we never stopped, just know that. No matter what happens to any of us, were still gonna be here for one another.” I smiled at him, wiping my tears away as I nodded my head. Letting him know I understood. “GROUP HUG!!!” I heard Lina say. We all laughed as we made one big group around me, hugging each other. We stayed like this for a while, enjoying the silence. I manage to get out what I was trying to say all along. “I love you guys.” The all said it back. We soon broke up and they sat back down in their chairs. They were just catching me up on the 2 weeks I missed before the doctor came back in. We all turned to look at him before I smiled. “Hello again Talia, I see we have a little friendly reunion here?” I chuckled and nodded my head. “Oh please were much more like family.” I said as I gestured to all of them, making the laugh.
“So are you ready to go today?” I sighed and nodded my head. I felt much better and relaxed after everything that happened right now and nothing could be better than spending time with the best people in the whole world right now. “So ready.” He smiled back at me. “Well let’s get you out of these stupid cords shall we?” I nodded my head in agreement. The whole group got up and headed for the door. The door was about to close when Azalea stuck her head back in, looking at me. “Your clothes are on the table next to you!” I smiled and thanked her before she left. The doctor started removing all the tubes and cords from me and sooner than later, we were finished and he left for me to change. I stood up carefully, making sure I don’t pass out or making myself light headed from getting up to fast. I took off my gown and went to the bathroom, freshening myself up before putting my clothes. There was a little makeup bag on top of my clothes. I opened it, revealing my toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, my comb and brush, bobby pins, and my usual makeup stuff. I smiled at how smart she was knowing to bring me my essentials. I quickly washed myself with the rag given to me by the nurse, dried myself off, and headed back over to the clothes. I put on my matching bra and panties. Yes I love to match okay? Don’t judge me.
I looked at the clothes brought. It was my favorite oversized sweater that I loved to wear when I’m feeling sad, sick, or if it was a lazy day, my black leggings, leg warmers, and my red UGG boots. I put everything on and put my hair up into a messy bun but still making sure it looked good. I packed up everything and threw the gown in the laundry basket in the corner. I headed for the door then stopped. I looked back at the room, smiling to myself. I’m so glad I’m here right now, alive. Thank god Louis came to check up on me cause if he didn’t, I wouldn’t be here and I wouldn’t be able to let Louis know how I feel.
I sighed then left the room, softly closing the door. I headed over to my group of friends, smiling. “Okay guys let’s go then!” We walked to the front desk so I could sign some papers then sign out. I quickly did so and said some goodbye’s to the nurses and the doctor. We all walked out of the hospital and towards the cars. I got in with Azalea and Harry. As we followed the other car out of the hospital parking lot, Azalea looked back at me. “Ready for tonight Talia?” I met her eyes and smiled. “Super ready” I looked out the window, watching the cars on the opposite side go by feeling happy yet nervous. Tonight I was going to confess my love for no other than Louis Tomlinson.
I just laid there. Not moving. Just hearing my door open and close repeatedly. I guess I made it back. I try to sit up but I’m lightly force back down and told to stay still, but I couldn’t. I wanted to get up and I wanted to get up now. “Mam you’re going to have to stay still until were finish please” After countless amounts of tries to get up, I finally listened and stayed still until they were finished.
Everything was still a pure blur and I couldn’t quite make out the faces due to the amount of pain I felt in my head right now. “Her stats or normal and her heartbeat is steady.” Is all I heard before one of the nurses came over and changed my IV bag to a new one.The never ending rush of pain surged through my body as I fought to stay awake just a little longer but that seemed inevitable for me. The last thing I heard was them saying my heart was slowing down. “Were losing her! Get the defibrillator” Then there was black.
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The whole room was quiet. I heard the shuffling of footsteps before my door closed. I could feel a heavy presence surrounding me as I lay there awake, but my eyes closed. I heard the tapping of shoes coming towards me. I slowly opened my eyes, staring at the ceiling before finding the large lengthy frame standing directly beside me, looking at a clipboard before focusing their eyes on my blue ones. He had soft eyes the held the color of an earthy tone. He had a full head of short blonde hair with brown at the roots. He smiled happily at me before speaking.
“Well it’s about time you woke up this morning sleepy head.” My eyes met his and I looked at him confused. “Morning?” He nodded. “I thought I woke up yesterday?” He chuckled and sat his clipboard down beside me. “Well you did but you went into mild shock, almost falling back into a coma but we safely revived you and you went into a deep sleep for a while.” I nodded, realization spreading across my face. He walked over to a roller chair, pushing it over to me than sitting down. “Now I have a couple of questions to ask you just to make sure your memory is perfectly fine.” I nodded my head, wincing at the pain it brought me.“What’s your first name?” Opening my eyes from my mild set back, I answered him. “Talia.”
“How about your full name?” He chuckled before looking back down at his clipboard.
“Oh, aha Talia Gigi Innes.”
“Good. When were you born?”
“July 28 1993”
“Where?”
“Las Vegas Nevada”
“How old are you?”
“19 years old.”
“What is today?”
“Ummm…November 3 I think?”
He looked up and smiled, nodding his gratefully that I knew what today was. “Good. So you are set to go then.” Writing something down on his papers before looking back up at me. “Wait so I miss Halloween?” He chuckled and nodded his head, walking over to the desk in my room, picking up the remainder of his things. “Awhhh man no fair!” He completely laughed at this and sighed. “Oh don’t be a baby, you didn’t miss much.” I chuckled before moving my hair out my face. “Well your set to see your friends if you want?”
I wanted nothing more than too see my friends, including the boys right now. I missed then so much. I especially missed Louis. God I couldn’t wait to see him. I was pulled away from my thoughts. “Talia?” His eyes searched for mine as I looked up at him quickly nodding my head. “Okay then, I’ll send them in then. Oh and here is your phone.” He held it out and I took it gratefully. “Thanks.” He nodded before walking to the door, opening it, walking out, and then closing it. I sighed as the small yet intensifying invisible mist of quietness floated all around me. My eyes met my hands as I just stared into an overwhelming black pit of nothingness before I heard the door open, my eyes shooting up, meeting a pair of green eyes.
AZALEA’S POV.
We all sat in the living room, saying nothing. Just waiting for the doctor to come back out. I only remember the bits and pieces of last night. Everything was fine. She was awake. Then they rushed in there and all I heard was screams and things crashing into the walls as they tried to save her. God only knows how she is right now. What if she is still in a coma? What if she is brain dead? What if she died? I soon felt a hand on mine, causing me to look straight up into a pair of sparkling green eyes, ones that resembled mine. “Azalea, she is fine. Nothing is wrong. The doctor will come back out and let us know okay?” I knew he could tell what I was thinking. When it came to Harry. Louis and he could read any of us like an open book.
I sighed before laying my head in his shoulder. “I know I know Harry, I’m just scared.” My mind flew back to Louis as we came home that night. He looked terrible when I went into his room. He laid there, curled up into one spot of the bed, eyes filled with a mixture of hurt, guilt and sadness. I felt so bad for him. We all did. He was never the same after Talia’s accident. Her being in a coma, devastated him and I bet to him it felt like a ton of bricks being thrown at him almost every day of every hour. I mean you have to understand, this is the love of his life we are talking about here.
Soon the door to her room opened and out came Dr. Simmons. He looked to his right and saw us sitting there, dying to know the outcomes of the little scene from yesterday. He walked over and stood in front of us. We all looked at him with pleading eyes as to what happen ended in a good way. “Well...” He started off, looking at his clipboard. “She is perfectly fine. She just woke up from her power nap and is now fully awake. Her memory is perfectly fine so she should know you guys. You guys can go see her. Just don’t bombard her with limitless amount of questions.” A big wash of relief showered over me as the news sunk in. She was okay. Talia was okay. I felt a smile slide across my face, this time meeting my eyes. He voice broke through the wave of happiness that filled the air. “Though I suggest one of you go in first, see what happens with her, and then the rest of you can go in all at one time.”
We all nodded and he walked away. “Well who is it going to be?” Tori’s voice came through the all our thoughts, making all of us stand up. We waited, eyes darting back and forth to each other. I didn’t show it but in my mind, I was hoping they would say me but I didn’t let the arrogance peak through so I stayed quiet. Finally someone spoke up, that someone being Niall. “I think Azalea should go.” My eyes shot up to his, becoming wide. Everyone else soon agreed that it should be me. “A-are you guys sure though? I don’t want to be the one doing it if you guys truly don’t want me too.” They nodded to let me know they were sure. I sighed. Happiness flowing inside of me. I gave a small smile and greatly thanked them. “Okay then, I’ll be back.” They nodded before sitting down. I was going to walk away but Harry pulled me back and turned me around, leaning down to whisper in my ear. “Don’t be scared, everything will be fine babe I promise.” I nodded and smiled. Kissing his cheek and squeezing his hand before turning to walk away. I made it to her room which was a couple of steps away from where we were sitting at. I stopped in front of the door, taking a few breaths before slowly opening the door. And there she was. Laying there, looking pretty yet bored by the lack of company in her room, which was none at the moment. I finally get to have my chaingster back.
NIALLS POV.
We watched Azalea walk to her room. You could tell she was nervous just by the way her facial expression held it. She finally opened the door and went in, the closing of its echoing filling the hallways. We sat there for a while before Lina speaking up, saying something we all were thinking.
“I can’t believe she is awake, i-I just…c-can’t.”
We all looked at her, who was looking at the ground. Her hands shaking uncontrollably and her face held nothing but disbelief. Soon Zayn cradled her into his side, not letting her go as she seemed to calm down a little. “I know me either.” We all seem to speak up after this. Talking about how we couldn’t believe this is happening. Then Liam said something that made us all quiet again.
“What about Louis, how are we going to tell him?”
We all looked up at him, not saying anything to his question. The most of us about to say I don’t know until Harry spoke up first.
“Don’t worry about that, Azalea has it all figured out.” He said, not meeting our gazes. What did he mean she had it all figured out?
TALIA’S POV.
My body seem to relax as I saw Azalea walk in. Looking dead at me, worry spread across her face. “Talia?” I looked up to her, sending her a small smile in reassurance. “Flowerbomb.” She giggled at her nickname. Suddenly her arms found me, holding me in a tight embrace. I did the same, silent tears of happiness streaming down her face. “Shhhh, don’t cry Azalea. It’s okay, I’m here now.” She looked up, smiling at me before wiping her tears away. She sat down next to me, our eyes never leaving each other.
“I missed you Talia.” My smile was wiped off my face as I finally took in her state. She looked so dull and not as perky as she used to be. Her eyes, they were a darker shade of green, the brightness in them gone. Her hair was held in a useless ponytail that was about to come lose any time soon.Her skin was close to being pale and her face not holding make-up. I knew if she looked this back, then the others did too. I put them through hell being stubborn. I knew I should have come back sooner. I made them feel sad and depressed. I felt horrible for putting them through this. “I missed you too Azalea. So much.” She smiled and grabbed my hand. “How was your time with Anabelle?” I felt myself light up at the mentioning of her name. “It was great. I finally got to see her, actually touching her was just soothing me. I feel better now.” She smiled looking down, it not reaching her eyes. I could tell she was still sad and I could see a glimpse of madness in her eyes. “Azalea I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you guys and I realize what I put you guys through. I feel like complete shit right now. Not just because I hurt you guys but because I just woke up and my head hurts like hell right now.” She giggled before looking back down at her hands. “I ‘m not mad anymore Talia. I stopped being made when I realized all that matters if you waking up.” I smiled at her and pulled her in for a hug. As I pulled away from our embrace, she sighed. “Ready to see the others?” I smiled happily and nodded. “Can’t wait.” She laughed at my excitement. I mean I was truly excited, I could not wait to see them all, even Louis. I just know he still looks bad but I hope me being awake can finally put his nightmares to rest.
Azalea’s voice brung me back to present day. “Talia?” I looked up at her smiling. “Yea?” She didn’t seem too happy to what she had to repeat. “I said that Louis…not here.” My smile was slowly wiped away from my face as guilt filled my body. He wasn’t here? How could he not be here? Then I remembered him being completely miserable just seeing me like this. How he cried all day over me but not once leaving my side. “I told him what happen to you last night and he couldn’t stand to see you in any more pain so he didn’t come today.” I felt the tears coming to my eyes. I never meant to hurt Louis. My slight scare from last night hurt him and put him in a hiding state. I wanted him here. Soon Azalea was to my side, hugging me. “I’m sorry Talia. I tried to talk him into it but he refuse. I’m so sorry.” I sob quietly into her shoulder, not able to keep in the hurt and guilt any longer. I forgot that the others were outside so I finally stopped crying. “I think you can bring the others in now.” She let go and looked at me. “You sure I mean we could all come back tomorrow if you want?” I nodded my head and shooed her to go get them. She got up and walked to the door. “HURRY UP I WANNA SEE MY FRIENDS GIRL!” She giggled and waved me off. I laughed as she shut the door. Anxious to see my friends.
Soon the door opened, and in came the group I been waiting for. They all looked towards me, smiling happily. I smiled back and waved for them to come over. First was Lina. She came over and hugged me tightly.
“Oh god I missed you so much Talia.” I chuckled, rubbing her back to soothe her from the forming tears in her eyes. “I miss you too Lili.” She pulled away, wiping her tears. I studied her from up and down. She looked so beautiful. Her hair was longer, still the brownish-blackish tint it was originally and she looked a little skinnier than I remember. “Lili you look gorgeous girl!” She chuckled and smiled. “Thank you Talia. It means a lot coming from you.” I continued to smile as she step back, letting the others come to me.
Penelope came over and latched herself on to me, hugging so tight I thought I was going to die. “Penelope your killing me.” I managed to choke out from the snuggling embrace. She chuckled, heat rising to her cheeks as she pulled away, mumbling a sorry. “It’s okay, it’s glad to know that’s how much you miss me” I laughed with her until she backed away, letting Niall come to me.
I pulled him into me, hugging him closely. He shifted, bringing his mouth closer to my ear. “Don’t you ever do that again Talia, ever.” I sighed, feeling the tears come back. Niall was like one of the babies out of the group of us and I felt the need to take care of him even though he is grown. He was like a little brother I never had and I felt so bad putting him through this. I kissed his cheek softly, smoothing down his hair as he let out silent sobs that could barely be heard in the room. “I won’t Niall, I promise.” He in return kissed my cheek and pulled away. I patted his hand and waited for the next person to come to me.
Liam. My silent partner in crime. He stood there staring at me, smiling. I smiled back, hoisted myself up so I could sit up better. “Come over here you little devil.” He chuckled and made his way over to me. I felt the tensing in his muscles as he hugged me. As you know, Liam is the dad of the group all the time. I take Penelope’s place when she isn’t up for the job, making me the mom.“It’s been hard without you Talia. It really has.” I hugged him tighter and sighed. “I bet it has Liam.” He chuckled at my reference and pulled away. He sat down next to Penelope. Tori came over hugged me. I hugged her back. “I’m so glad my twin is back.” Me and Tori really were like twins. “ Me too.” She smiled and pulled away. Tori’s hair was longer, and I mean WAY longer. And let’s just say, she got A LOT curvier than before. She sat down on Niall’s lap and nuzzled her face in his neck.
Leaving on Harry and Zayn. My eyes met Zayn’s, his staring at the floor. “Zayn…” His head shot up, looking directly at me. I held my arms out, motioning to him to come here. He hesitated, but shot over, hugging me tightly against his body. I took in his scent, strong and masculine. Patting his back, he sighed into my shoulder.I felt a wetness on my gown, then realize that Zayn was crying. “I can’t stay strong anymore Talia, I had to do it for everyone else.” He sadly whispered in my ear, shattering my heart. My near death experience had caused nothing but tragedy and sadness in this group and I couldn’t stand the hurt that they all felt, all because I decided to let some stupid letter get to me. “I’m sorry Zayn, I really am. I never meant to hurt you guys.” I lowly said in his ear. He sighed, tears stopped falling as I felt the coolness of the tear stained gown dry. “All that matters now is your back and safe. That’s all that matters now.” I nodded and sighed. He soon pulled away and went to go sit down.
Then there was Harry. I could see the hurt, guilt, and sadness in his dull green eyes. ‘Get over here curly.” He came over and I pulled him into my embrace. He quickly bursted out in tears as he held on to me. Me and Harry have gotten so close over the last few months. We do everything together if I’m not hanging with Louis and I tell him everything, just like he tells me. “I was so terrified. I-I was s-scared t-that we were g-gonna lose y-you. L-louis was s-scared he was g-gonna l-lose you.” I felt my heart bust into a tiny pieces of guilt. “I tried to stay strong but I couldn’t do it anymore. I missed you so much Talia. I’m so glad your back.” Now my sobs were relentlessly coming out but I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I hated seeing them cry, all of them. He pulled away and sat in the chair next to me by the wall. I sighed and rubbed my forehead. What I had to say, I had to get it out now.
“Guys, I am so sorry. I feel like complete shit for putting you guys through all of this and making your life full of sadness and fright that I might die. I never thought I would do it again.” I looked down to my hands as I continued talking. I could feel their stares on me but I didn’t want to look up. “I never thought I would cut again, ever. It never occurred to me that it might happen again. I thought I was cured and fine, but I wasn’t. I sorry for hurting you guys, turning your lives upside down, and making you wait so long on me. Truth is, I was there the whole entire time. I watched you guys go through hell waiting for me to wake up, for me to come back to you guys. I didn’t want to leave Anabelle. I missed her for so long. This was the only time I could truly see her as in physical form and not spiritual. I hugged her for the first time in 3 years and I didn’t want to leave but I knew that if I left for good, I would have nothing but 10x more the guilt I already have now on me.” I took one long breath before saying one last thing. I met her green eyes as she stared back at me.” Azalea, I am s sorry. I promised you. I promised you I would stop. I promised I wouldn’t do it again. I lied to you. I put you through the exact same thing you went through the last time I did it. I never meant to hurt you or all of you for that matter. I’m just, I’m just so sorry guys. I put you guys through hell and you guys stayed. You guys stayed with me. You never left.” I finally let the cries out as I sat there, my face in hands as I cried and cried until I felt pairs of arms wrap around me.
I cried even harder. Even though I put them through some much shit, they stayed. They stayed for me. One by one they surrounded me into a group hug. I felt so much better in the hug right now. One part was missing. Louis was missing. My other half. I needed him here so I could personally apologize to him. I needed him here with me.
Soon they pulled away, grabbing chairs and sitting all around my bed. I felt so loved. I felt so relieved that I had true friends by my side. We were all laughing about the celebrity ball that is happening tonight, which I am going to. The doctor said I could leave, I figured that was Anabelle’s doing. I told you she has her ways. Soon one question completely caught me off guard, sending the group into utter silence. “Why’d you do it?” I heard Liam’s voice say, his face automatically guilt and sorrow. “No no I need to tell you guys this.” They all looked up, listening intently. My eyes met Azalea’s for a moment, I know she told them some things. “How much did you tell them?” She thought about it for a minute before answering me. “Just the main points, not the story.” I nodded and sighed. “I just now heard this story from Anabelle hours ago when I was in a coma so bear with me here, okay?” The all nodded and waited for me to continue. “When I was a baby, my father wanted to kill us all; me, my mom, and my sister. We managed to get away and go to my grandmother house. On a rainy night, he found us and during the mess of screams and fighting going on, me and my sister managed to get away. Stan, which is my father, killed my grandmother and my mom that night.”
“I thought your mom and dad died in a car crash?” I sighed and shook my head. “That’s what I thought before I got the letter which I will tell you about later. Now, he beat my mom to a pulp then put her body into the car, angling it so it could roll of the bridge, put her foot on the gas then let her go. Anabelle ran to the nearest neighbor and told them to called the police. The found the car and everything but didn’t know what happen so the case was closed. When I 7, me and my sister was staying with Anabelle. Her mom was at work so it was just us. Azalea was out in the backyard bathing her dog puddles. The doorbell had rung and my sister told me to stay in the room while she answers it so I did. I was playing with my dolls when I heard the closet door open. Now I told you guys I was diagnosed with asthma when I was 5 years old. When I saw him, he had a sinister smile on his face. He told me he has been waiting for this moment. I panicked and was looking for my inhalers but he had both so I was slowly dying and he hit me in the head, knocking me out. I woke up in the hospital and didn’t remember a thing so there was no case made. Lastly, my sister. He killed her also. He purposely crashed into her on the highway, causing her car to flipped 7 times, her being ejected from it.” I never once cried telling this whole story. My eyes settled on the white sheets covering my legs.
I looked up to see them looking at me, some with tears in their eyes and some with anger. “So what about the note?” I closed my eyes. “I don’t have it on me but I do know what it said.” I was about to sum it up when Azalea stood up, took a piece of bloody paper out her pocket, and hand it to me. I slowly opened it and hesitated reading it. “Talia you don’t have to do this. It’s fine.” I shook my head at Tori’s words and went on. My mouth opened but nothing came out. I needed to read this to them so everything makes sense but my body froze. I could feel the heat of my nervousness surround the room, swallowing piece by piece. I was snapped out of my state by Harry’s hand on my arm, calming me down.
My body seem to relax and I was determined to read this to them without crying because it was not going to get to me, not now. I opened my mouth again and as I read, my voice seem strong and had determination in it. Soon I finished and looked up to see everyone staring at me. Time to take this whole mess of a story home. “That day when Zayn gave me the mail, this was in it and after I read it, it all came back to me. The times when I use to cut and cry because I thought my parents were killed naturally but it was him. Stan. He killed my mom, sister, and grandmother. I also found out during my coma that he tried to kill me twice. I know this is a big mess and shit and I m truly sorry for all of this, I really am guys. I just hope you forgive me.” I met all of their eyes, mine being masked in fresh tears. Finally Niall spoke up.
“Of course were not going to forgive you because there’s nothing to be sorry about. Yes we were sad and hurt but guess what? Your back now and that is all that matters right now. We still love you and we never stopped, just know that. No matter what happens to any of us, were still gonna be here for one another.” I smiled at him, wiping my tears away as I nodded my head. Letting him know I understood. “GROUP HUG!!!” I heard Lina say. We all laughed as we made one big group around me, hugging each other. We stayed like this for a while, enjoying the silence. I manage to get out what I was trying to say all along. “I love you guys.” The all said it back. We soon broke up and they sat back down in their chairs. They were just catching me up on the 2 weeks I missed before the doctor came back in. We all turned to look at him before I smiled. “Hello again Talia, I see we have a little friendly reunion here?” I chuckled and nodded my head. “Oh please were much more like family.” I said as I gestured to all of them, making the laugh.
“So are you ready to go today?” I sighed and nodded my head. I felt much better and relaxed after everything that happened right now and nothing could be better than spending time with the best people in the whole world right now. “So ready.” He smiled back at me. “Well let’s get you out of these stupid cords shall we?” I nodded my head in agreement. The whole group got up and headed for the door. The door was about to close when Azalea stuck her head back in, looking at me. “Your clothes are on the table next to you!” I smiled and thanked her before she left. The doctor started removing all the tubes and cords from me and sooner than later, we were finished and he left for me to change. I stood up carefully, making sure I don’t pass out or making myself light headed from getting up to fast. I took off my gown and went to the bathroom, freshening myself up before putting my clothes. There was a little makeup bag on top of my clothes. I opened it, revealing my toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, my comb and brush, bobby pins, and my usual makeup stuff. I smiled at how smart she was knowing to bring me my essentials. I quickly washed myself with the rag given to me by the nurse, dried myself off, and headed back over to the clothes. I put on my matching bra and panties. Yes I love to match okay? Don’t judge me.
I looked at the clothes brought. It was my favorite oversized sweater that I loved to wear when I’m feeling sad, sick, or if it was a lazy day, my black leggings, leg warmers, and my red UGG boots. I put everything on and put my hair up into a messy bun but still making sure it looked good. I packed up everything and threw the gown in the laundry basket in the corner. I headed for the door then stopped. I looked back at the room, smiling to myself. I’m so glad I’m here right now, alive. Thank god Louis came to check up on me cause if he didn’t, I wouldn’t be here and I wouldn’t be able to let Louis know how I feel.
I sighed then left the room, softly closing the door. I headed over to my group of friends, smiling. “Okay guys let’s go then!” We walked to the front desk so I could sign some papers then sign out. I quickly did so and said some goodbye’s to the nurses and the doctor. We all walked out of the hospital and towards the cars. I got in with Azalea and Harry. As we followed the other car out of the hospital parking lot, Azalea looked back at me. “Ready for tonight Talia?” I met her eyes and smiled. “Super ready” I looked out the window, watching the cars on the opposite side go by feeling happy yet nervous. Tonight I was going to confess my love for no other than Louis Tomlinson.
Notes
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